And all of the sudden I'm happy
I don't wish to disappear anymore
Some thoughts still follow me
it feels like an ugly dress I wore
The air used to feel so heavy
almost feeling lost in a corridor

And all of the sudden I'm jumping
bringing fresh air to my lungs
Indeed closing wounds each week
even those of when I was young

And all of the sudden I'm singing
praise and joy for the Lord
I stopped those thoughts of sickness
I'm not in the mood to be bored
Life is too short not to live it
So I decided to go out and explore

And all of the sudden I'm loving...
loving myself and the ones around me
Not only expecting, but giving...
giving myself encouraging words
accepting what I can do and don't

I'll keep writing this story
sometimes lines will come out sad
some others won't
But today I'm living the hour
Being happy
Keep on jumping
Always singing
Endless loving.

I am not spring
frost thaws eternally
from shallow-rooted fronds
tenuous and unbound
susceptible to wind's constant round
battering the living flat to ground
sodden, smell of decay all around
time is fleeing
these shoulder seasons
with all their restless reasons
yet to unfold in you
sun-soaked glade
I need your rays
to germinate

the sound of his incantations
hung like a fertile cloud in the air
till it became locked in an embrace
with the holy smell of incense bare
and all the while he droned on steadily
like a distant engine upon an incline
the birds of the night spun around him
crazy like a moth willing death to come
the hot wax stuck like glue on his fingernails
as the passion heated up and blew a blast
in the direction of mirthless unseen onlookers
witnesses to a macabre rite in the dead of night
the time for forging ties that bind was well nigh
for what better instrument to weld togetherness
than a grim kind of secrecy in the  dead wilderness