The mannish boy I am
the boy you see before you stand
unless you hear the cry
you could'nt understand
you cannot see
for you
do not believe
as I stand right here
right here before you
you refuse to see
depiction
restriction
inside our crucifiction
as our lord let us live
oh' he let us live
but not with him
only within'
if that is what you wish
but is that what you wish ?
his eyes is of sadness
for we, the people
are the murderes of sin
born to good and evil
saints of insanity
devils of reality
so why do we keep
on forgetting
for the rest of our lives

Our words are but codes
to emotions as we feel
can you decipher mine
can you feel what I feel
grasp what you may,
I cannot promise you tomorrow, only today..
and with that - we yearn for a way
an insight to our lives
gained through heartache and pain
so I ask again
do you feel what I feel
my lover, my mother, my lord and my friend
whichever you are
may you enrich
may you seed and sow
with the tears of the rain
from above and down below
for all is known in the shade of light
the shade of light will shine bright
on the promised night
but only for you
and those who hold the truth
insight

Everything is connetcted, love,
Don’t be a *****
Don't push yourself back to the start
Of our argument

No,
As the smoke settles
And the ark resides
On this vast island

I feel safe to tell you:
That our start has been
From then on until now
Also the end;

Everything is connected, love.

but i'm not 'okay' enough to ask

I'm black and proud,
My skin is rich and has veins of integrity!
My heart is soft,beautiful and not gritty.
My eyes are intent,yet filled with warmth.
My lips are full and give out smiles that melts the heart.
I might have had challenges,
Might have seen things worthy of pushing one to the edge,
But I won't lose my head over those things!
Standing tall and overcoming is the best option,
But indeed,life could be so cruel
The one you expect so much from could disappoint Ʊ in a flash.
What is this world that the material things have gained priority?
Mscheeeew,"vanity upon vanity,all is vanity".
And if Ʊ hate me because I'm rigid,then so be it!
My principles will not change,they'll remain the same.
That is what makes me.
Some things are logical,and it is only normal for one to do them!
I would not sell my birthright over a plate of porridge!
I will not let down my guard over things that are not worth it!
I am me! And I am black and beautiful!
And the blood of modesty flow through me!

With heavy sighs, I release my breath.
How many more do I have left?
Exhale my life, seize up my chest;
Anxiously withering the way I know best.
I might love life, but it doesn't love back.
Im jealous of others that have theirs on track.
Attacking my ego, self-worth and respect,
If I keep hitting rock bottom, I'll eventually crack.

You gave me your heart and I threw it away,
You said you’d do anything to make me stay.
Your feelings for me remained true,
While I loved another and didn’t care for you.

Your sweet kisses on my cheek,
Your soft lips now I seek.
The lips I took for granted,
Because by another I was enchanted.

But who knew that I would fall?
For the sweet memories I now recall.
And now you’re gone, I’m lost,
To bring you back I’d pay the cost.

Your love like flames, now extinguished,
Your unwavering love now finished.
You gave me your heart and I threw it away,
I give you mine now to make you stay.