If only you knew how crazy my heart gets whenever I hear you laugh.
You're perfect.

My heart literally tears in two when someone tells me "Writing is boring, i wish it didn't exist, it doesn't benefit a person in any way." It's like a part of me passes away at the sound of those words and all I can think is "how can someone think so negatively about something so beautiful?" I am so in love with writing the thought of anyone disgracing it is enough to make me cry.

Walk with me barefoot in the snow
dance with me naked in the rain
Tell me your darkest secrets
let me kiss your pain away
Hold your breath and count to ten
let your body relax
Take my hand and run
try not to breathe so fast
Say your last words
as the spark leaves your eyes
Watch your life play back to you in flashbacks
as death takes you by surprise
Jump off of that cliff your so afraid of
let your body break into pieces on the ground
Let your soul enter eternity
do not make a sound

Who are you to determine who is ugly and who is pretty?
We are all beautiful and handsome.
It's how we carry ourselves as people
and what we choose to put out into the world that should matter.


There is a group on Facebook that I was added to called "No Ugly People Allowed." I denied the invitation because I think it's wrong to judge people based on how they look.

We are sitting around a campfire
smoking some ****
We are both complicated people
who can't seem to find what we need
You take my hand into yours
and squeeze it just right
A tear slides down my cheek
as you ask me if I am alright
I tell you that I love you
and that I wish to be yours
Even though I know you want me too
I don't have it in me to love you like you deserve
Every moment spent with you is great
it's like living in a book that has never been published
But the fear of letting someone in
is far too much to process
I am so crazy about you
I look into your eyes and I know you want to kiss me
You won't though because you know me
you know about my fear and you respect me
Even if I was to let you in
I am a chaotic mess who will ***** you up
You deserve to be with someone
who won't **** your heart up
By now I'm hyperventilating
I am more than just sad
I am so disappointed to not let myself be
with the best man a woman could ever have

It's like a dream you know?
One minute we are curled up in each others arms
naked underneath the sheets
Then, in the blink of an eye
we're apart
You're on one side of the world in the sun
I'm clear on the other side in the rain
We're both in agony
We're both in emotional pain because we miss each other
Yet we have never met
It's like we did meet before
but we never did
Sometimes I think you're a figment of my imagination
some voice inside my head
If you're not real
how come I wake up some mornings in your arms
feeling you breathe slowly on my neck as you sleep
Those days are perfect
We stay in bed all day
making love
laughing and talking about forever
I close my eyes to kiss you
but when I open them
I'm back to being by myself
stuck in a state of depression I have never experienced before
Why can't we just be together always?
How come the second the earth moves a little too quickly
or the stars disappear for just a blink
we fall apart?
Like a wrecking ball just smashing us into a million pieces
What is wrong with us?
How long will we play this game of torture amongst ourselves?
When will we finally find the courage to just love the hell out of each other
just like in the dreams we have
when everything is perfect?

May I write a book about you?
I want to write chapters about how your smile
calms all of the piercing voices in my head
I want to put into words how the feeling of your hand in mine
calms all of the storms that cause chaos within my chest
I want to write you letters
telling you how you are the best thing that ever happened to me
I want to tell you so badly how much I love you
I love you so much but I am afraid to let myself tell you
because my love for you is so overwhelming
I don't think I can handle it
Sometimes I lay in bed and I feel like I am suffocating
under all of the ******* that my depression throws at me
but you are like the sky after a rainy day
You are so handsome
You are so beautiful
It's enough to make me sick because I can't wrap my head
around how someone so perfect can exist in a world like this
I can't accept the fact that you can have anyone you want
yet you chose me
I can still taste our first kiss on my lips
That kiss brought back to life all of the parts of me I thought died
I was a **** you turned into a flower
You made me able to love again
God! What a beautiful gift to be able to love someone so deeply
So I ask again may I write a book about you?
I want to write chapters on how you came into my life
and changed my world in the most magnificent way


To the one I will one day write a book about, I can't wait to meet you. Whoever you are...