I dont know I guess I'm just tired of loving people who are not capable of loving me the way I deserved to be loved. You know I've always walked with my heart on my sleeve and I've always been proud of it. There's a lot of lost souls out there with so much anger and pain living inside of them who just want a ******* hug and someone to talk to. And I apply that to my love life. You never know what's happening inside, what hurt they've been harboring in their hearts. I give the full extent of my love to anyone my heart connects with. I guess that's pretty ****** cause it hasnt been on my side lately. And that's why we're here. I dont want much. I just want someone who can love me as much as I love them, and if I'm lucky, maybe even more. **** the jealousy rants and petty arguments. If the love is there then things arent that bad. Why can't you see that I love you so much? Why can't you see that I would sneak out at 12 am with you and go nowhere just to be with you. Anything to make you happy, I would try to do that. I mean I'm capable of giving you so much support, emotionally, mentally anything. I have so much love inside of me to give, all I'm asking for you to is just to reciprocate that energy back to me. tell me how I make you feel, how much I mean to you. Is that too much to ask?
I know I should leave you alone cause you will never be able to love me like I love you but you're the one thing that gets me up in the morning. how do I leave that?

I knew this was coming for a while, I just never expected it so soon
you know they say a woman's intuition is always right and it just proved to be true
there was always this feeling in the pit of my stomach that kept on telling me
"he'll find someone better than you", "you're just not enough"
but I ignored it, I wanted to believe it was a lie
cause honestly I love you man and I wanted us to work so bad
I saw so much in potential in you, in us and what we could be
but you broke my heart and the house I had in you
cause lately there's an emptiness in my chest and I'm homesick
but tell me how am I supposed to move on?
but how do you walk away from the one thing that held you together?
before you I was those dead brown leaves on the ground
being stepped on after I was already dead
You filled my hollow heart with happiness and laughter
your smile was enough to light cites on fire
and it's already burning me alive too
but part of growing up is learning how to save yourself and walking out that fire alive and conscious
my last words to you were I hope you're happy and you said "no I'm not"
well that makes two of us

love is irreversible. if ever real, you can’t just wake up one day and decide you don’t want to love anymore. it can fade yes, disappear, no

the heartbreak from a true love never really dies
that feeling follows you throughout your whole life
everything reminds you of them
you see a flower and it reminds you of the beauty of their soul
that gleam in their eyes is reminiscent of the moonlight
and you cant help but to wonder if that sparkle in his eyes left the day you did
thoughts of him wake you up and terrorizes you at 3 am
and you suddenly remember he has killed you
you're not really living
you could probably smoke with a ghost and still have more death in one puff than he did in his whole being
the heartbreak from a true love diminishes your soul
that feeling follows you throughout your whole life
and you can only hope that there is someone out there to wake up your soul and bring you back to existence

One lonely girl,
Isolated.
Many girls –
Students,
Few friends,
Where are they ?

Big room,
Cold air,
Shivering.
Dripping blood.
Shaking legs,
Restless.

Presenter..
Voice echoes,
Words fly,
None perch.
Maybe just a drops..
Like dew.

Little girl;
Sitting there,
Thoughts of you.
Take her hand .. ?

you said you had needed time and space
as if I hadn't given you enough of that already
I had sensed that my love was suffocating you
so I eased up to let you breathe
I didn't want your respiratory system to collapse
because of my emotions
but how do you explain leaving me because
of the very thing you wanted
you said you didn't want a girlfriend anymore
and that was like a stake to my heart
because I had been much more than that
I had become apart of you
I was the one who opened the gateway to your soul
I was the one who ended your drought
and I let my ship sail into your harbor with no regrets
but I guess some ships were meant to sink
see I gave up and tossed my heart into the sea a long time ago
but this morning a piece of it washed up ashore
that's how I know there is still hope
so maybe we weren't right for each other then
maybe we'll meet when we're better for each other again