what did you expect?
you met a person who leaves,
and you're one that gets left.

How terrifying to see eternity when I look at you.
All the unflinching and unchambered pain and grief and joy and achievement in your years to come.
You’re all but too big a heart for your body, and all too shallow a breath for as much as you dive headfirst.

the violent extremes
of my feelings
leave me breathless
at peace - in unrelenting moments
explosive - in calmness, unprovoked markers
of pleasantry, or people pleasing

i tackle invasive cruelty
curled into myself with tear streamed cheeks

i fight kindness blindly
and self-berate
riding the waves that i ******* hate

all of this is me
all of the extremes
but i'll hurt myself before
these things
cause others to bleed.