When I first met you
you took my breath away
When you first said my name
my walls all broke away
When you first smiled at me
my heart just went insane
When you first grabbed my hand
my life was never the same
We are colors crashing in the sky
We are stars colliding in the night
We are storms dancing to the sound of our souls
We are lovers dying to love

So kiss me as long as you want to
Don't worry about stopping I don't want you to
Just take me as I am flaws and all
We are colors crashing in the sky

When you first told me I was you rock
I said you are are mine too
When we had our first fight
you yelled I can't live without you
And we danced and we danced and we danced
until neither one of us was angry
With my head on your shoulder I heard you whisper
you are my soul mate
And I said

Kiss me as long as you want to
Don't worry about stopping I don't want you to
Let me take you as you are scars and all
We are colors crashing in the sky

And we danced and we danced and we danced
until the world around us disappeared
And we laughed and we laughed and we laughed
until happiness was all we could hear
The kaleidoscope of our colors
getting stronger and stronger and stronger
And we entered a world where neither of us
could ever lose each other

And we kissed as long as we wanted to
Stopping was never an option
because we never wanted to
And we took each other as we are
scars, flaws and all
We are colors crashing in the sky
We are stars colliding in the night
We are storms dancing to the sound of our souls
We are lovers dying to love
As the kaleidoscope of our colors
gets stronger and stronger and stronger

Breakfast on the balcony
the weather is 56°
I am wearing a hoodie and leggings
as my cat lies near my feet
It's supposed to be chilly all day long
and I plan to stay in and read
I'm going to open up all of my windows
and let the autumn air take hold of me
I've been waiting for this all year
a perfect day such as this one
Where I can sip my coffee and enjoy the gray clouds
instead of the yellow sun
As I dip my French toast into my syrup
I feel a leaf fall onto me
My face lights up as I welcome Autumn
to have breakfast with me on the balcony

I am sitting next to a window on an airplane
It's 2:05 in the morning
I am watching the lights of the city I love
shine brightly below me
The higher I get in the sky
the smaller the world looks
yet for me I feel so big
and I am not scared of anything
When I am on the ground
I feel like anything can harm me
However in the sky
I feel like I can do the impossible
I don't mean perform miracles like Jesus
I mean my dreams
Everything my heart desires that I think will never happen
seems possible now that I am high in the air
Those hours on the plane are unlike anything I have ever felt
Most of the people around me are irritated
and can't wait to get back on the ground
but not me
I could stay here all day if it means I get to feel this way the entire time
I don't mind at all

It's 6:05 in the morning now
I can see the tiny world below me waking up to a new day
The plane is about to land and I feel an ache in my chest
As I feel the wheels hit the ground I feel myself start to cry
I don't mind being on the ground
as long as I maintain the same feeling I had when I was in the sky

She was always a rose kind of girl
She adored roses
It didn't matter what color they were
A rose was a flower that always took her breath away
yet whenever she dreamed of a field of flowers
she always dreamt of sunflowers
Her dream was always the same
Her hair long and black with a crown of red roses
She wore a long white dress that danced in perfect harmony
Her nails were red as blood as well as the lipstick on her lips
She smelled of Japanese blossom and passion
She was barefoot which was strange because she hates having her feet uncovered
In a field of sunflowers she twirled in non stop circles
With the sun on her skin she could never get enough of the beauty that surrounded her as she spun to the music only she could hear in her heart
As the sun set she would lie down and put her arms on her chest
It was in that field of sunflowers
she felt her very best

I feel like such a burden 99% of the time
I think about what life would be like with me out of the equation
and sadly I feel like everyone I love would be better off
My parents won't have to deal with the embarrassment of their daughter being a high school drop out
with no ambition in life other than to write poetry about how sad she is
My brothers and sisters won't have to deal with the annoyance of their sister being so sad she can't get out of bed some days because sometimes being around people for too long drains her
My nieces won't have to grow up having an aunt who is bat **** crazy and they won't ever have to deal with the embarrassment  and annoyance my family suffers
My friends won't have to worry about their friend who can never stay happy for too long
My boyfriend wont have to deal with the stress of having a girlfriend who cries everytime she looks at her reflection
God won't have to waste his time blessing me with this life I take for granted because I am a lazy waste of space
My body wont have to work just to keep me alive when all I do is punish it for not looking the way I think it should
I feel like I waste people's time
I feel like I make everyone's lives stressful just by breathing and I don't want that
I want to make the ones I love happy
I just can't seem to do that

Tonight is the first night in a year
that I will be going to bed alone
I don't want to but I have to
My body aches as I remind myself that you won't be here
to wrap your arms around me anymore
I feel cold as I lie here wishing I could feel your breathing
dancing with mine
My face burns from tears that can't seem to stop
What hurts the most is knowing you are probably at home
not missing me at all
I've been in love with you for five years
I never in my wildest dreams
thought I would have a shot with you
Finding out that you liked me back
I was so ecstatic
I think about that day and my heart still goes crazy
It stings looking over to my side and not seeing you there
I can't even put into words how sad I feel
I've had my heart broken before and have felt pain like this
but this feels different
This pain I feel is deeper
It's stronger
I have no doubts about my love for you
My love for you is so strong
My love for you is pure
My love for you is a love that I haven't felt for anyone else
I've loved other men before in previous relationships
yet I never missed them as much as I miss you
I thought I knew heartbreak
I thought I had experienced true love
but I think I was wrong
With you I saw a future
I've never seen the future with anybody else
I was with you because I wanted to be
not because I was lonely
Everything about you still gives me butterflies
It hurts to breathe
It hurts to eat
It hurts to laugh
The thought of us not being together anymore hurts too much
I know we agreed on giving each other space
but what if that space means the end?
I don't know how to deal with that possibility
I'm going to try to sleep now
My face hurts from crying
but I've stopped trying to stop the tears
I really hope we can work things out
We've come too far for it to end like this