What is going on with the world today?
We all love, we all hate,
we all can't get up the next day.

What's your deal? Where have you been?
Is that really where you should have been?are you wanting to exist?
Is everything a smoke and mirrors shade of life?


Kick my *** if you please. Just know it won't be at ease.




Isnt this great... We all love and hate..
And all speculate.
We just want to live and live great.


Oh wait..
We  all just hate

When did everything get so lame?
Fighting for a name ?


we are all human.
We all ****.
we all have victories.
We all have low points...
Why judge?
Why disgrace?


Nothing is set in stone.  
Why expect a throne.?
Dreams lost.

No more thoughts.

Goodnight . Sleep tight
Don't let those crazy thoughts bite.

Every night goes by and I wonder.
So scared by what I don't know.
Taking steps I never knew I would have to take.

My life is ******* by a thought I didn't make.
Time is lost in something I didn't take.


But it was taken from me and now I'm trying to move on
Live life in a different light.
Nothing has worked.


I'm still so stuck.
Yet have a life to bring up
I'm *******.
I need to grow up.

I need to move on.

I hope if my eyes ever lie on him I will know.

But for now it's all a big no.

Seize the day and move on.
That's my next big show.

Life goes one way .
Than another.
My life ***** but now I'm a mother.

It all is so lame. What's right what is wrong.
Can't get out.
Can't be who I should be....

Don't know what path to follow.
Taking one step at a time.

But time is against me.
It goes so fast .
Yet so slow.

I can't get on  my feet .
I can't get started .
The world is so against me.

But I'm not gonna stop.
My time is now.
Having nothing will give me a step.

And no one will expect anything.
One day my sush thoughts will become true

Til then I'm as useless as all of you.

it's funny how much the last few/6 years teach you what went wrong. How your reactions have made the last few years happen. And being in certain places and with certain people. It has made your life.

Life is a crazy thing.
I know I **** at it ,and have much room to grow. But life is a gift

With all this world has created, we only see bills and making happiness for every wrong reason.

We love life . We hate life. We wish we were anywhere but here.

Where does it end?  

We never have enough.

We get stuck.
We put ourselves down.
We get stuck.


No more growing.
We love attention
And addictions.
And everything that's the worst.

When will we grow up.
When will we go with a gut instinct of what's right and wrong.
When will we have guts???

Love the world.
Love you.
And grow.

Dreams bounce and come back .
Nothing has stopped except your lack.
Lack of faith. Lack of hope.
You get one Grace of love
Even got a jump.

You can do this.
You do have faith.
You do have what it takes.
To be a mother

No matter what they say
No matter the doubt you believe.
You have what it takes
To be a mother.

Falling asleep as i drown in sorrow.
Secretly wide awake trying to breathe a steady breath.
Confusion ensues as i start to dream.
As i am watching a play.
One with no plot, or real story.
Just random carousels spinning around and around.
Bouncing up and down as one follows another
It finally ends and suddenly its tomorrow.
Everyone scatters and i sit alone.
While this play starts over and over.
Time goes by.
An hour. A day. A month. a year.
Here we go again. Theatre fills up and im not the only one again.
They cheer as it ends and leave again.
I however just sit and stare.

Finally open my eyes 8 hrs later.
Even tho it felt like years.
I join the world as they did to me in my dream.
Working, eating,living.
I however
just sit and stare.