Things came apart
But
When it came back together
Not every piece
Was put back in its place

The tears that run down my face are salty.
Barely could see.
My eyes get full of tears so fast.
& my teardrops get heavier by the second.
My heart feels tight,
& I hardly can breathe.
I feel the need to scream until I could be heard.
I feel the need to go…
*ELSEWHERE!

You look for comfort
When your most not
And seek for better
when it seems not
Looking to feel that escape,
falling in love each and every time
You seem to lose yourself
Once again

the stars were a blur
as I looked for the Moon

It never looked so beautiful

within the search I’ve felt bliss and beyond that I’ve felt a bit blue because although I’ve seen the Moon I’ve missed you more

"I miss you"

T** he night was silent & you stole my
H eart with every thought
I had of you,
E very piece of me
F ell apart within

Things for God always come
I n the
M oments that's right, just wait & be patient
E verything will be put in its place, the way God planned it

If I run out of words
Please help me
Find them
Because
It's time
I tell you
My thoughts & feelings
I have about you

IF YOU HAD A SIGN
A TOKEN THAT CHANGED YOUR LIFE
WOULD YOU TAKE THE CHANCE
WOULD YOU LET IT CHANGE YOUR LIFE
WHAT IF I TOLD YOU MY TOKEN WAS MY VOICE
WOULD YOU TAKE THE CHANCE AND LISTEN
IF YOU HAD A CHOICE
THIS THAT HIGH FEELING REALLY LIFTED
THIS THAT GREAT FEELING THIS THAT VISION
THIS THAT WE SPEAK SHEIT INTO EXISTENCE
SOME CAN'T STAND THE HEAT SO THEY DISTANCE
NO PETTINESS HERE
THAT AIN'T NOTHING NICE
YOU NEVER KNOW IF YOU'LL SEE THEM TWICE
THINKING YOU'LL SEE THEM TWICE
WHY WOULD YOU MATCH NEGATIVE ENERGY
WHY WOULD YOU EVEN WASTE YOUR TIME
GROWTH IS ESSENTIAL
I SEE THE POTENTIAL
KEEP GOING NEVER STOP
YOU DESTINED YOU BOUND
PICTURE YOURSELF AT THE TOP
BLESSINGS ON TOP OF MORE BLESSINGS
CAREFUL WHO YOU KEEP AROUND

She writes down:
Her thoughts
Her Memories
Her Experiences

Sips on some strong alcohol
Because it makes her forget
*Every negative moment she encountered
And there comes a point where
She starts thinking about her life

Waking up next to empty bottles
With more regrets
So she grabs another one
To start her day

The girl that loved  so hard,
She ended up to be  broken
Yet so loving still

T** he
O pen wounds
R emembering
N ever to let you in again

The sad
Reminder leaving
Us to
Think that it's okay to
H**old on and pretend everything is fine when its not

Everything will begin
To change
And you'll  *remain the same

I loved you in ways I thought loving you was right
I gave you everything
I loved you for you
& you, filled with euphoria began to see the world much differently
You never stopped searching

You’re so beautiful and your lips are to be kissed
and your body is for you to love
but first you must love yourself
and I gave you everything because you never asked
I fell in love with not only you
I fell in love with it
It was Joy

and you understood, for you I love

Gonna go on a drive with you,
I don't know where
But let's go some where
far away from here,
Setting our eyes on seas we've never seen,
Setting our minds to travel the unseen,
Let's take a journey, you and I,
Traveling trails of a mountain
That lead us into the sky, and
When we find our way back down
We can sit in the sands of the sea
Watching the waves move up shore
Kissing our toes, and when night falls,
I'll remind you how much I love
The stars and the moon
While we are looking up at the sky,
I'll hold you, watching you
Fall asleep in my arms,
Realizing, --that every moment
I've spent with you on our
Journey has made me
Love all of what we do
Together--  *as a whole

Humans are very  unpredictable
So can you really say you know someone

**?

sometimes you have to be vulnerable
and embrace everything
in order to live again
||

**Don't ever think your weak

Her eyes wander
And
They begin to tear
Each drop
Slithering unto her pillow
As she wipes them away
More come
And she can't help but
Cry

When I begin thinking
About the
Nights we will talk about our
Desire to travel
Everywhere, just wanting to
Relax with you and I,
Longing for
Us to be
Something again when
T**he right time comes, so we can begin our journey

Feeling things just got worse
Ready to explode;
Everything that she kept bottled up inside
Eventually came out

The things that
She asked for
She never got

But the things that
God gave her
Was all she ever needed

What hurts more,
The times where the pieces placed themselves
Or
The times where the pieces were nowhere to be found  
?

What Kind Of Love?
He wrote "heart you"
On my paper &
I asked him
What kind of love?
He told me to not
Worry about it

And I was shocked
Because that's when I knew

It was serious
And everything was transparent
Felt like he wanted me to know
In the most smallest ways

Holding it all in


Knowing most of me
Even my darkest secrets.

I miss you Texas
I miss you last year
Look how everything changed
****
Yet your feelings didn’t
Texas hot summer
Became Alaska Freeze
Took my heart, it froze and broke
How do you fix that
If you know, inform me
I thought it was suppose to feel warm
Laid back
Mind left
Not thinking of you
Wanted to make something
You wanted nothing
Heart done froze
Yet its warm now
And I’m gone now
No feelings left
Yet I’m kinda stuck now
Gotta go can’t stay stagnant now
You first right
I’m choosing me always
Me first always
I love me many firsts before this cold world
I’m not part of
I’d deserve real love
I’d deserve the world and some if you ask me
Thought you would have known
I was strongly mistaken
Its easy to switch water with *****
And maybe I was too depressed to smell
But **** I was damaged
Sheit slipped like time
I tired to go back
Right where I had none left
So I started walking forward now
Went back trying to find time
And you could never get that sheit back
Sheit got real
My feeling dried out
A hot girls summer
She works hard for hers
She loves herself the most
When no one else would
Started living Zen
Thank God everyday for him he’s a wise man
**** money
Where your mind at
***** funds
Where your mind at
Focusing on  all the wrong things
Baby girl trying to build and
You focused on yourself
You don’t really love her
You just want the Kat
Confront yourself *****
Thats where your minds at
**** Money
**** Drugs
Where your mind at
Shorty was really digging you
Somewhere deep is where her mind at
Clouded mind Clouded mind
Oh she loves hates her mind
Trying to get right
When everything else went left
I never heard or seen em
Left so quiet
Abandonment situation left cold
Abandonment situation
Wherever no matter where she go
Where your mind at
Where your mind at
Starting living Zen
Only time and time again
Living the luxury
You don’t know anything about
Where your mind at
Where your mind at

I was going to be the girl
Who likes to paint her nails,
Wear eyeliner & wear lipstick

I love the stories of successful powerful entrepreneurs that made it through everything without ever stopping to becoming where they are now and still getting where they want to be

Once you've made it to that point you wanted to be, you expand and grow and somewhere else becomes your new destination. It never stops because you begin learning new things and you come up with new ideas, new goals, etc.

Once you came from a destination to another one
You can accomplish anything, you did it once you can do it over again.
You will get a lot of NO'S before you start hearing YES'S
Failure doesn't have to be something negative
Every failure is a stepping stone to make you become a better You

There will be times where you want to QUIT
But that's when you have to fight the hardest and overcome that every moment and just keep fighting until you've made it to your destination
You have to push yourself even if no one else wants to work with you
Go to the places you said and thought
"I should talk to whoever is in charge"

This is easy, your not the only one
Remember your WHY and fight
Remember the reason why you choose to become an Entrepreneur

Work with your team or build your team and work together
Share ideas


Don't let fear stop you:
Make that phone call
Make that stop
Attend the meetings
Take notes
Follow up with people -always-
Write down everything
Wake up early
Get on the calls
Invite people over, present the business opportunity

Never prejudge EVER

Either:
Business partner
or
Customer
If not neither ask for referrals

Motivate yourself,
Move
Work it as a full time
Define it as part time
Make it fun
Don't stress yourself

It's okay to:
Get mad
Get sad
Then move on and get on track again

Some people will never get it
Others, you will need to get back to them


Following up, is where your money is at

Stay focus
Be sharp
Be yourself

Don't make up EXUSES for yourself

Do it because it's easy,
Its simply don't complicate
Do it because you don't want to,
but do it anyways because you know its beneficial to you

It wasn't meant for everyone so don't get stuck on that one person
Move on to the NEXT'S

Duplicate
Duplication is key
So is Consistency
So is Patience
Make this your everyday
Treat it as your business
Its your
Create your OWN hours
Use all your tools

Don't make **** up
Be honest

Change your "I should have's" to "I'm going to"

Grow your business
Help people

Do something product today
Not tomorrow, not next month
But right now

Work your business as if. . . .
inserts worse life scenario

Create success
Put God first, --Always--




Hillary Mercedes
L800424

not opposites but halves

let me remind you
I love you for you
I love the way you are when your with me
building a safe home
for us both 
that one day we can 
see the world
that one day we can
make love
that with every full moon
that passes
I miss you more 
that when I see you it feels like I was waiting for the moon again
that within each day I dont see you
you are missed dearly
and I want you to know that
were each others halves instead of opposites
because you help me grow
within myself and with you
as the skies start to create wonders my mind expands filling it with more stars
and clouds and airplanes
with new destinations to help us grow within ourselfs within each other as well
each cracked smile whenever I think of you 
is great, elation just fills my whole canvas including my brain that above all your my King, you make me happy even when your not with me
that the misses are compared to the next full moon 
no matter if its just 48 hours
I never want you to forget my love, our love 
I have for you and we have for each other
within the eyes
the canvas is painted in the most beautiful way
that every brush and mark
came with patience and love

And so with every wave is made of the wind

The harder they try to silence me
The louder I become

Winnie Mandela

Don't care
As much as me
And That hurts

My eyes will search for you
When you are Absent