You had every chance to be with me
yet you chose every other girl in town
What was wrong with me?
What couldn't you see before that you see now?
We spent many nights lying in my bed
just listening to the silence
You would kiss me on the lips
then turn away for no reason
You would make time to see me whenever you could
only to ditch me for parties
I spent hours listening to you discussing about your dream girl
over pancakes at Denny's
I was your human journal
who took in your thoughts without shame
I never told you how much my heart skipped a beat
whenever you said my name
I would have given anything to be with you
you were a mystery everyone took for granted
Seeing you date my best friend though
that bothered me more than you could imagine
I never said anything to you
about how I felt
By the time I got the courage to tell you my feelings
you had already left
You moved out of state
all I have left of you now is your Facebook page
I never look at it though
it brings back memories that won't ever go away
Every once in a while you message me
telling me that you miss me
I never write back
because I don't think that you mean it
Maybe I'm just crazy
for ever thinking I would have a chance with you
You're nothing now but a hidden chapter in a book
I would have loved to write about you

When I first met you
I thought you were fantastic
I found you so interesting
When your wife took your son and left you
my heart broke for you
I thought "How could someone do that to another person?
just get up and leave without thinking of the damage they left behind?"
I watched you get your heart broken by my best friend
and each time she broke up with you I got angry
I thought "What an idiot she is to let go of someone so special."
You are like a book that everyone judges by it's cover
Inside you are chapters full of stories so beautiful
I could read them over and over again
It makes me so mad when people take you and just glimpse at you
only to toss you to the side without getting a chance to know you
If only they could see how wonderful you are
If only they took the time to read you
they would say "Gosh, he is amazing!"
For five years I have read you
hoping one day I can become a part of your story
I wouldn't change anything about you because you're perfect
I know I am just a friend to you
If a friend is what you want then I am okay with that
as long as I get to read your story over and over
because I promise I mean it when I say you are fantastic
and I live to make sure people take time to hear your story

If only you knew how crazy my heart gets whenever I hear you laugh.
You're perfect.

My heart literally tears in two when someone tells me "Writing is boring, i wish it didn't exist, it doesn't benefit a person in any way." It's like a part of me passes away at the sound of those words and all I can think is "how can someone think so negatively about something so beautiful?" I am so in love with writing the thought of anyone disgracing it is enough to make me cry.

Walk with me barefoot in the snow
dance with me naked in the rain
Tell me your darkest secrets
let me kiss your pain away
Hold your breath and count to ten
let your body relax
Take my hand and run
try not to breathe so fast
Say your last words
as the spark leaves your eyes
Watch your life play back to you in flashbacks
as death takes you by surprise
Jump off of that cliff your so afraid of
let your body break into pieces on the ground
Let your soul enter eternity
do not make a sound

Who are you to determine who is ugly and who is pretty?
We are all beautiful and handsome.
It's how we carry ourselves as people
and what we choose to put out into the world that should matter.


There is a group on Facebook that I was added to called "No Ugly People Allowed." I denied the invitation because I think it's wrong to judge people based on how they look.

We are sitting around a campfire
smoking some ****
We are both complicated people
who can't seem to find what we need
You take my hand into yours
and squeeze it just right
A tear slides down my cheek
as you ask me if I am alright
I tell you that I love you
and that I wish to be yours
Even though I know you want me too
I don't have it in me to love you like you deserve
Every moment spent with you is great
it's like living in a book that has never been published
But the fear of letting someone in
is far too much to process
I am so crazy about you
I look into your eyes and I know you want to kiss me
You won't though because you know me
you know about my fear and you respect me
Even if I was to let you in
I am a chaotic mess who will ***** you up
You deserve to be with someone
who won't **** your heart up
By now I'm hyperventilating
I am more than just sad
I am so disappointed to not let myself be
with the best man a woman could ever have