Gone
Empty
Alone
Worthless
Pushed to the limit,
But holding out for a savior.
About to fall,
But holding onto the hand of a stranger.
Trust invested in you.
With the hope you see those promises through.
I've been a shattered shell for too long.
Trusting my judgment, then being proved wrong.
Never knowing when the time is right,
To stop crying myself to sleep at night
I feel nothing
No words
No life
Just an empty shell.
I'm stuck under a spell.
Drifting further into a black hole.
Shattered and lifeless, my life takes a toll.
My body is being taken over, yet I still feel
nothing. Nothing at all.
My heart being treated like a kickball.
Thrown around, beaten, forgotten about.
Those dangerous thoughts that follow the doubt.
I just want it all to end.
I don't want to feel the pain anymore.
There's nothing left to fight for
Before I know it I'll be chasing the sun.
I'm done. With Everything. I'm done.
I feel nothing.
Absolutely nothing.
Worthless
Alone
Empty
Gone

I let you in,
You pushed me out.
I built you up,
You filled me with doubt.
I gave you reasons to smile,
You tore me down.
I gave you words of encouragement,
You were the reason behind my frown.
I have kept every secret you told me,
You betray me.
I prevented you from feeling trapped,
You prevented me from being free.
You don't care,
You continue to hurt me,
You were never there.
You pushed me away,
Slowly at first, then all at once,
More and more each day.
Guilting me into staying by your side,
Controlling me like a puppet,
Making my emotions your free roller-coaster ride.
What kind of sick friendship is this?
Am I someone you really trust?
Or is this a friendship that won't be missed?

I hear them.
Loud and clear
Calling my name
From deep within the bitter darkness
The place I used to call home
Is suddenly being held hostage
Trapped and alone
I release a sound
Foreign to my tongue for
It hasn't been spoken
In months
Too painful to say
Too painful to hear
My heart can't bare
Anymore pain
For it might break
In a million more pieces
The heart can only take so much
As I begin to shake
The words I've been trying
To say to you
Escape from my mouth
Faster than the speed of light
Foreign to my tongue
Unable to be contained
For they have been
For way too long
I love you.
I miss you.
I hate you.
I can't stand you.
I want you.
I need you.
Get away from me.
Go somewhere else.
Don't leave me again.
Stay with me.
You saved me.
But you broke me.
Into more than a million pieces
Crushed me
Left me broken
Stepped on my heart
You broke me
But I love you
I really love you
All I see is the dark
I am surrounded by dark
Not a single shred
Of light escaping
My body
I guess I have you
To blame for turning
My soul
Darker than night.

In the darkest hour,
In the brightest day,
Every step I take,
I miss you in every single way.
The way your green eyes shined so bright,
The way you always held me tight.
You made me feel safe and sound,
I miss the way we joked around.
I miss the way you used to sing,
I miss hearing your voice when the phone would ring.
I will forever be your pussycat,
I will forever miss hearing you say my brown eyes reminded you of the color of "MUUUD".
I will forever be Grandma's little girl.
I will work hard to make you proud,
When I need you I will call out loud.
I know you're always watching over me,
My guardian angel you will ALWAYS  be.

There is no such thing as perfect.
No perfect person,
No perfect life.
Nothing in this world is perfect.
However,
If the world was perfect
There would be peace;
There would be less chaos.
Everyone would be the same.
In a perfect world,
There's no room for change.
The world is far too messed up
For there to be any chance of it
being perfect.
We are too focused on the other countries'
problems.
To worry about our own ****
problems.
The world is no where near perfect.
Yes we have equality,
Yes we have more freedoms than other countries do,
But as a society, we don't even have perfect.
We believe it exists, but there is
No true evidence.
So you see, nothing in this
World is perfect, however,
The idea itself exists.

You were born so beautiful out of your
cocoon.
You resembled life and freedom.
Everyone was jealous of your beauty.
Everyone wanted to be you.
Until one day, the person who has kept
you alive, decided against it.
Until that person, that warrior, decided to
drop out of battle.
You begin to slowly fade away.
You crumble into the nothing you
started out as.
The person who tried keeping you alive has
failed you.
Your permanent beauty will be well
missed.
I'm sorry you had to go like this.
You will be loved forever.
Now you can become a new cocoon in a
brand new life.
Hopefully you'll be treated better there.
Because here, you were failed.

I am the sky,
The girl who keeps her head in the clouds.
     I am the land of the unknown,
The girl who dreams of being anywhere but reality.
     I am the ocean,
With feelings going up and down just like the waves.
     I am the flowers in spring,
The girl who is sweet and fun to be around.
     I am the distant fear inside,
The girl afraid to do/ say or believe outside her comfort zone.
     I am a warrior,
The girl who overcame many obstacles.
     I am a bunny,
The girl whose thoughts hop around from one topic to another.
                             I am me.