You ****** my lifeless body with passion
All I could focus on was the ceiling
Because looking at your dead eyes
Or your strong build reminds me that it's not real,
You don't love me you my body
You don't want me you want my body
You like me better on my knees
Or when I'm shouting Please

I never feel important
I feel useless, invisible, and undefined
I am life
I have been given life
I have lingered blissfully between suicide and the sensation of that first breath of hope I receive from god in the morning
I never feel important
But I will keep fighting
Until god calls my heart

Drowning in a pool of tears
desperately trying gasping for air
To find salvation and happiness again
I remember being "normal"
Feeling loved, showing love
My heart has been frozen, shattered, ripped apart, trampled, and destroyed
But never put back together....