LCM - Hello Poetry

LCM Mar 2020

I

I’m lost and I’m confused.
I don’t know anymore if I’m trying
I don’t know how to tell
If I’m trying to forget
Or trying to remember.

Do I love you?
Do I hate myself?
Who am I anymore.

I’ve built my life trying
To fix mistakes
That won’t be fixed.
That can’t be.

I don’t know anymore if I’m trying.
Trying to love you.
Or trying to forget to.

LCM Mar 2020

Fault

I’m angry.
I’m angry with myself.

Because I’ve been letting
You hold me down.

Hold me back
And make me forget.

There are so many things I wanted
And I gave them up.

To try and fix mistakes
That shouldn’t have been made.

I’m furious with myself.
I’m angry and I know

There’s someone to blame.
And no one.

LCM Mar 2020

Control

I don’t want to parent you.

I don’t want to fight for every second.

I don’t know who you are.

You lie and lie.

I’m tired of being the one.

That takes care of everything.

Except myself.

LCM Mar 2017

Something True

The broken wing,
The bird too lost to sing,

The quiet sea,
The frost upon a pine tree,

The quiet song
The roaring throng

An angry mountain,
A broken throne

Whispers of something far
Something true

Mistakes and imperfections
Hiding meaning, threading bare

Reaching hands, pleading eyes,
Unattainable, unyielding, far off lies

Something true.

#wanderlust

LCM Mar 2017

The Loner

They say we’re crazy
When we care too much
When we don’t care enough.

They say we are too emotional
When their little lies and broken words
Find a way to creep inside our guarded hearts.

They find a reason to tear apart
Every beating unbroken heart.
They whisper and they talk down from behind

When we give up, when we decide to be alone
When we must travel far, far from home,
It won’t matter how you act, what you say or who you know

Because they’ll find a way to call you crazy
To attack without any pomp or show.
The loner will always be crazy,

Failing to conform,
Acting different than the norm.
If you guard yourself and don’t let anyone in

They’ll find a way to make you pay.

#loner #staydifferent #ratherbealone

LCM Mar 2017

Marriage

Marriage.
The day you get married.
It’s not who you have been,
Or are now,
Today is about celebrating
Who you both will be
Together-
From now until forever.

#marriage #weddingday #gettinghitched #weddingtoasts

LCM Mar 2017

My Choice

I can hear it in your voice
I can see it in your eyes
I watch it in your smile

The way you looked at me...
The way you thought of me...
It's gone.

I know I made a choice-
I know you could hear it in my voice.
I didn't let you in

I said no- I couldn't even begin
My fears disguised by rationality.
But where does that leave me?

Behind? Forgotten? Alone?

I can hear it in your voice.
Please don't leave me
Without a choice,

Please don't leave me-
Behind...
Forgotten and alone

With my choice.