Throwing up my guts,
Worst headache ever.
I got so dizzy that I passed out,
My head is spinning.
i don't know what to do,
i hold my breath and hope for the best.
this is going to be hell,
living, breathing hell.
the pain is hard,
the torment is strong.
im over being sick,
worst feeling ever.

but its okay baby, ill always be there
through thick or thin
you wont feel like this much longer
or when im around anyway.

for my birthday this year..
when I blow out my candles..
im going to wish to be dead..
and they will all clap..
without knowing..

what am I meant to do?
you sit there and scream at me
yell, hit, bite, scratch me
just cause im not the person
you want me to be?

so I cut and dyed my hair
starved myself
cut my wrists and thighs
to make myself prefect!

but that didn't help.
now you ignore me
haunt, tease, bully me
cause im not your perfect girl

truth is I never will be
I don't want to be
but the fact is
I love you
i always have and always will

i just want to be your definition
of perfect, even for one day!