When I think of you I think of your eyes
and how blue they are-
the kind of blue the could drown a thousand men.
And I know that each one of those men
would count it a privilege
to die in such pretty blue eyes.
Your eyes remind me of drowning
and I guess I also think of dying
when I think of you
and how to die without you by my side
would be such a terrible way to die.
And if you were to be the first to die
I think I would drown myself anyways
because without your blue eyes to gaze into
I would find my eyes constantly longing to look at the sea.
The sea reminds me of you more than anything else
that is why if a day comes that I can't be by your side
I would rather be in the depths of the sea
because without you- I am not me.

Today I almost lost you,
for real and forever.
Your sister called and said someone had put a gun at your head, that someone wanted to take you,
that someone had tried to hurt you.
I felt numb and instantly shred a tear.
Thank God you are fine.
Thank God they realized it wasn't you who they wanted.
Thank God you are alive.
In that moment I didn't care if you were mine or not, I just wanted you safe.
I'm so relieved you and I are still breathing the same air.
"Tell him I love him"
That's the first time you are going to hear those words from me and your sister is going to say them.
***** that "I quit to you" thing.
I can't quit loving you.
I don't care anymore if we end up together or not.
I just want to love you more.
I want to know wherever you are, you are ok.

Until December
Will you remember
Will you remember me
Now September
Still a spark left in me
Stoke that spark
Spark as stark
As cold December
Keep me in your memory
Come new year
Don't know where...
Don't really care
Where I will be
Chasing embers
Once remembered
I'll remember
The spark
That stokes my ember
Come December

r  17Sept13

I was going to write a poem about you,
but I can't.
There's too much to say,
and besides,
I can't think of anything that compares to you.