I wish you were a tear
next to me when I feel fear
next to me when I feel forlorn
next to me when I feel torn
next to me when I feel ecstatic
next to me when I feel manic
next to me when I feel gleeful
next to me when I feel dreadful
I hoped you'd be more near
I wish you were a tear

Give me your harvests, that sweet Mary Jane,

That devils' candy, the classy drug, the one that numbs,

Yourself and the pain,

Give me the rush, the pill, the psychedelics at best

Let addiction be my ultimate test

Your eyes have lost all colour
No spark, no wonder
Gone cold; left out in the rain
Please tell me what’s wrong
Let me help, I’ll be your emotional drain

What is in your brain?
Unwired computer, let me try again
To help you be you; keep you sane  
let’s fix this malfunction
Can I help you remember your name ?

Words on a page
What do I mean?
Encode the mind
Explore the unseen
Between the lines

Sometimes life can feel like you’re on fire hanging over a huge cliff , with only one hand , and it’s raining and cold; every second feels like a year, and another person is just standing at the top, looking down at you and not helping you up. You feel let down and angry, but you manage to pull yourself back up. You didn’t think you could master the strength on your own to do so , but you had to , because the ability to change is the ability to survive.

It drapes our shoulders, heavy on our backs,
So dark and ***** , seeping into the cracks,
Can’t see it , until it’s too late , would you go back ?, change something?, or is it an accepted fate?

Back behind you , crawling over your mind , like that fly you just can’t ****, or that answer you just can’t find. Can’t hear it aloud , but laps round in your head, like a carousel , a fair ground ride , every night when you go to bed.

That door you’d forgotten to close, something bad that you did, a decision you wrongfully chose. The thing you didn’t say, or that person you wish you’d never met, hello it’s me again, you guessed it ...my name is regret.