The beginning.
I guess this is where this tragedy that was once a beautiful dream, started.
The first day she seen his handsome face,
She knew he was the one.
Going through things with her X,
She was dealing with a broken soul.
She didn't want to love again,
Until she met him.

Until she met him...
The way he opened up that one night,
The way she felt when she seen his face,
Knew he was coming,
And when he was going home.

The way his dark browns eyes sparkle,
When she would stare at them so deeply,
Something she adored doing every night.
It was her content place.

Fast forward to the night,
They shared each other.
At this moment she knew her heart wouldn't be able to comprehend what she knows it'll do.
She fell deeper,
And deeper.

She was scared,
She had falling to deep.
Questions like,
What if I am too much to handle.
What if he'll leave.
What if he uses me for ***,
Like the last one did..

Months pass by,
Everything was great.
Smiles on his face,
Smiles on her face.
She felt the love.

Tornado.

They were crashing,
He's trying to understand what's going on,
He didn't understand her.
She was too complicated,
A little crazy,
But he loved her.
Hense the word loved,
ED,
As in he loved her,
But the love he had for her,
Was once leaving,
She knew it.
She couldn't fight it.

Why didn't she fight it?

Tornado..

She did not want to see the man she loved suffer any longer.
She knew,
He'll walk away.
She knew deep in her heart.
She couldn't take it.
She was angry,
She was hurt,
She couldn't speak.
He didn't know.
She never spoke about the pain she felt within her heart,
Because she knew..

Tornado..

The wind was blowing harder,
The tears were becoming stronger,
She felt her soul crashing to the ground,
But she loved him.
She knew she was too much,
She didn't understand why,
Why she stopped making him happy,
She didn't understand why she was bringing him so much pain.

She stopped feeling worth it.

Tornado..

She gave up.
She loved him.
She gaved up.
She loved him.
She gaved up.
Tornado..

He walked away..


Falling apart,
She found ways to cope with the pain,
She had relations with the man who loved her for her body.
She's sorry.

Tornado..

The last kiss.
That was when she knew that was the last night that he was once hers.
She held back her screams,
Her punches,
Her screams,

Tornado..

She wished she could fix the broken connection she had created.
The reason why he felt the need to walk away.

She wish she knew why she had done such a poorly job of loving the man who loved her more than any man has ever done.

She wish she knew why she wasn't no longer worth the fight.

She wish she knew what she could of done to still have him in her arms.

Tornado..

She is the tornado.
But she loved him.
As she slits her area of hidden,
Deeper with the pain she has caused,
Tornado.

She gives you all of her trust,
And you're abusing it right now.

When you have nobody to vent too,
So you go to the one person who knows you like the back of there own hands.
It had to be you.

Laying on his chest seems to work to help the stress.

I miss him.
Where are you.

The way that blade felt against her body,
She did it,
she was hurting.
She's sorry.

She saw something in me,
That today,
I don't know if I can be that..
She got on her knees,
And prayed for me.
When I started getting violent..

Body changing,
Gaining weight.
I know this is because of you,
Sorry that I couldn't hold you.
But mommy loves you.

Like you better from a distance,
Where you couldn't know me.
Where I couldn't love you.
Where you couldn't have cheated,
Where I couldn't have been misleaded

Should I keep on fighting, or give up and let myself go..

If i take these ******* pills,
I won’t feel this pain anymore..

I have such a big heart, it's really so unfair.

She learned to cry in silence,
That even when she’s near you,
You can’t hesr her. .

Don't wake me up, I'm in love with the thoughts of you.

Had a miscarriage.
There's no replacing you.
my rose petals.

Wish I never loved you.

She's a spitting image of him,
She hates it.
Going to the bottle,
As if it's the last resort.
She tends to get tense,
Over little things,
It doesn't make sense,
All she knows,
Is that she is a spitting image of him,
And she hates it.
But you created her,
And for that,
She is thankful.
But she is becoming so numb,
She is been broken.
She can't talk,
She's frozen.

I hope this isn't..
she's sorry.

#Tobecontinued

Don't leave her in a dark room
She'll let herself go.

She's scared to put her trust into another mans hands.
Sick of being played and being taken as a fool.
She has so much to give, but no one to give it too,
Knowing she's worth more, than she's been taking, And she knows he lost another diamond,
how he misses the way when he use to woke up to you.❄️
-MarieLove

Hiding in a dark room,
Reminding her body hurts.

She asked "what's it's like to be in love?"
She said she doesn't know,
That all she men she gave her world too,
Broke her heart.

I only have a few months to live anyways,
So who gives a **** if I die anyways?
Who cares about my wrong decisions in wanting to have it end shortly anyways?
Why does this have to **** me anyways?
Anyways..

Do I love him?
Or do I hold back, because I'm scared he'll hurt me, just like the last one.

She don't sleep,
She don't eat much.
Imagining life with you in it,
She can't see that vision.
Since you are no longer here

He told me everything was going to be okay,
Even though I knew it wasn't,
I believed him anyway.

Don't let the emotion drip,
I know there's times like this,
That'll end up
With scars upon your wrist.

When everything comes back to you, like a crash,
Is when you wish you didn't have to remember such painful memories that lasted longer than you wished it had.

Roof top views are the best.
Nothing but the dark blue skies,
Shimmering with bright white stars.
Dazzing off into a place where life is lifeless,
Drama isn't important,
And stress is non existence.
Relaxing your body with the vision of something bigger,
Something much deeper,
If you just had that one person,
Seeing these dark blue skies,
shimmering with the bright white stars,
It will all just be so perfect,
No words being said,
But so worth it.

Beach view with a notebook in my hand, writes deepest thoughts. Continues til sunrises.

Goodmorning.

Wasn't I enough? Maybe I gave you too much..
It's the way you make me feel,
All alone, even though you're right next to me.
My chest bursting,
The feeling of holding back these tears
Because you are near, I don't want you to hear.
Was I ever good enough? Was I worth it?
Was I too much?
I cared, didn't I?
I loved you, I did.

Maybe my love wasn't good enough after all.
Since you are gone.

Must feel ashamed,
When you're only doing it,
You know,
Hurting yourself.
You lost so much weight,
How did that come about?
Oh you won't say?
I catch the clue,
As you make your way through the doors,
To let go of the food,
That you have consumed.

What if she's not doing it for attention? What if she's doing it, because she's crying out for help? ..

When you're so angry,
That you just want to cry.

Today I wrote a poem about cha.
About how you make me smile,
How I couldn't be without cha.
How the first time we spoke,
Little jokes being said,
Something about cheesy toes.
The first time you spoke,
Deeper than anyone has ever known you.
Remember our hands becoming one,
As we found each other that one afternoon,
Walking back to your destination,
Because it was time for you to go home.
The moment we stared into each other's eyes,
No words being spoken,
But we knew what was being said.
The first kiss.
So simple, yet so quick.
Butterflies in one stomach,
As we got comfortable with the thought
Of being with each other.
I look back, and thank god for chosen the right path for me.
For making me see the light again,
Because that's how I feel, when I look at him.
May this light never end..

Who have you become? I see a change. You're becoming so care less, not coming around more. I'm upset, I hit you up, and you're not there. Who have you become? This isn't the person I fell in love with me, that made me believe that you could of been my number one.

When will it be my turn to love?
Will somebody make me think twice when I say love is nothing but a battle, and falling in love is something I shall never do?
Will somebody prove me wrong, that love is something special between two..

Wish some things were different,
Like the way my body aching.
Doing permanent damage.
If I keep this up,
The thoughts of becoming a mother,
Something that i might not be able to be.
Due to stress,
Maybe depression,
Or a little bit of both.
Fighting to keep those around you,
Not realizing,
That you need them the most.  
The body becoming ill,
And you hide it it,
So you can go through a few days,
Without having to spill.
May this night be better,
May this pain go away,
May my body heal,
Let the ache go away.

I wish I could wake up too you.
Wake up in your arms, as I crawl up in a ball and lay on my favorite spot.
Your chest.
I wish I can lay my legs in between yours, as you hold me real close,
and fall asleep to a movie that we wanted to see last night.
I wish I could hear you say goodnight,
Not through mobile.
But Rather to my face,
So I can kiss you goodnight, and fall asleep until the sunrise,
Because with you everything is alright.

Love is precious,
She admits it,
But every time she gave a man her love,
She regrets it.
As she lets them take a tour,
Of her art,
That's when she felt it,
Lost of control,
The distraction,
Only her work of art,
Gave them the attention.

To be continued ...

I was never worth it,
As to him,
I felt  worthless.

He held her,
It wasn't you.
He kissed her,
It wasn't you,
He laid her head on his chest,
And it still wasn't you,
He entered her world,
She wanted to believe it was always you.

You took the good in me,
And destroyed me.
Broke me down into pieces,
That cannot be put together.
You took my mending soul for granted,
And left it in the cold,
You took me for granted,
When you spoke the words,
I love you.
Knowing you didn't love me so.

You are nothing like the last.
Scratch that.
You are everything like the last.


-M&J