Hello there dear, it’s just me again,
I can’t stay too long, I’m in a lot of pain,
My stomach is sore and my mind is numb,
I sincerely apologise for what I have become,
Please don’t hate me, I can’t help being mad,
Please don’t hate me, I’m already so sad,
If I had the energy, to pretend that I’m fine,
I swear for you I would, even just one last time,
But I don’t have it in me, I’m so weak and afraid,
And that’s why once again I turned to the blade,
I put down the knife, the noose and the gun,
Then I picked up the pills, took them one after one,
I’ll keep myself from eating, from looking obese,
I don’t want to disappoint, don’t want my weight to increase,
I will continue this until I am thin,
Even if that means, getting rid of what’s within,
I need a hug from a friend who really cares,
I’m sorry what was that, oh right nobody’s there,
I will miss you greatly, I will miss you a lot,
With and without you I’m in such a knot,
But I’m sorry I can’t be here, I can’t do this anymore,
It just isn’t working out, it’s so much worse than before,
“You’re pathetic, ugly, worthless and fat!”
Yeah, I know I keep telling myself that,
I know what you’re thinking ‘cause I’m thinking the same,
“Couldn’t she just be normal and not at all insane?”
My chest is tight, my hearts beating fast,
When I saw myself in the mirror, I knew my life wouldn’t last,
I’ve spoke more than I wished too, but now it’s been said,
Darling, I do love you so much please don’t cry when I’m dead.

(R.S)