Is happiness a state of mind? It's hard to find
Open yourself to the trees of life
The earth is here at your sight
Welcome peace and be alive
You only need yourself this time
It's you, who you've been looking for
Please raise your voice while you sing that song
Forget about your blues
Today is what you have
Overthinking, my ***
Learn to enjoy what you have

I want to tell you, that you are valued and you are true,
You try your hardest to be this woman that has no clue
Please know you are loved
And understand that things will turn out in the end
No matter how many people turn you down
You still got yourself and that is all that counts
Always look up at the sky
Remember its okay to cry
Keep treating yourself like you are special
And help me welcome a new space in your heart
Where the only one who matters is you, my love

With upcoming Christmas and fall
comes these headaches
They wake me up, they tear me down
I never seem to get rid of them
They get stronger and stronger with time
There's no cure, just a painful sunrise
Not trying to be a victim here, but you feel so alone
No one understands, only a few will experience them
I long for the day where I don't get to feel like I do every day
At least I wish, I had someone by my side who would hold and tell me everything will be alright
Life is hard, it gets harder
My eyes hurt, I feel sick,
I feel vertigo and chills
And no one knows how to stop them
I just accept this hollow ride
My dear migraines
Don't leave me here to die

In this moment, I want to stay
Grasping every breathe
Developing a sense of self
That right now Its all I crave
Not needing to depend
On a person or a thing
You should take care and let me
Be the best that I can be
Please help me keep this memory forever
Tomorrow might be gone and in the past I dont belong
Should I stay or should I go?
In mind there is no stillness , just hope
That these forever thoughts would leave me alone

They seek me, they hungry for change
Bloodsucking pervs
In love with my veins
Destroying my life
They come with lies
And they will always want a yes
They wanna win or they rather die
They think I will not cry but If I do they don't mind
I don't know what it is about me
They hunt me until they succeed.

I keep waking up at 4m
I don't know how, I don't know when
My life got this way
I'm constipated again
Anxiety keeps kicking in
I'm holding back the tears
I'm tired , oh dear
I don't know what I did in the past life to deserve this
Sometimes I don't wanna live
4 am, can you please tell me what's going on?
Can you please show me the meaning of this world?
Why can I just accept this cortisol?
4 am, you're being poetic but I'm not in love
So why can you just wait until my alarm goes off?

I'm not a doctor, I'm not a wife
I'm not a mother, I never received those flowers at night
You said you love me but you lied
You don't know what love is
No, you're not afraid to lose me, no you did not cry
But when I told you I would tell her, you said you wanted to die
I don't have any money, we shared so many things
But in the end, it's not enough for you dear
I'm always fun, I'm always kind, I always help anyone I can
I know my value but for some reason, no one wants that
I was never chosen, no one ever picked me, I'm always a sidekick
I'm tired of heartbreaks, of picking the wrong guys
I'm finally saying goodbye to you all
All the people that hurt me and are still in my life
I know I'm strong, I know I'll get through this
I beg you universe, I've learned my lesson
I'm tired of crying of acting like a fool
Please bring me someone that's cool
I dont want nothing at all, I just want to not hurt so much