Im dying inside
My life is a mess
Failing at everything
Im an idiot
Nothing matters anymore
End my life, please

Money was speny
Time wasted
Early to work i went
No breakfast tasted

And yet my reward?
Sitting here useless
Im not moving toward
Anything but a big mess

I want to write
I feel like i need too
I just dont feel right
I want to talk to you

But i cant
I just dont have the words
I have to many emotions
Im falling
I just hope im falling forwards

I need a release
But i cant move
I cant even breathe
But im stuck as well

Its midnight
I should go to bed
But i cant just yet
I dont think i could sleep

Im so tired right now
I want to sleep
But its too much
I just cant do anything

Everything is too much
Im just overwhelmed
And the worst part is
Im alone.

What are dreams?
I have had dreams of death
Where i watch myself steal away anothers breath
Where i **** others that i love
But then some dreams are soft as a lily white dove
And these dreams seem to disapear faster
They dont linger
And yet there are others still
The ones that i control through my own will
These are the ones that must always stay
And im trying to find a way
To keep these dreams alive
But i have to constantly revive
But if thats what it takes
Its what ill do
Because im done giving up on you
Im done not letting people in
I dont care if they know my sin
Thats my dream you see
To feel comfortable as me
I want to be a people person
I want to talk freely
And to just openly speak
But i get so weak
But ill keep trying and continue striving
I wong give up on my dream

I hate that i spoke
I hate that i opened my mouth
I hate that that hurt u
I hate that i let that hurt me
I hate that i let that get to me
I hate that i said anything to u
I hate how affected i was
I hate that it was nothing
I hate that i was overthinking
I hate that i did this
I hate how stupid i am
I hate the way u must see me now
I hate that i did this
But i love that for some reason u dont hate me