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  Jun 24 lizie
Lyle
Sincerely
Thank you
for everything
For listening
For caring
for being an awesome person
please remember these few things
if nothing else
Live
Love him
it may be hard but I know you guys can make it work
I've seen it
you deserve happiness
you deserve everything
keep your light
and keep writing
keep living
and keep loving
Thank you for everything
lizie Jun 23
ohhhhhhh i get it
this is what i deserve!
lizie Jun 23
i think i
used to
be a person
  Jun 23 lizie
Liana
I can't cut
No more
No
No
No
I promised

But the feelings are so strong
Overflowing me
I need them to pour down my arm
And out of my body

I can't
I can't be that weak
I just need to breathe
...
My lungs fail me

But no
No
No
I can't reach for it
Not allowed
Not anymore
Done with that, right?
I really just want to grab the knife
Razor
Needle
Anything
And end this misery
At least soothe it a little

But no
No
No
No
I can't
Trying to quit so so hard, haven't done anything yet
  Jun 23 lizie
lyla
i have a sadness lurking in me
the base of every poem i write
the core of my love
as i give myself papercuts
from your letters
and your poems
and i sit quietly
in the shadow
of your starlight.
lizie Jun 23
i say i’m sorry
so you know i care.
because silence feels like giving up,
and i’d rather bruise myself with guilt
than make you wonder if i feel anything at all.

i say it
because i don’t know what else to say.
because love doesn’t always come out soft
when it lives in a body like mine.
a body that flinches from closeness,
but aches for it all the same.

i say it
because i break things.
people.
promises.
quiet moments that deserved to stay whole.
and i want you to know
that i see the damage,
that i’m not blind to what i cause.

how long can i be sorry
before i break?

before the guilt becomes a fault line,
and all my trying
just splits me in two?
before the apology
is the only thing left of me?

i say i’m sorry
because i still believe in glue,
in hands that hold,
in second chances.
but i don’t know
how many more times
i can be the one who breaks things
and still expect
to be held.

i say i’m sorry
because i love you.
and i’m terrified
that won’t be enough.
im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry. i hate this and myself. truly. it makes me wonder why you’re still here, when you very obviously would be better far away from me. i really truly hate myself and i don’t even know how to handle this. it was nice, pretending i was okay and that there were no cracks, but every time you say “it’s fine, i’ll figure it out” i feel another one forming. im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry. i dont want to have to be sorry anymore.
lizie Jun 21
i think i’m like the sun.
you bask in me,
let me warm you,
fill you.
i light you up in ways
you didn’t know you needed.

and it feels good,
until it doesn’t.
until you wake up
burnt,
red,
empty.
betrayed by the very thing
you thought was saving you.

i never meant to hurt you.
i only meant to glow.
but maybe i don’t know
how to shine
without setting fire.
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