Livingdeadgirl

Feb 2015

DC raw love

I am only bent

Not quite broken

But can I be fixed

Livingdeadgirl Feb 2015

well idk
but heres my best try
im not certain of myself
im shy
some say i have a certain....
masculinity about me....
idk what they mean
but i do know i can hurt others
physically to easily....
i try not to though
i dont like pain
dont like to give it
cuz i know how it feels
to recieve pain from those you thought you knew
but do we ever truly know someone
i know i get off track
but that's just me, i guess
i still dont fully know myself
but i also dont know anyone that does
if you do
then good for you
and could you help me
to know myself....
idk who i am
what i am
where im at
or anything really about myself
i know a bit of what im told i am
that im weird
im a ******
im different
im nothing
im nobody
and you know what
most of this came from females. :/
oh well
their loss
cuz sooner or later
ill be gone
maybe not today
maybe not tomorrow
but theyll be sorry for how they treated me
maybe
idk
i guess thats my answer for most things
IDK
it makes me want to laugh
if you got in my head
would you scream?
would you run?
hmmmmmmm
*Who I am........no.......Who am I?

Feb 2015

Janor

Andreia

In the rain at the end of the day
without a breath being wasted
I still burn with fire deep within
I am not afraid

With temptations everywhere
In every corner of my life
I have done the best I can
And will continu to strive

The cords are in my hands only
the choices are mine to make
nobody can take my thoughts
as I walk my own way

The path so narrow hard to take
I go on, without a break

This is a poem based on Invictus from William Ernest. The title is old Greek for Bravery.

Feb 2015

Janor

Deep in a book

Deep in a book
there once was a girl
on a cozy attic
forgotten by the world

Deep in a book
she once lived a dream
on a cozy attic
destroyed by the world

On a cozy attic
there once was a girl
who read about a girl
deep in a book

#girl #dreams #book #reading #cozy #attic

Feb 2015

Janor

Fairytale

Sometimes,
we need a fairy tale,
to tell us it'll be fine
to tell us it'll be okay
but this isn't one
cause sometimes,
you need the hard truth
cause life isn't gonna be perfect
so many dreams will fall apart
and when you're world is upside down
the world won't stop turning
not just for you,
sometimes,
life *****
some things aren't in your hands
and you can't do anything about it
sometimes,
Life isn't a fairytale

Livingdeadgirl Feb 2015

I

i am alone
i am broken
i am unafraid
why should i be
why am i alive
where am i going next
where am i
why cant i be afraid
why am i still here
why cant i leave
i have so many ******* questions it's just i cant see them all

Feb 2015

DC raw love

Dissociative

like a empty sea shell
she was so beautiful

looking down on herself
not understanding her ways

always putting herself down
then crying trying to understand why
and then not knows why she cries

while three always discuss
directing her final decisions

split personalities
fight daily
love daily
hurt daily

she can never figure things out
yet hold a relationship

but how gorgeous she is

how unhappy she is
how vibrant she is
how lonely she is

one wants to fight
one wants to stay
one wants to leave

never knowing
what she will do next

she hides from everyone
yet she is never alone

It is now acknowledged that these dissociated states are not fully mature personalities, but rather they represent a disjointed sense of identity. With the amnesia typically associated with dissociative identity disorder, different identity states remember different aspects of autobiographical information. There is usually a "host" personality within the individual, who identifies with the person's real name. Ironically, the host personality is usually unaware of the presence of other personalities.