Leila

Leila Apr 2014

I underestimated the search
and came out a fool.
I looked for answers everywhere
and everywhere found ghouls.
I journeyed through the lowest valleys
and with shadows as my fuel.
I searched for this thing you call love
And the love I found was cruel.
So I took pilgrimage to Mecca
and there I learned a golden rule.
I can trek forever-i'll never find what i'm looking for
because you can't make a pilgrim out of a mule

#alone

Leila Apr 2014

Ashes 2 Ashes

Why speak
when words become weak
and everything you want is in the darkness
and you are forever alone
Happiness will never meet you
and your prince will never seek you
You will die unknowing
from your heart with blood flowing
Beating and pumping
all of your life into nothing
You'll be a stain on the soil
until dust in the face of turmoil

#pain

Apr 2014

Luce

wordsworth (10w)

I am just a dandelion
pretending to be a
daffodil.

"I wandered lonely as a cloud"

Leila Apr 2014

For A Neighbor

I apologize for relying so heavily on you
I’m sorry for the times I put on or withdrew
I never meant to confuse or push you away
But I heard people talk-who were they
Nobody could know what I’m worthy of
I just wanted to feel some love
As if a form of it actually existed
All I get is conditional or twisted
But words, poems-they pale in comparison to pain
And those who drown aren't troubled with rain

#heartache

Leila Apr 2014

A Thinking Kind of Man

I don't want this anymore
I want to let it go
I'm not who I was before
I have to show you so you know
That I gave away what I fought to gain
That I learn this lesson slow
I longed but my longing was in vain
Cause I lost along time ago
I needed this but never realized the pain
I only saw illusions in shadow shows
And what I heard weighed on my brain
But I fought for this even so
My victory-now my ball and chain
All my happiness turned to woe
With thought I drove myself insane
So now I see my demons and say hello

Leila Mar 2014

Fallen Heros

I wish I had sent you that message
I’ll never have the chance again
I thought you’d always be there
I never thought til when
No one lives forever
But how do I know when it’s time
I still feel you - see, and hear you
As distinctly as I can see the sun shines

Leila Mar 2014

Mr. McLeod

I hope to see him again someday
Like I saw him times before
Resting under a red sun's rays
When Michael knew nothing of war
I pray I will always remember
The love I lost too soon
Forever, as if he never left
And still basked in the glow of the moon
So before this season has faded
Before dark waters reach the shore
I'll search for the rays and beams
As brilliant as the ones he wore
And i'll rest in the sunset like we used to
But Michael won't be there anymore