I fear coming down from my high
because you broke my heart

I fear coming down from my high
because thoughts of you
and
the silence threaten to pull me apart

I fear coming down from my high
because the silence threatens to open up the floodgates to my broken heart

I fear coming down from my high
because all I remember is you

I fear coming down from my high
because all I remember is you

I fear coming down from my high
because all I remember are your lies

I fear coming down from my high
because you lie at the heart of my sober mind

I fear coming down from my high
so I stay high

tired of writing,
You're not mine, poetry
I shouldn't think about you, poetry
You're missing from me, poetry
I miss you, poetry
I shouldn't miss you, poetry
I should let you go, poetry
I've let you go, poetry
I could never let you go, poetry
Come back to me, poetry
Poetry, I am tired of you           
but I will always write you, poetry

I am hopeless when it comes to you
I am hopeless when it comes to you
I am hopeless when it comes to you
I am hopeless when it comes to you
I am hopeless when it comes to you
I am hopeless when it comes to you
I am hopeless when it comes to you
THIS IS POETRY
I have always been, hopeless without you.

I am attached to completely submitting to my desires
I want control.
maybe control  comes with less heartbreak, the will to live for something more than the way you smile when you speak to me, when you question it, my answer will always be " because you're beautiful " and you tell me to stop and I tell you that I'm not doing anything, so anything you're feeling is there because you feel more for me than what you'll ever let the world see.

would you self destruct, with me?
would you self destruct, for me?
would you. let me self destruct, for you?
would you. let me self destruct, with you?
would you ?
would you allow me the pleasure of unravelling
would you allow me the pleasure of seeing you unravel?
would you unravel with me?
Will you?

Imagine seeing me wake up from a comatose state
and seeing me see you,
there's nothing wrong with that.

There's a whole lot wrong with me seeing you when you're not there,

There's a whole lot wrong with my mind having the ability of creating the illusion on your much wanted presence

There's a whole lot wrong in seeing my mind break my heart in the name of You,

There's a whole lot wrong in seeing my mind break my heart over and over again.

tremors beneath my skin, make me feel alive.
the pain that comes from feeling my inner most parts cry out for help is the same as what I feel when I tell you I love you and you tell me I don't and still all of this is equivalent to the calmness your presence makes me feel.

Someday I will wither away.
I wish it tugs at your heartstrings
I mean no harm,
but if I was to ever say I feel secure,
that I believe you,
when you say you love me
I'd be lying.

i burn through bridges that won't allow me to jump

" I'd rather be with you but I can't  "

She said this to me,
this was when everything was okay between us,
I miss these moments,
I miss her and these moments,
I miss her in these moments.
I miss her and the monents she was true to herself.
I miss her and the moments where she told me what I needed to hear.
I miss her.
I miss her so much.
I miss her and the moments when she would picks fights with me because she knew I would fight for her.
I miss her and the moments where she would pick fights with me because in those moments she was standing up for herself.
I miss her.
I miss her.
I just wish she missed me.
I miss her.
I just wish she'd let this be.
I miss her so much.

My hands shake and the thought of you. I don't think about him with you or you with him.
I think about me without you.
I think about me without that warm feeling.
I think about me without that warm feeling I get when I feel like you are mine.
I think about me and how I'm losing my ****.
I think about the voices that wake me up at night asking about you.
I think about you
I always think about you.

When i think of you i think of the silenced voices in my head
When i think of you i think of the silenced tremors underneath my skin
When i think of you i think of steady hands my steady hands
When i think of you i am okay
But right now i can't
When i think of you the voices ask about you
When i think of you the tremors become a little too much
When i think of you my hands shake
When i think of you i really fuckung think of you
When i think of you i hurt myself
When I think of you i don't know how to be strong for me
When i think of you i lose all sense of me
When i think of you i think of you
When i think of you i think of you
When i think of you i only think of you
When i think of you i forget about me
When i think of you i forget that I am in control of me
When i think of you i forget everything
When i think of you i forget

where do i begin
where do you end
when will i feel okay
i'm reaching out to you
all i need you to do is tell me that i'll be okay

another one of these.
i think about you a lot
believe me when i say it hurts
-because
you are no longer her(e)

you
all i ever do is miss you
all i ever do is think of you
all i ever do is think of you
but all i can do about you
is stop myself