your eyes never shined like that when you were
looking at me
i can't make my poems sound that poetic anymore
they all just sounds like
repetitive pleads,
begging you,
just let me be good enough this time
just settle for me
my poems used to sound like screams
they're not that powerful anymore
they're more of whimpers now
because my poems and i?
well, we;re tired
we've been crying since the day you left
and we ran out of tears
we ran out of new things to say
but we haven't given up yet,
this poem is a plead.
come back.

last night I drank a whole bottle and it gave me the same butterflies you did;
a boy tried to get me to go into his car alone with him
I laughed in his face
it was funny because he didn't know how broken I am
I smoked so much I was flying
I don't remember how I got home
and I was surrounded by people who were saying my name
but I knew that they didn't know me

**** me goodbye since that's all you came here for
lock the door
nobody knows they can't see
we got so high we smoked trees
we called it a forest fire
you stupid, ***** liar
we smoked til I cried and begged you not to leave
I swear I'm not as crazy as I seem
we coulda called it making love
if we didn't hate each other more every time we ******
we coulda lasted for ever
we coulda been real special

i just write and i write and i write
i don't even know where the words come from;
it's like theyre bleeding from my fingertips
and the ink is the blood
i wrote 4 pages today about falling in love
another 6 about how much i wish youd just come back
and i scribbled in the margins how i wish i could get away
there were sentences abut my insignificance
and paragraphs about how i feel disconnected
my hands hurt so ******* much
but how am i to stop when its the only way to stop the hurt

i've always loved adventure, so i tried falling in love
i wouldn't call it falling, really
more of a plummet
into an abyss i can't get out of
yeah, love is an adventure
but i'm lost
and you won't give me the ******* map

Death by ******, death by chance,
Death by secret night romance,
Death by number, paint the liner,
Death in colour or black and white,
Accidental, planned prolonged,
Death by always doing wrong,
Death by self, a timeless art,
Death by one last broken heart.