It haunt's me every night 
That Immature primal urge
Ruined my night and for some time, My sight
Unbeknown to all
This broke down my sanity wall. 
 
Now different as a whole , a poorly lit soul
innocence will quickly drain
Prior excitement seems mundane
You stole the light from my world
I am a monster, I am him
And now, You'll fear the grim

A boat breaks down with every crash of the ocean's waves
The salt is a catalyst carving in the wood, Small and detailed caves
Sail is ripped and battered the treasures of the boat in the water they are scattered
The boat sinks deeper in the open water, Overtaking the hull and the captain's quarters
For you were on this ship
And describing the boat instead of describing you
Makes this tragedy flee my mind and causes my sanity to slip.

Here I sit my mind bursting at the seams 
Unable to efficiently rid the pain and clutter
Speaking my mind only results in a inaudible sputter 
It all borders on overwhelming
Until the mundane world explodes
The broken up thoughts, break free from my head in a beautiful flutter.
Only to reassemble, Shortly thereafter.

Caught forever in this relentless reality
My dreams are small but forever expanding 
Together they quarrel in the small available space of my cluttered conscious 
The heart overwhelms the steadily weakened mind
Making the choice based on desire and an impossible design 
The minimal thought involved results in a decision of the purest kind.

I will continue to write
Until the day that I fall
Fall into the ground
Or let my thoughts overrun me.
The day will eventually come
When I can't get them out quick enough
My mind runs out of space
As it overloads and explodes
and rips apart my sanity
The pieces fall down
Leaving my memories on the ground.

You're beautiful and overpowering
I love the effect you have on me
Uplifting and reassuring
I need you when I'm down
and I love you when I'm high
'Oh sugar how'd you get so fly?'
A gorgeous creation
That's to unique to come from man
A place from up above
Is where you began.
I want you all the time
You soothe my nerves like a nursery rhyme
The first time heard you, My life did start
And tonight, I fall asleep with you in my heart.

My mind has been close to death for three months
Gasping, In a mass grave of unused ideas
Surviving only on the hope
Of an intelligent conversation
But the rarity of such a thing
Made my faith weaken
In both humanity and my own mind
Until the opportunity arose,
A helping hand in the form of travel
As the days passed
My mind
Was slowly lifted out of the rejected ideas
And pushed forth into creativity
By new life experience