To put it bluntly,
your poems smell like rose colored sheets
patterned with nightmares and sweet dreams and midnight ***
To put it bluntly,
your poems are the empty beer bottles on the sidewalk
and the broken glass splashing light like a disco ball
There's a collection of shells sitting on the floor of my bathroom
and your poems are the sand left inside each one
Your poems are the goosebumps that raise on
pale flesh in the dim movie theater light
Your poems are the only things I know about you
and I'm not sure if they are enough to make me love you
But they are enough to make me
lay awake last night and wonder
who you are under your rain cloud of words
that filled up my bed room and drowned me
Your poems wrapped my legs up like seaweed
Your poems tried to swallow me whole like the tide on a full moon
Your poems won't spit me out on shore
and I am bobbing in a storm in the middle of sea
coughing up the lines that made my breath catch up to my brain
To put it bluntly,
your poems might just be killing me,
and I am not complaining.

Insanity corrupts the mind of society.
As children lose their tempers and grow up too quickly,
And adults **** their last chance of tranquility.
The structures grow larger and the brain knows more,
And the sun grows hotter through the atmosphere's pores.
Growth and death suddenly coexist,
As your god crosses names off his Christmas list.
Your judgment defines you,
And your world deprives you,
2013 you merely exist.

Summer came and went
And with it my soul split and shattered
You threw the rock
But held the welder to put me back together
I reflected only what was there
And there wasn't much
So I became a window
Birds flew and grass grew
But I was stuck
Rooted to the spot as if I were an oak
Weighed down by branches
That gave nothing but took all
No leaves grew
Only thorns
And I was protected

Summer came and went
And ended as it began
Broken
Branches snapped
Thorns dulled
And I was left
Grass withered
Birds flew south
Trees were cut for fire
And I was no different
Ragged, I waited for summer to return
But when you did
You only went
Summer came
But no longer

I met a girl when I was drunk
We sat on a couch, closer than strangers might
Usually sit because our legs brushed whenever we
Moved, and
With all the people rushing past I couldn't help
But think how romantic it was,
Just getting acquainted
With the background noise of a small house party
Because our conversation was innocent and
She acted differently than all the other
Drunk girls

I noticed her smile was shy but her conversation
Was intense; her eyes lit up when she talked
And the way she looked at me
When I told my story, let me know she was
Really listening, and I think that says a lot
About the girl I met on a couch
When we were both
Drunk

Take your knife and cut it into me deeply,
watch me bleed,
hear me scream.
I'm hurting as much as you are,
I'm sorry I had to leave.
But I've moved on.
I like you too much.
Self taught years ago to expect nothing in return,
Best way to not hurt at the end of the day.
People don't really care,
especially boys,
Learned that from the man of my house.
Tell me you do.
Tell me how you want to go out,
then tell me how all these girls are really cute,
but trust me I don't care,
I don't get jealous.
I care about you the amount you care about me,
Which isn't much, take away my body and it's nothing.
I'm the mirror image.
I'm not sure how to send you the message,
words always are messy.
& I don't want to stab you anymore then I already have my eyes,
I have to be nice.
I shouldn't be the one,
But I could.
I want you to listen, to care about the words I have to share.
I sit here alone and I can't breath,
these walls are closing in on me.
You are going to ignore me now,
Which is expected and only proves how right my judgement is.
I want to feel the pain of my mind and heart,
across my arms,
or maybe on a long tortures run.
But then you text me and say you're coming over,
and I smile that half smile that you bring out.
*You've proven me wrong.

Sitting on the dock smoking those stupid cigarettes
A half smile on your lips I fell in love
As the wind blows and howls
The lighter refuses to spark
So we huddled together
Hoping to nurse it to a blaze
Physically closer than we ever had been before

And as the lighter catches and you inhale deeply
I shrug and reach for one myself
Because in that moment you had stepped away
And i wanted you back in close
So I lit it, we sat together
Any doubts in my mind about my health
Erased by the rapid beating my heart felt

Arm in arm we talked the night away
Waiting for the sunrise
Two lonely souls now together
Bonded over a ritual as old as time itself
Yet still as magic as the day it was discovered
And when I looked over and asked you for another light
Our mouths were kissing; the world was right

Dreams turn acidic
Melting away the past and present
Holding the future at an arms length
While worlds spin casually

Reality bends and shatters
Fragments become shards become specks
And fade to past memories melting away
Until all that remains is the present

One second is infinite as it bleeds
To an eternity
But ends at the exact moment the next begins
What remains is mesmerizing and immaculate

That was that moment
And this is this moment