I used to know what I wanted to be when I grew up
For as long as I could remember
my dream was to be a writer
I always thought I needed to know the future in order to be happy
Now that I am at the age where I can work hard to be anything I want to be
I am starting to see how wrong I was
I can be a writer
I can be a model
I can be a mother
I can spend all of my time working my *** off if I wanted to
Working all of the time became an addiction like cutting
There was no time to enjoy anything
I was so busy putting pressure on myself
that I forgot how to live in the moment
All of the hours I spent working
All of the time I spent trying to be the perfect adult was a waste of time
Life was passing me by and I was missing it
Working is a good thing
however there is more to life than work
It is okay to not know what to do with your life
No one has their **** together
Age does not mean anything
Take time to enjoy yourself
Take time to just be
Take time to do what makes you happy
Life is unfair and difficult
but life has a way of falling perfectly together in a way you never dreamed of
Working is a necessity but so is happiness

She said "I just want to make an impact on the world. I want to feel like I matter. I want to make a difference. I want to feel like my presence makes someone else's life a little bit better."

He said " Oh honey, if you knew how much of an impact you make on this world you would be terrified. You matter so much it is upsetting that you do not see that. You make a difference everyday just by being you and trust me when I say your presence does more than make someone else's life better. Your presence is enough to cure a grown man's anxiety attack, your presence is the light in someone's darkness and every time I have the pleasure of being in your company I am amazed with who I see. Every moment with you is an adventure that I wish would never end. Believe me when I say that if you ever went away, hearts would break and the world would grieve until the end of time."

He took off his shirt
I took off mine
He took me into his arms and put me on our bed
He touched me in places I never knew were there
As he kissed my lips
I ran my fingers through his hair
As he put himself into me
I shivered in fear
He asked me if I was alright
I shook my head yes
We made love for hours
we tossed and turned all over
By six in the morning I fell asleep for what seemed like forever
I woke up to the smell of french toast he was cooking in the kitchen
I left our room naked
I wanted more of him
I hugged him from behind
he turned around, grabbed my face and kissed me
We made love on the kitchen floor
screaming and moaning as the french toast burned

It was a rainy day
I had no plans but I got dressed up and went down the street to my favorite cafe
Something told me that today was going to be a great one
I did my hair
put on some makeup
I put on my favorite dress
I wore the cutest pair of flats I own
I didn't care if the rain messed them up
I walked to the cafe allowing the rain to tangle my hair
mess up my makeup and soak my dress
I ordered my favorite beverage
A caramel latte
I sat in my cold dress next to a window
watching as the rain drops formed into music notes to a song only my eyes could read
As soon as I went to take a sip of my latte
it happened
I heard a jingle
signaling that someone had stepped into the cafe
I looked up and there he was
5.6, dark hair, brown eyes
a smile bright enough to light up the darkest sky
He too was wet from the rain
I could tell he walked to the cafe but his body language proved that he didn't seem to mind the rain
He sat at a table across from me
next to a window looking at raindrops
He spoke his order to the waitress
stared at the window
then looked at me
We stared at each other for what seemed like five minutes
it was impossible to look away
The waitress brought him his drink
he picked it up, stood up
and took a seat right across from me
He asked me "what are you drinking?"
I replied "a caramel latte, you?"
With a smile that made my heart stop
he answered "a caramel latte."

Let's sit on this park bench together
and watch the people go by
We can dip our french fries into our ice cream
as we laugh while we cry

Let's swing on the swing set
and sing obnoxiously out loud
We can lean back as far as we can
until we feel as light as the clouds

Let's lay side by side on the grass
and chase butterflies with our eyes as we hold hands
We can cherish the moment
where we pretend to be children again

We are all so quick to fall in love because we want to be in love so badly. If we rush things instead of allowing things to unfold as they should, we are missing out on so many things. We have this idea stuck in our heads that if we do not do certain things now then they will never happen. Not everyone is meant to find the love of their life at sixteen. Some do not find their soulmate until they are well into their thirties, if not older. There is nothing wrong with that. Not everything has to happen now. If you rush things, you are missing out on moments that will never come again. STOP RUSHING! Enjoy where you are. Enjoy this very moment because this moment will never ever come again. If you are meant to be with a certain someone, it WILL happen eventually. If it turns out you and a certain someone are not meant to be, it is because the one you are meant to be with is still out there. Every heartbreak you go through is preparing you for the one you get to spend the rest of your life with. Everyone has a love story. Why rush your love story? The best love stories are the ones that are not rushed, are not forced and are not planned.

He has always had this look in his eyes since the very first day we shook hands

He quotes parts of my favorite movies when he tries to make a point
He bakes the only type of cookies I will eat even though he cannot stand the taste of them

He does my laundry without asking me first so I have one less thing to worry about during the day

When I am sad he sings songs to me that his friends would laugh at him for

I went to borrow a sweater from his bedroom weeks ago and noticed that it smelled just like Fall, which is my favorite scent in the whole wide world

Even though he cannot stand sleeping with the lights on he never goes to sleep without turning on the Christmas lights in the living room because he knows how much they make me smile

On Halloween he dressed up as Jack Skellington and gave me a rose that smelled like a snowflake

On rainy days we sit outside watching the lightening even though he is terrified of it

On a game of truth or dare we were dared to share a kiss and when I leaned in to complete the dare, he backed away and said "Not like this"
On my birthday in July he took me to a rooftop where there was pizza and wine

The time on my phone said 8 o'clock

He took my hand and said "I am in love with you"

I squeezed his hand lightly and said "Me too" as we shared our first kiss