Before you close your eyes and go to sleep I just thought I would take the time to remind you that you are important, you mean the world to somebody and if someone forgot to tell you how much you were loved today then please allow me the honor of saying this: I love you, I think you're great and I am so glad that you exist.

Caring about what other people say
has always been a weakness of mine
That does not surprise me
I am a writer
I believe in the power of words
I believe words have the power to build you up
to the point you feel like you are flying
or drag you down until you're falling down a deep dark hole
like Alice did in Wonderland
Knowing how much power words hold
I make it a habit to speak things that empower people
There is so much negativity in the world
It is so easy to be mean
and make someone feel bad just by saying a few negative words
We all complain about the world being mean yet
we contribute to the negativity by saying things
that just should not be said
Instead of being mean with our words
let's be kind instead
Kindness holds the same amount of power words do
Put those two together and you get magic
Hearts soften with kind words
People believe in themselves when they are told kind things
People are better when they use kind words
I will always worry about what people say about me sometimes
That is my flaw
That is my problem
Not caring become easier on my self esteem
when I choose to speak kind words to those who are negative

We did it
We finally tied the knot
After months of stress from planning
we got the wedding we always wanted
I walked down the isle
you stood there watching me with wonder
As we said our vows while staring into each others eyes
I knew I would look into those eyes forever
We finally kissed as we went from two people to one person
We became one heart
as our kiss sent off sparks of passion
I held your hand so tightly
to make sure that this was real
We are now husband and wife
words could not express the joy I was feeling in that moment
As we had our first dance
it became clear to me
You are the one
God has chosen for me
As our song played beautifully
we sang along quietly together
I am so happy to share this journey with you
that tells the story of us forever


This poem is dedicated to Jeremy and Heather Okon
Congratulations on your special day
I love you

The ones you love the most
will break your heart once or twice
It's not because their evil
their human, they will mess up sometimes
The one you give your heart to
will disappoint you one day
It's not because they don't love you
their fighting demons that won't ever go away
The people you call your friends
will make mistakes that will upset you
It's not because they don't care about your friendship
there are just some things they have to do
The sun won't always shine
sometimes it will rain
It doesn't mean something bad will happen
it's God's way of cleansing your pain
Your parents who you thought were perfect
may overstep their boundaries by telling you what to do
It's not because they doubt you
It's their way of saying they care about you
The God you lean on twenty four hours a day
won't stop you from hitting rock bottom
It's not because he deserted you
it's the only way you will ever grow
So trust him

I just want to dye my hair all sorts of crazy colors. Why? Because I can. I want to go to concerts and be around people who just want to have fun after spending so many years going through hell and back. I want to travel to England and have adventures I can write stories about. I want to wear cute skirts with a beat up pair of converse and dance all over the place. I want to eat all the chocolate I can. I want to find magic in places no one thinks about twice. I want to turn 30 years old with confidence because I think women get better with age. I want to write forever and ever. I want to write for a career. I want to write anywhere whether it's on an airplane, the floor in a mall, a dressing room, while stuck in traffic, high up on a building where I can see everything you can't see when you are on the ground. I want to make snow angels in the snow and make wishes in the rain. I want to eat pizza with my friends, fall in love with a man who adores me, adopt a child and give them a home so I can love them every second of everyday. I want to have my heartbroken so I can become stronger. I want to laugh so when I'm sad I have something to remind me why I should keep going. I want to swim with mermaids, fly in the sky with Santa Claus and go ice skating with Jack Frost. I want people to tell me I can't do something so I can prove them wrong. I want to jump from cliffs and let the ocean catch me into it's arms and spin me around as if I am dancing in an underground heaven. I want to be 40 years old still be going to Disneyland because I refuse to let the child inside of me from years ago die. I want to make a difference. I want to hug as many people as I can. I want to stay up until 3 am around a camp fire looking at the stars while I tell God all of my secrets. I want to make all my dreams come true all the while staying humble so I don't lose myself in success. I want to live without the pressure of having to do certain things so fast. I want to leave this earth knowing I did impossible things and that someone's life was changed because I chose to love them when nobody else wanted to.

You told me you loved me for the first time today
As soon as you said those three words
I felt the earth stop moving
Time stood still
All I could hear was the sound of my heart
thumping with fear
My throat closed up when I tried to speak
I could see the disappointment in your eyes
once you realized that I didn't say I loved you back
It's not that I don't love you
I do love you
I really do
I just can't say the words out loud
I am too terrified to tell you how I feel
I know communication is important in a relationship
I am great with communicating
At least I used to be
I used to be fearless with confessing my feelings
Until I learned confessing my feelings just opens the door
to heartbreak I'm not sure I ever recovered from
I'm sorry I can't say those three words back
You deserve to be with a woman who is fearless in love
A woman who doesn't let the past keep her
from embracing someone great that is standing right
in front of her face
I'm sorry
I can't do this

Look into the mirror and say "I am beautiful" 30 times. Afterwards look at the smile on your face and notice how much happier you are when you are kind to yourself.