Getting ready for the day taking the kiddo to school
I'm listening to music to get me pumped about the day
Writing because I'm at peace things are well
I want a rush but its a temporary fix that fades
I don't think about her as much
Tired of missing people who don't want to be part of my life
Work is great I just do what needs to be done
I've been planning a date night
Making me time or hang with someone special
I'm one who loves and willing to do so
No one accepts I'm not lowering myself to be accepted
I smile more for once things feel right
I laugh because others actually have a sense of humor
Thankful for everything and the little things

Build my mind then the flood came, Loss more then I ever gain.
Drenched clothes from the compromised waves.
How cold the drips of change!
Everything I am once again caving in,
If I stay I'll drown in this place..
As I watch from a distance it breaks and crumbles
Under the sea I found out it's all mud
I'm tired of making sand casltes and Caves
All I wanna do is live in love

In a place where love begun;
Where time has finally gave birth to the sun
The fire that illuminates the darkest night;
Reflected by the moon..A glowing light

In a place where the stars seats and rest;
A wonderful scene at night wishing for the best
In an empty bucket, we drink and drown;
With the pain of knowing we can never be found

Fall forward to a million light-years away;
Where your consciousness drifts while your body stay
Imagining the vast universe within your palm's reach;
A dream-scape for the weary minds when a soul weakens slowly being leeched

Give some and take some a balance for the loathsome;
That will never happen in the case of the lonesome
When one feels living means just to slowly die;
Evaporates like water, a sorrowful rain as they cry

I give no answers I ask no questions;
I seek for the truth with my own explorations
I bleed out hope I breathe in faith;
To survive a life of a never ending hate

They say that love
is a strong word
so believe me
when it's said, it's heard
I know I'm not
the prince charming
you've been waiting for
but I don't want to be harming
you're feelings when
I tell you
that the only person that doesn't
love you, is yourself.

they only appear when i shut my eyes
but id rather see them claw
from underneath my bed

whilst it's breath never brushes my skin
i still hear it's shrieks and cries
the others are still asleep

and id rather see and face my fears
than live in this wretched body -
because i promise you,

it never stops mocking my sanity

If you're hearts broken
i'd love to say I could fix it
but I'm hopeless
and I just can't help you
because you're afraid to tell yourself
that you love you
because you might not love you back the same
if you see yourself as beautiful
than you will think you're beautiful as well
and if you believe that you've got a great mind
then you'll never hate being around you
and you keep those feelings hidden
then you will never know
just how
you feel about you
telling you is not up to me
nor he or she or anyone other than you
so don't be sad or you won't be glad
because the one that you love will be crying because of you
but when you smile at them
they can't help but smile back
because you love you
you just have to let you know...

In my desperation
to understand your disappearance
ive mulled that word over in my maze of a mind
way too many times
i can no longer find its meaning.

I open my umbrella when I am indoor;
As I break mirrors
I spill salt on sore;
While walking under ladders..
I let black cats pass me by
I write 3 for a tragedy;
As 666 spokes the life out of me..
I go out on fridays when the date strikes 13
I have been having bad luck ever since I was 15...