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Jordan Rowan Apr 2016
Take apart your words and put them back together
See how they string you along?
Think a little more before you sleep forever
Maybe you'll relate to a much better song

Have yourself a drink and think it over
Don't come out at night
Put your head in the mind of your lover
And would you want to see such a sight?

Come along, sweetheart, and hear my story
It isn't one of my own
But this has happened to many others before me
And look at how they've grown

Look inside the mirror and look closely
Tell me, who do you see?
Everything in life passes but only slowly
And soon you will be just like me
1.3k · May 2016
If You're Going Down
Jordan Rowan May 2016
Some lonely hour on a Sunday afternoon
When the sun is high and so are you
Write me a letter or call me on the phone
I don't want you to feel alone

How have you been since we last spoke?
Grab a seat next to me and a smoke
I just wanna do whatever you want to
We can conquer this life or sleep it through

It's always you and me
When we've got nowhere to meet
It's always me and you
When we've got no one to see and nothing to do

Some lonely hour on a Sunday afternoon
When the night is young and so are you
Try to ignore the noise around you
If you're going down, I'm going down too
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
If you knew ******* me
Would you hesitate at all?
Would put the writing on the wall?
I'm starting to think about,
What it would be like
But I think we'll do it some other night

If you broke into my house
Would you steal all my things?
My cast iron lung and my mother's rings
I start to wonder about,
Everything we could do
But in the end, that's all up to you

If you saw my collection
Of everything I've ever done
Would come closer or would you run?
If things fell to pieces
And collapsed onto the floor
Would you beg for mercy or for more?

If you knew how to shame me
Would you kindly tell me how?
I'd like to use it in a painting somehow
If you thought about my flaws
As just reasons to laugh
I'd like to know so I can join in on that
1.2k · Dec 2015
Another Day
Jordan Rowan Dec 2015
I was moving
Just like everyone around me
I was losing
It was you who really found me
I'm too late
You say you're not available
I will wait
Another day

I believe in
All these things you say are wrong now
I'm not grieving
All the best things take too long now
I'm alright
I'll be better when you're near me
If not tonight
Another day

I was fleeing
The scene of my last lover
I was bleeding
But it was cleaned by another
You're a hero
Sent by years of wishing
I would say no
But I can't say no
Another day
1.2k · Apr 2016
When Bad News Comes
Jordan Rowan Apr 2016
It's hard to breathe
When nothing's well
When time is gone, who will tell,
That all is well
In the end?
Know that I'll be back again

It's hard to stay
Awake some days
All will pass, like wind through grass
Like love and life
Like day and night
Know that I'll be by your side

It's hard to know
What will be
Close your eyes but don't turn away
It's hard, I know
When strength starts to go
Know that I'll be strong for you
1.2k · May 2016
Ali Girl
Jordan Rowan May 2016
Ali Girl, oh Ali Girl
It's been a long time since we've spoke
You must think I'm a joke
Trying to reconnect something I expect must've gone up in smoke
If I wear you down or make you frown
Please doesn't hesitate to push me around

Ali Girl, oh Ali Girl
I think that my youth is a mess
And when my heart reflects on this lack of respect I hope you tear it right out of my chest
I can't stop or start a dying heart
So please just leave me in the dark

Ali Girl, oh Ali Girl
I know that you'll be fine
And when the winter winds blow away these petty sins I hope you keep me in your mind
When life is free and loved to be
Please tell a story about me
1.2k · Jan 2016
Mona and The Hangman
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
As the sun lit up the streams and the sky
It broke up the dreams in Mona's eyes
And she woke to a day of lazing around
As a boy she never met came blazing through town

She got up and fixed herself a coffee and book
She glanced out the window and had to take a second look
A little boy came running with blood on his jeans
She realized that her father was nowhere to be seen

She opened the door and waiting for him to speak
His breath was harsh and his words were weak
"Your father lost and he's set to hang"
He said as the telephone rang

She wiped the dust off the saddle and a tear from her face
As she rode away towards the hangman's place
When she arrived and saw her father in chains
She felt the sting of a loved one in pain

The hangman pointed to her and asked her name
She replied "I'm his daughter, you should be ashamed"
"There is nothing now that you can do,
Unless you'd like me to hang you."

As her father shouted out and cried
She trembled and knew she couldn't watch him die
Before the hangman put her in binds
He said "There's one more thing I have in mind."

And as the night howled and grounds froze
What happened in that room, no one knows
But when sun rose in the morning
There was no family left to do the mourning
1.2k · Nov 2015
I Suppose
Jordan Rowan Nov 2015
I see sadness in your eyes
You've yet to tell me the reason why
And as you turn your head and cry
I hold out my hand to make it right

I've got a feeling in mind
I'm who you're trying to find
And to that which you are blind
Looks deep into your eyes

I see sadness in your eyes
Now it's got me hypnotized
I want to be there when you cry
I want to be there when you die

I'm no longer just a friend
And I'll come back to you again
Love never does make sense
Until the story's told in the end
1.2k · May 2016
Into My Mind (And You)
Jordan Rowan May 2016
It's a never-ending story that I get to tell
A redundant allegory that never gets to sell
A promise of forever that barely lasts a week
Promises are made but impossible to keep

Can you come back one last time,
Before you retreat into my mind

I listen to every word that you try to spin
Stop lying, little lover, I know this has to end
But give me a chance to leave a little mark
I'll set it on fire but I won't hit too hard

Find us a place and I'll be on my way
A place we'll remember to bring another some other day
I'd ask you to be quiet but I can't turn you off
You can touch the tower but make sure you do it soft
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I'm too drunk to write
But I'll write anyway
Lately, I've been drunk night and day
It helps my mind forget
That she walked away
1.2k · Jan 2016
Anna
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Oh, Anna
Don't let him steal your heart away
You've been doing fine celebrating Independence Day
Oh, Anna
You've got a lot of growing to do
Don't fall for someone who needs to do some growing too

Oh, Anna
If he ever gives your heart a shove
Come crying to me because friendship is just like love
Oh, Anna
Do you believe him when he talks to you?
When he says he loves you do you believe that it's true?

You'll never be the same when you give him everything
If he hesitates to answer don't wait forever after
Love should be an instinct, not a laughing matter

Oh, Anna
I know it isn't easy at all
But when the going gets rough, you know who to call
Oh, Anna
I know you're hurting so
But when the right man comes believe me, you will know
1.2k · Jan 2016
Your Knees
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Your body's in the cold
But your heart's in L.A.
You say you love me
That doesn't mean you'll stay
You hate the weather
And you hate me too
When we're together
There's only one thing to do

I think I like your distaste
With the things I say
When you roll your eyes
And walk away
I don't like myself
So why should you?
As long as you let me
Do what I have to do

You don't love much more
Than your pretty self
Except for when you're around
Anyone else
I can't stand you much
But that's okay
When you feel my touch
Get on your knees and pray
1.2k · Nov 2015
Death By the Love Not Given
Jordan Rowan Nov 2015
I'm a quiet little burden
On the stoop of your door
You can't let me go
But you don't want more
I've been your friend for years now
I've been there by your side
I ran across town
When I heard you cry
Love me, darling
Don't ask why

We've got a lot to ruin
We've got a lot to lose
We could dance together
Or get lost in the blues
There's enough for me
To forget all of that
If it ends tomorrow
Friendships come back
Love me, darling
Love me back

I'm a starry-eyed
Romantic inside
You know me well
And you can tell
By the words I write
And send to you
So, please, tonight
Say you love me too
Love me, darling
Say it's true
1.1k · Jan 2017
For a Change
Jordan Rowan Jan 2017
Let's put the Earth first for a change
Instead of these trivial sacred names
Things so easily rearranged
Like where they came from or who they blame
I don't think anyone is listening
If we continue to do the same
Worship something that never came
We'll end up drowning in acid rain
And wasting time by praying
It's just a voice inside your brain
They used to say that was insane
All we've got is now decaying
Let's put the Earth first for a change
1.1k · Jan 2016
I Am Your Home
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
There's something out there
And it will break your heart
There's something out there
Waiting to break your heart
And if it breaks your heart
It will break mine too

Don't believe in anything
Unless it believes in you
Somewhere in this scarred face
I see remnants of you
Nothing can be lost
When you know that it's true

I can still hear the voices
But they don't believe in me

Have you seen the weather?
Looks like it's gonna be fine
I wanna be together
But only if you have the time
Do you wanna go back home?
Well I am your home
1.1k · Jan 2016
Stop
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I'm tired of being dramatic
Words don't always flow
Poetry isn't right over what else is wrong
Cry some more
That will help
Whine a lot
Like we all do
**** trying to sound perfect
Life doesn't rhyme
Life has ups and downs
Life *****
And then it gets good
And then it ***** again
Deal with it
Stop crying
1.0k · Jan 2016
She's So Good to Me
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
She's never been known to talk too much
But she's not afraid to touch the ones she loves
She won't run away

She never has much to say
But when she does you don't look away
Or close your eyes
Yeah, she's a good girl
And she's been good to me

She says she's not afraid to die
But when she does, don't be afraid to cry
It's alright

She talks of life and what it means
Her voice is quiet and her words are clean
She's lost in a daydream
Yeah, she's a good girl
And she's been good to me

I wish I could always be
As good to her as she's been to me
Everyday

But I get lost and stuck sometimes
And she's the furthest thing from my mind
It's sad to say
But ****, she's a good girl
And she's been good to me
1.0k · May 2016
That's What Makes It Good
Jordan Rowan May 2016
The night is long when you're happy
It's even longer when you're sad
But I'll be here with a shoulder and an ear
And a voice to say it won't always be this bad
So listen to the cruel and the sappy
See the beauty in the good and the bad
If you always turn to those who have learned
They will be the ones to bring you back

Times get hard, don't they?
They always get good again someday  
But I'd go through all of it with you if I could
In the end, my friend, that's what makes it good

How's it feel to truly be living?
A fully fleshed out human-being
Fight, ****, go far, always be who you are
You are the greatest you I've ever seen
You don't always have to do the giving
But don't ever treat somebody mean
Always be kind, leave the unkind behind
Smile wide, dance, have ***** dreams

Times get hard, don't they?
They always get good again someday  
But I'd go through all of it with you if I could
In the end, my friend, that's what makes it good
968 · May 2016
I Will (Please)
Jordan Rowan May 2016
When the pitchfork cuts
I will be here with blood
When the sounds are loud
I will drown them out

Please don't leave

When the hands lose grip
I will kiss your lips
When the flame melts skin
I will hold you in

Please don't leave

When the knife rips veins
I will be their drain
When the words aren't real
I will make them heal

Please don't leave

When the use is up
I will be enough
When the end is here
I will disappear

Please don't leave
Don't leave
Jordan Rowan Dec 2015
One day, I'll tell you what goes on in my head
The things I think to myself
Are different from things that I've said
It doesn't matter to me if you run away
I'd be sad, sure, but I know that eventually I'd be okay

We're not perfect, in fact we're far away from that
I still remember that Christmas Day
I remember it and laugh
I think about you every time I blink my eyes
Even if you tell me how you feel, it would come as a surprise
935 · Jan 2016
It's All Cliché, I Know
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Yes, this silence is killing me
Do you really think I'm alright?
That I was willing and free
To miss you every night?
I still remember the sound of your voice
But it's just a memory
And it will fade
Like a singer's melody

I know that you don't love me
And I'm alright with that
I can't force things to be
And I've made my peace with that
But that doesn't change the cruel fact
That you're gone now
And I will heal
I've got to move on somehow

I know you've got your reasons
And I'm not here to those away
But it's hard when I can't see them
Or see you everyday
Down and out and lonely and blue
Stuck behind the train
There's only one thing to do
When they don't call your name

Make it out to the surface
From the undertow and the cold
And even though you're worth it
I can't wait until I get old
I can move on, I promise that I will
And you won't hear from me
But no matter what, I love you still
I just can't wait forever, you see
Jordan Rowan May 2016
I told my friends about you
They all say I'm better off without you
They don't know you but darling, do they know me
And where would I be without them?
I'm not sure what to do
But I know that I love them and you too

Just stick around here a bit
I know they'll stop giving you ****
When they see what you mean to me
And where would I be without them?
Give me some advice, my friend
Because I love you all until the end

Remember when we drove to town
We're all looking for something that can't be found
Just take my hand, make love to me, please be kind, give me all your time
I don't know what to do most of the time
But if we're together, I'll be fine
909 · Sep 2015
Mi Querida
Jordan Rowan Sep 2015
See that moon up in the sky
It shines desire into your eye
As the fire burns where you lie
Mi querida, let's go dancing tonight

Save the morning for siestas with me
Together is where we should be
Save the evening for beautiful dreams
Mi querida, my madrigal queen

Have a moment to quietly pray
Close your eyes and hear the band play
You light up the dark cabaret
Mi querida, together we sway

As the night comes to a close
And the city is still on our clothes
You smile at me and my heart grows
Mi querida, I hope that you know
894 · Jan 2016
Signs
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
You only see the signs when you're looking for them
864 · Apr 2016
Ali's Song
Jordan Rowan Apr 2016
A few emptied bottles
Aren't worth much,
When life without you
Could never be enough.

Maybe I could pretend
That you're here and you're well
And maybe I could pretend
That I don't feel like hell.

Maybe each year that passes
Will become easier to get through.
Or maybe time just drains me
And brings me closer to you.

I'll continue to reach for you.
Keep your picture in my drawer.
And soon the day will come,
I won't dig it out anymore.

Never forgotten
And never not missed.
I wish you were here,
But your memory will persist.
844 · Jan 2016
All I Have, I Guess
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
She's like devil himself
Except she's real
I ask her how she looks at me
What she thinks and how she feels
She just smiles
And says "That's not the deal"

She can't be trusted
But she's all I have
And like an old rusted car
She's the best but breaks my back
And when it's over
I'll realize that I love being trapped

I'm bound to fall
It's just who I am and what I do
And when I tell her so
She will laugh and sleep with you
And stumble home
Smelling of someone else's truth

I think I like it
When she tells me she's not in love
Because if I'm being honest
I have never really been enough
And I've made my peace with that
Just as long as she likes it rough
809 · Jan 2016
Enough
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
She was bled into riches
That can't be seen
And when she digs her ditches
She doesn't know she's mean

She's casually honest
And she's your friend
Like a singer's sonnet
She flows like wind

She can't break the spirit
Of an honest man
But she can steer it
The best she can

She knows nothing's better
Than the truth of love
And when she reads the letter
I hope that's  enough
790 · Mar 2016
For My Mother
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
I wrote you a song
It's sweet and it won't take long
I hope it makes you smile
I'm glad you let me stay awhile

You're my mother and friend
I'll always want to see you again
You didn't just give me life
You gave me a reason to fight

You and I will always be
Together at heart, you'll see
When I'm away from home
You'll never truly be alone

So I wrote you a song
It's sweet and it won't take long
Just to put a smile on your face
One I'll never replace
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Well I'm basically ******
I've lived before this and I'll live long after it
But I'm not sure how great that will be
I did what I had to do
I was honest
I may have been cowardly
But the truth came out in the end
Now, as I sit in the basement
In the dark
Without hope
Without clothes
I wonder if I should've done what I did?
Who did I help?
More importantly, who did I hurt?
Besides myself, of course
There is only one thing worse than being alone instead of with the wrong person
And that is losing the right person
736 · Jan 2016
Best of the Worst
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
She's beautiful
She treats me bad
She's still the best I've ever had
701 · Jan 2016
Preparation
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Life is one long preparation for death
Jordan Rowan Dec 2015
Love me, girl, all the time
Send me roses when I die
It's no reason to break your heart
But I'm gonna leave you when mine won't start

There's a fire in the sky
That helps me see your eyes
But I won't walk away
If you find the right thing to say

I'm not a man of wealth and taste
But what I have doesn't go to waste
When I get my hands on what I want
I protect everything I've got
637 · Dec 2015
Are You Okay?
Jordan Rowan Dec 2015
I haven't changed much
Just gotten old
I don't believe I've been alive just yet
As far as I've been told
You've got to shop around
You've to find out what you want
But there's a difference
Between what it is I want
And what it is I need

Give me my disposition at the door
So I know how to act
So I know what to think
How to talk
And what to say
If I can tell you what's on my mind
Will you help me through it or push me away?
I'm alright, I promise
Just look away
566 · Dec 2015
Please
Jordan Rowan Dec 2015
How do you tell someone you're in love them,
when you know they're not in love with you?
306 · Feb 2016
Down
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
Down on the bottom
Everyone's favorite place to be
Come join me
300 · Jan 2016
Make
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Make love
Make art
They're one in the same if they come from the heart
237 · Aug 2015
Is This It?
Jordan Rowan Aug 2015
We love each other
That's all we have in common
227 · Nov 2015
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Jordan Rowan Nov 2015
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Pity hurts worse than death

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