I'm falling again, back to the black. The dark desolate parts of my mind i fight to leave behind. I'm losing the chase, i glance behind me and each time it grows nearer and nearer.
A soulless demon, hell bent on having me in its grasp. Its repulsive twisted face leering toward me. How can i escape this ? How do i outrun a creature that knows my every move. It feeds off me, whispering its lulls into my mind. Anticipating my every move until i fall prey to its poisonous clutches.
I awake. Surrounded with darkness, I'm not alone. I can hear mumbling all around me the anxiety of being back here makes my heart race. They have me. The dark thoughts i try to avoid have all come flooding back to my consciousness.
I'm lonely yet i'm not alone. I crave the presence of others, a helping hand pulling me back to the light. Yet i have the depression glued to me feeding from my very soul. Infected by the toxins. I deserve this. I'm worthless. I belong in this pit of void. A pitiful human a **** on existence.
I weep and suddenly i'm drowning. I'm choked by fears, scenarios are waltzing around in my mind. Crippling my ability to see. Conclusion to conclusion i jump between. Harrowing thoughts bellow around me. Beating me to a pulp til i'm as black on the outside as on the inside.
This is me now. My eyes shoot open. The vast barren wasteland that reflects in the pools of the abyss. This is my true form i am at one. In peace.
When Abruptly i feel warmth. Its repulsive and hot. My body convulses. Struggling to maintain myself. Writhing with excruciating pain i feel the darkness slipping away.
The light, its bright and vast piercing the lurking monsters of the deep.
A hand. a face. a hug.
I'm transported back to reality the horror is averted. For now. A familiar scent holds me near. Mends my broken heart. Piecing me together with bits of theirself.
An exchange. A loving embrace. The warmth of a heart. The feeling of love. Never more powerful force did this universe create.

When the skies are filled with joyous clouds
Which gallop and leap, like spring bunnies, upon leaving the burrow for the first time.
The sun. The star that lights up the whole planet, and the millions of people which inhabit
Its terrains.
Mother nature had created this wondrous place, for beings and creatures to wilfully survive
Yet we laugh in her face with sweet anguish, as for we are now the creators of land.
We rip out the hearts of our ancient trees, too inform and teach one another of their necessity on our lives.
And our children, the life we leave for them filled with mind numbing absent presence. A life locked inside their own brains or their own devices. Where our social life dictates where on the virtual institution we sit. Hierarchies.
“live your best life” words meant to inspire, meant to warm even the coldest of hearts and teach them to capture the morning sun.
Are now a hashtag trend, which we use to display our fake smiles. Yet the eyes. The eyes harbour the desolation that is entombed within one’s soul.
The blackness. that lives within the skin we don. Our minds have been conditioned to years of mental abuse and slowly ground down. For we are no longer ourselves, to be happy in one’s skin and life is sparsely genuine.
We tend not to recognise our own mind, or it of us. As we are no longer one. And its health is not a priority. Oh, how id long to be a simple daisy. They grin with such elegance.
Our nature ever so consciously unaware of its impending doom. How do we dream to nourish something else when we crave to neglect our own body and mind?

The human brain, the worlds most equipped super computer. Capable of unspeakable triumphs may just one day save us from the terrible place we now call home.