Tie me a knot
A knot stronger than the wind
Tie me a knot--
A weapon I will wield

I'll carry it all day
Treasuring the knot you'll make
Walking a mile distance
From the draw out line I gave

Heave it strong and brave
Carefully making connections
Between the rope you made
And the rope I kept

Heave-- tie our ropes
The rope you used to save life
And the rope I used to end mine

It took me a while to notice
What she kept on bugging me with
"Have you noticed something?" she asked
Without a doubt, this is her thousandth question
I shrugged her off
I thought it's just that easy
To get away from her
She clutched her hands away
She cut her hair shorter than usual
I noticed, how couldn't I?
Why does it even matter?

But then again, I remembered
I once asked her a question
As casual as it can get
"Would you ever let me die alone?"
Right after, the universe slowed
The only moment where time literally stopped
She crossed the Andromeda
To swallow me whole
Into her untimely hug
She said--
"Don't you love it when we're congruent?"

So with my untimely words for this untimely moment
I whispered unto her
"I liked what you did to your hair."
She bobbed her hair as minimal as she can
--My words just crossed Andromeda
"Don't you love it when we're congruent?"

She thought and fought
The humor where I belong
Because she finds it a creep
A humor that is so dark,
Deep, and unnerving
Must be a joke
But no she's wrong
This is not a jest
She knew it too well
"My humor is dark", I said
"My humor is dark for a reason"

We are one with the stars
In dust we form our history
Our paths may have diverged
Yet the scheme where we belong--
Kept the dust inside our body

We are one with the moons,
The comets that stretched out the sky
We are a whisper within a storm
A flicker on a candle
A tear under the rain

The dust will grow old and wither
Like the lives that succeeded the first
But the dust will meet its head
The dust will return to the scheme--
To the scheme where we all belong

Ngayong lumipas na ang temang nakasanayan
Silip banayad sa kahapong dagliang dumaan
Pikit man ang mata, alaala naman ay pabulong
Hikahos sa hanging hindi naman tunay na yumao

Niyaring tinapos ang kasalukuyan sa halina't
Imahe ng kapayapaan sa kabilang daungan
Lingid sa ibabaw ng katinuan na ang bangka
Lumutang man ay di masasakyang tuluyan

Bigkas ay mga hikbi sa bawat pagsulong
Hanggat ang biyak ay hindi tuluyang magtagpo
Sa harap ng dahas at galit ng ilog sa pagitan
Paglubog ng liwanag ay syang di maiiwasan

Niyaring tinapos ang kasalukuyan sa halina,
Silip banayad sa kahapong dagliang dumaan
Sa harap ng dahas at galit ng ilog sa pagitan
Pagkalunod sa sariling luha'y syang di iiwasan

This maybe a superstition
The life we are forced to take,
Like many of the things
We used to believe

Everyone refused to die
Unless it's an immaculate ascension
To our perceived
Culmination of all heavenly on earth

Millions and millions
Seconds they past
While we dance
Into the flames

Every night is longer
Much longer than before
Yet we laugh
And cry when we're through

It scares me enough
Realizing this much
The fools we are credited for
Was our consequence of
Being superstitious

Why is it hard to find
A sanctuary for myself
But it's easy to be one
For somebody else

Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall
Humpty Dumpty pity you all
The horizon is red, the river is blood
Cracks open up the great crimson sod.

Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall
Humpty Dumpty chuckles seeing them crawl
There are no king's horses and no king's men
Just Humpty Dumpty laughing in his big quiet den.

There is an infinity between us
Stretching far beyond my reach
Yet to my heart, this too was close

Not in proximity can my longing
Be tamed but rather knowing
That your heart still holds mine

Left with only the still images
Of that one face that had loved
You the most since infinity

And when this love that knows
No infinity at all brought pain
Then in proximity shall I cease

Return to the infinity between
Back to infinity shall I reside
Knowing no proximity and all

I am slowly dissociating
On this plane of existence
To a seperate dimension
Exempt from realizations
And harshness of life

I am slowly dissociating
Becoming one with void
Finally being at my peace
Exempt from everything
The very sorrows of life

I came home late
Which is no surprise
Let my coat hang loose
Gripped the **** too tight

I sighed down the aisle
Where the frame of us stood
Embroidered with smiles
Standing still, much of a fool

I came home from work
Expected everything to be still
Yet when I turned to the room
The stillness took out my own will

I've known no bounds
Known no regrets up to the core
Until that moment when you flew
One inch above the floor

I choked in air
I never thought one can do
Failed to trust my own
Failed to balance myself

I've known no fear
Known no regrets up to the core
Until I saw my other heart
One inch above the floor

Of all the moments that could flash before my eyes
Yours just have to be the one
Lovely as her name
This memory of her was the last
Picture perfect smile which meant the world to me

I dreamt of this scene a lot
A drifting emotion from the past
Waiting ever so patiently
That still lingers on my hands,
My shoulders, and my heart

But under the mercy of a cold cylinder
The heart of mine would not react
Because as lovely as her name,
As nice as our shared memories were
I only wish I didn't have them

Death is what follows through
In moments of weakness where--
Your voice is what the winds blow

Each word they carry to my ears
Was a knife staked to the heart
Then what follows after is a fall

I die once and then another
With each was a gasp for air
Just to suffer a little more longer

My every death is in your hands
And in every death I live again
To die once more in your arms

To die once and for another

As I enter a world without tears-
The world without hope
My chest felt lighter
My breaths got steady

As the world I've known fade into nothingness
The path I had seemed clear
The steps began to fold
The rain just stopped to fall

I wonder if this is where we intersect
A point in life when we become one
Just like two strokes within a plane
Crossed in an uneventful turn of events

This maybe the scene you wanted to see
The view buried within your eyes
A place overlooking the fields
Of a place you'll never meet again

The wind blew dry
The moon burned so weak
Yet, with a night that cared so much
We jumped into unknown

Up until the day I say
The words I were meant to bear
These hands will hold you tight
Tight as ever been

The end may come near
The world may cease to be
But this hand will unfailingly be
The light you can constantly seek

Thread the impassable route
Fear no storm in the sea
For when you are with me
You are with your lighthouse

I did good, you did good
But I just wish
We could've done better

The worst thing I think when I go home from work
Is that I need to lie again tomorrow
To push me out the bed
And get me brushing my teeth
I need to feel sorry again
For the time I spent awake
Thinking about my journey
A handful scenarios of defeat

All of these
Just to get me up the bus
To tell another lie
Just to be greeted with one
Almost decieving as the first
And when I thought things can't be worse
The truth hits me even harder
Realizing the effort I continue to make
Will go waste once I go back to bed

If I carry on your love
The love that cost you tears
Will you be able to get peace?
Knowing that your dreams--
Your last words and last breath
Are burried inside a rotting corpse
Walking across a barren field?

If I carry on my journey
To gather up my mind
That a long time ago broke in pieces
With bits scattered across this barren field
Will you be able to get peace?
Knowing that I collect shards of my psyche
With this bleeding hands
Patched with used up cloths?

Is it fine to be the one asking?
When I'm the one on the other side of the line
Safe and sound away from harm
Is it fine?
I hope not. I really do
Because in my mind it was never fine
To be the one on the other side of the line
To be the one to feel silence
Haunted--
Knowing that you're on the other side of the line
Sleeping

I hope and pray
My heart would not escape
The cage I bound it in
My Juliana

I hope and pray
My hands would not reach
The hope that seeemed forsaken
My Juliana

I hope and pray
For a broken heart to mend
As swift as the tears I shed
My Juliana

I hope and pray
My Juliana

But to hope and pray
For something improbable to happen
Is like loving you
My Juliana

Take me to the end of the world
Let me stand at its edge
And feel the fear of falling
Return to my senses

Let me stare at the abyss
Like when I stare back into those eyes
Sunken as a pirate ship
Monochromatic and void

I'll ignore the failing voices in my head
As I stay valiant on the edge
With no intention of writhing
In silence again

I've always lived in constant misery
Though I didn't want it to be
This abyss is a disappointment in comparison
To the life I've lead

So, take me
Take me at its edge
I'm not gonna fall
This abyss is too shallow for me

I hope that life is not just about this
A one way road to somewhere else

Never did I pray for more or less
I just want to feel alive, if not again

Less than a minute, less than an hour
Less than a glance, but less is enough
To teach my heart to do just one lie
Just one and save itself from you

I know for a fact
That the genuity and sincerity
Of your smiles
Are the lies you love to flaunt
To everyone else
To make them believe
The life you chose to take
Had lead you to the hands
Of a caring God

Since turmoil within each breath
And eccentricity within your soul
Had left you with a hefty core
The life you chose to take
Has lead you to a God
As passive as can be

About time I let myself come up callous and cruel,
I'll go get my shovel and bury the castle with you in it

With a stick and a pole, i'll mark it with ease
Never coming back, I'll be out in a bliss.

In bliss I found happiness
'Cause in it I found you
And in bliss I caught myself
Smiling through rise and fall

Yes, in bliss I found it all
The joy, the pain, the toll
'Cause in bliss I found you
Then in it I lost you

In bliss we lived our lives
Ignorant as though content
Yes, I thought forever is now
But forever is now until it's a bliss

Gone too far
Are the winds of hope
For a man with no light to see
Beneath his eyes

His threads are sewed
His time still runs
Yet his hands are still
Drawn to the winds

As the stars shone bright
And the moon rose quiet
The man grew old
Passed his dripping years

The planted seeds
He treasured for years
Took no time to heed
The plea of a wilting man

The winds of hope
Showed no mercy to the man
Until the man has meet
His marching band

Only then he was pleased
For a place to rest
To stop his time
Aboard the winds

I woke up drenched in fear
Numb and I couldn't stand

I stared at the ceiling
Stretched my arm but didn't felt warmth

My heart dazed, my mind blank
I searched something, maybe someone
I will never find again

"When did this bed got bigger?"

I woke up drenched in fear
Now I remember, it is when you left

"This bed surely is bigger now. I should be happy."

We always argue in our space in this bed
I pushed you to the side and let you sleep in the brink.

"How am I suppose to sleep with this tiny space?"

Each day you complain
A record that plays enveloping this bed

"Can you just let it slip away? Okay? Your voice is irritating."

You argued but I am stubborn
You insisted but I am immature

"Yeah, I should be happy now."

Now that the bed got bigger
And the corners are welcoming

You said you're tired
I thought you're just tired of work

But no, you aren't tired of work
You're tired of me--childish

"God, I should stop myself from crying."

I should be happy by now
Now that the bed just got bigger
And now that I won't have to hear that record anymore

"Can you just let it slip away? Okay? Your voice is irritating."

Scars, scars, scars
All around the stars
Scars, scars, scars
Pick up all these shards

Knock, knock, knock
******* my gut
Knock, knock, knock
Why can't you just stop?

Leave, leave, leave
Roll down your sleeves
Please
Stretch out the sheets
Leave
Wipe out the tears

"Honey dear are you alright?"

"Yes mom, I'll go back to sleep."

If only dreams can die
The very same way I do
Maybe my life could've--
Turned for the better

Because in everyday I feel
Like slowly dying inside
Wanting something I can't
Even hope to realize

In a thousand lifetime

I wonder how will the world turn
If I could see everything in your eyes
I wonder how much difference would it make
When all is perfect and fine

If you could just realize how much I envy you
How can you say I'm so special?
You can be anything you want
I'm nothing compared to you

I knew I'm up to no good
But everytime I'm inside your arms
I could feel my heart alight my chest
That's something your love can do

I'll take a step reaching out to you
To make myself a better version of me
To make me that kind of special
Even being half as special as you

Look at my smile; I really adore you
I hope that you knew
That something special I told you
Was you, I love you.

Tears fall behind every drop
Of the rain I prayed to grief
Along the scars I trace within this shroud
Of a thing I used to be

In the dark I stray alone
With a match within my hand
To find the path I used to walk
Beside the shrouds I came to be

I cast the stone upon myself
And let it drum throughout my chest
I let the sound echo through my ears
Unto the heart I've known to fear

Have this heart learned
How much a name would hurt
Just enough to tug the threads
We would not come to be

Farther and farther
We could have not learned
The sad truth about ourselves
That you and I are utmost almost

We knowingly chose this path
The path of least resistance
And threaded this trapestry of mishaps
Just to have it all snapping back

Reality of us is worst at best
Yet we found all the reasons to ignore
The call and the trace of struggle
Between our decietful smiles

But certain things would not deny
Things will always be
You and I will regretfully bet
Almost will come to be

Save me a page
On one of your magazines
In return, I will make this
One of the last memories
I will leave with you

For when you want to reminisce
The structure of my face
The curvature in my jaw
The spacing between my fingers
The hallow look into my face

No one will ask
'Cause they'll probably never know
The face they will see
And the feelings I imbued within
This page on your magazine

I'll do everything
Everything just for a page
If it means a living memory
Of a hallow person
Dying inside
Dying to live forever

In your memories

On the crossroad of our life
The easterlies blew southward
And in the ever so sudden shift of the world
You began to shine your true color

Shades of yellow suddenly cowered
To an ocean of blue, deep and calm
Never knowing what laid after my eyes,
I thought you were the most serene view

For the life of me I could not guess
Why it seemed like paradise to me
When what lied after my view is your reality
What lied after my view is a chasm

In an unbounded, groundless dark trench
There's a chasm that gets deeper as I stare
On a serene ocean I finally felt your peace
The same peace I wish for you to be

Had it occurred to me a lot sooner
I could have realized; life mirrors art
Together we could have began--
Shining our true colors to the world

Gaze upon the midnight sky
For the moon above is free
For the blinding stars and peaceful winds
I bow these down to thee

Maybe I'm not worthy
Maybe I'm not

To those hugs and kisses
That shifts my heart to jump and trot

To those songs you play and hymn
That brings my world away from dim

To those shared secrets, said and done
That made me think "You're the one."

Yeah, maybe I'm not worthy
Maybe I'm not

To these caged feelings I'm now letting to rot

Whenever I close my eyes
I try not to see your face
I try not to see your lips
I try not to read those sweet words escaping through your mouth

I try not to see the face I loved the most

Whenever I'm all alone
I try to drown the sound
I try to rest my chest
I try to tame my heart, running wild, unchained, and broken
I try not to hear the way you breath the air.

I try to ignore the hymn of you and me.

But whenever there is time
Just enough to catch a glimpse of the past
I can't help myself from seeing you and me linked and covered in the sheets
I can't help myself from seeing the way we used to be.

"The way we used to be together."

I am running out of words
I am running out of breath
Just like we're running out of time
Time to be together

Destitute ice where the soul should be
Replaced before the heart could ever speak
In each, melancholy bloomed infinitely
Words to paint the hymn of your eyes

Fruits of labor lie just across the steep
But when the last step to the fight oughts,
To deliver the expected, it would not
Maybe melancholy since then held you dear

Was thinking of newness frightened you?
With the endless possibility of disaster,
Aside from the chance of another great fall
Does newness finally caught up to you?

When fingers are pointed, you shrivelled
Maybe because of those destitute eyes
Confidently staring just across the steep
Pointing fingers at a reflection in the mirror

This is better
This is good
I always tell myself
Letting her go was best
Not for me
But the best for her

Much as I would want you here
Dear and close to my heart
I would rather have you at a distance
Than have you shattering in my touch

Please be good
Please be kind
Please be the man
I thought I would be
When I get her
Dear and close to my heart

It will hurt so much
It will **** me
But please be there for her
Forever and always

Must be nice
Must be good
For the world
Not to fall apart
When I feel
Happy
For once

Honey, you can smile now
Free your emotions running loose
As summer comes through
Picture the days
With better skies

Help yourself with the breeze
Brushing excitedly against--
Each crease along your skin
Remember how these sceneries
Would be the first of many

Leave everything on the bay
And watch the waves carry it away
Honey, worry not and hope
For everyday to be like
The summer we'll spend

Brace for brighter days
As we clear your clouded world
Savor the better days
Honey, worry not
You can smile now

The rain befall my shields again
Withdrawn the sheets below the pain
And in my eyes all there is rain
To which my heart I knew would fail

I curled myself and dozed to sleep
Closed my eyes never left a blink
To start again my fleeting dream
And see that smile I dearly miss

Where does the time played in our life?
I'm seventeen still young and brim
Whereas you're two older than me
And now I'm two older than you

I couldn't believe the way it snapped
Sheared in two, teared in apart
While crimson dye flowed in and cracked
Which marked the start of my demise

You should've been strong so you could tell
That you needed me like I needed you
Now I'm two years older than you
The way younger sisters don't naturally do

Took you a long time to reach the shore
When the seas seem fine and collected
Lest the sins and sadness you abhor
Haunt you through the old days relentless

Heavy is the heart that carries the world
And weary is the world that hates itself
You saw the shores and loathed yourself
Since you tried and swam but sinked again

While up above, the banquet of stars shone
Right over your head as to mock you terribly
Then in the aftermath of it all, the sea set off
Before you began to learn how to drift along

But when the seas seem fine and collected
You found yourself embracing for the worst
Because in the midst of the pain and enmity
Nonchalant strength foreign to you, stayed

Forget all the sins and sadness you abhor
For the waves that crushed you day and night
Washed your weary heart that sinked unfailingly
Fooling it may be, but pain did build you whole

Looking back to the days of grasping for air
Often lets you forget that you took to the shore
Not even realizing, it's not time that took pity
You swam and persisted to the days relentless

Lucky was the moment you thought of living
The harbors in the shores were such a sight
There's still a lot of seas yet to be conquered
But lucky is it, you can still persist relentless

In hopes to live an ideal life
She concealed herself in a room
A room painted with the hues of her soul
Isolated and locked for others not to see

One day this guy saw this trampled room
Wandered and aimlessly searched for it's door
He tried so hard yet he may so blind to see
The door he's searching was inside of him

But the girl knew this guy will come
The guy which may set her free
Though she hoped and dreamt for this moment to betide
Neither two of them were connected by the strings of fate

It's been a while
Since the day I walked this field
Where I brought you
On our last day together
The grass haven't grown
The trees still stood tall
Everything seemed frozen in time
I know when I look down
The day, month, and year
Wont ever change
Because on that summer day
The worries disappeared
I moved on now
It seems unfair
Knowing time had stopped for you
Since I brought you here
To your peace

Curtains call, curtains fall
A bow ends up a play
Play where we stood tall
But ended up falling arrayed

Curtains call, curtains fall
A bow ends up a play
At last this long sought tale
Will come to an end

To the end without you
To the end with just me
To the end one last time

Consider how affectionate
The stars should be
Just to share
A bit of your curiosity

Say, how the light that seemed
To flicker even in the darkest
Part of the cold night
Have rendered itself helpless

I tried to be a still wave
On a rampaging ocean
Just to have something in your life
Unmoving and predictable

Years and years gone by
Yet, you still can't shake the eeriness
Of the thought of us
Standing still for an eternity

So, I sat before you
While you gaze upon the blanket
Of the stars I wish I've laid
Hoping for you to keep your words

Not here, not now
Please, let me forget
The impending scene
Where you'd become a speck

On a heap of yesterday's memory.