walls
these walls are everywhere no matter what i do theyll will always be there
i try but i cant get through these walls
what are these walls
are these beings from another world that have resistance against them no they are far more worse
these walls are
BUILT
they are built by no one else but
ME
how now could i be so blind and havae these things created
am i the responsible for these walls that are so hard to destroy and get through that
not  only me but no one could get in and help me or i could help them why are these walls so thick
why did i created this and
HOW
how did i make these walls get like this i see no point no more all i see is
WALLS when will these walls be crumble
CRUMBLE down to MY FEET
i dont think so i dont think i will see the day when that day will come  
HOWEVER
i shall
NOT GIVE UP!!!
i shall not let down no matter what i shall
PERSERVER
and one day i shall see these walls go down inthis life or the next no matter what i shall come through
and succeed to what i want
even through these walls are in my way they are only obstacles
obstacles tha i can over come........

This box
This box where I sit is like a prison
This box where I am at is a prison
Even thought I could leave when ever I want
Come and go as freely as I want
My freedom is never free
The person I am and the accomplishments I do has no significant value here
In this box ..
This box
This box isn't my home but my prison
This box is my prison not in a physical way but mental
This box will confide me til there no more and I become a living a zombie
This box keeps ..
Will confide everyone
This box...

Click
Bang
Boom
That's how it goes  
Click bang boom
Dozens on the floor
Click bamg bomb
but only few dare to stand
Click bang boom
Well the rest just lay there

Is it bad that I want more
Is it bad that I don't care how I do it
Is it bad that I would do anything to get it
Well is it...
Is it bad that I don't care who I hurt
It could be my ...
Mother
Father
Sister
Brother
Aunt
Uncle
Grandma
Grandpa
And the list goes on
But when I know I'm hurting you
I know that when its bad
That when I know I should change and have not be the type to say I don't care
Is it bad that I care for you ...

I regret of what i shouldve done
regretting of my actions that i couldve done and put to an end
but know i didnt
most of all i regret the actions that you had to take
asking me in a
stare eye gaze
if this
if this is the right choice
i regret saying nothing when i know that you needed it most
only taking into account of my own feelings and not yours
regretting everything and anything
most of all i regret i dont have  the courage
to express myself to you
i regret that all i could do is write how i feel
forever
forever holding it  inside screaming and beggin to come out but yet here i am holding it in
SCREAMING
SCREAMINN TO MYSELF TO LET IT OUT
but yet here i am
all over again
regretting

all u had to do was say something all i had to do wastell you something but in the end we both knew where this was leading the lonely path of someone aint easy to do or take. when i see a post or hear some one say "forever alone" all i think is no no your not forever alone you have falmily friends and someone to go to and talk to but for those that dont have the luxury or have that feeling to go to someone is like the pericing your heart and making a hole in it so that it could get bigger and bigger and bigger and when it get to big you keep all inside and than one thing would happen you go with people that you may considers that are friends or amily that you could trust but in the end you cant and you do something that was so reckless and was like wow why did i do that i wasnt thinkning and for doing that it makes that hole get bigger and bigger  and suddenly its so big that you cant even control it and that it you just think that s it all over and you just give up and you may have alot of people to talk to and people to sit by with but in the end theyyre is no one but your self like you in a room or better yet at a party and you come with people but when you enter you dont even know anyone and the people that you came with that you thought you knew was totaaly false and you never knew them what so ever and now your just there staring blanky at them andthey staring back at you and all you do is say nothing and they tell you nothing so what the point of all this time staring you over there and me over here and not making an effort to do so what it all about really ...

We all go through something:
hardships ,
Pain,
Love struck ,
And love lost
We all go through something ...

We all go through something That will challenge us ,
Makes us,
Break us,
Show us,
Teach us,
We all go through something

But...

How we all go through it will
Change us
For the worst or the best ,
Make us stronger or weaker,
Knowledgeable  or unknowledgeable  

But..
How we chose to go is what defines our character and who we are

walk
walk
and
walk
that's all we do we are shielded and blinded
we are blinded and shielded there all the same no matter how it is said
or how it is done
walk walk and walk
that all we do

Smoke
Drink
Smoke
Drink
trying to fullfill this hole deep in my soul
this whole where things were sane
And where the the world was going right
But ..
thats the same old story that's already been told countless times
So I just..
Smoke
Drink
Smoke
Trying to fill this hole deep in my soul
Where things where sane and just right
Coughing
And hollering
Where people just stop and look
Thinking of the obscurities, while I just smoke.
Drink  ..
Smoke ...
But in the
That becomes the same old story

Here the whistling in the night
Here that howl from far away
The cry at dead night when no one is around
That shadow of a figure from far away
The rustling in the leaves
Those eyes that you seem to notice
You may think it's your mind playing tricks on you
But it ain't..
The thing from far away that whistle at night
That howls for the thirst of blood
And crys,
Crys dead at night for your soul to take
It is I the CREATURE AT NIGHT
It is I staring at you with my yellow eyes
That figure you seem to notice late at night
it is I who lets you notice me late at night to let you know I'm slowly approaching to take your soul away
It is I who will devour you
it is I the CREATURE AT NIGHT  
that makes you scared at
Night ..
So beware of that figure in the shadows
Those yellow eyes that seem to stare at you late night
That howl from afar and that cry for blood
Because it is I
The CREATURE OF NIGHT
Waiting to take your soul
Away ..
You may beg you may cry but they're no escaping your fate
Your fate that belongs to I..
The CREATURE OF NIGHT
For once I have you in my sight
I shalt not let you go
For once I have you in my sight you shall belong to me
The CREATURE AT NIGHT

Hello darkness my old friend
Waiting for ever so patiently
I have yet wonder away from thy
Again
But you wait for me to return
Waiting ever so patiently
Hello darkness my old friend

You use to be
You use to be my hero  
You use to be the one I could look up too
You use to be the person I wanted to be
But now you ain't
You use to ignore me
You use to put others before me
You use to do a lot of things that was without me
No matter how you use to be I still loved you  
til now ..;
Now you use to be my blood
You use to be the one I can count on
You use to be ...
But now you ain't and your gone ...
I hope ur new side is use to be with out us

It's late
It's dark
It's empty
Theyre in the abyss
Nothing around to comfort
Nothing to hold
All alone in the dark
Where they're is emptiness all around
Trapped in my own mind where
It's dark
It's empty
Forever alone
Never to touch
To hold
To find comfort
All alone in the abyss
Trapped in my own late thoughts

Born Into a life where nothing gets done
Born into a civilization where no one is benefiting
Born into society where things are to be blame on you
Were born for the pettiness of others mistakes
We bore those in to put blame for our mistakes
We bore others so they could fix our mistakes
We are either born or bore into something that isn't our own mistakes
As well
We are born or bore into our own mistakes
None the less nothing gets done

we are born
we are young
we are life
and we are foolish
as we grow we never learn
we open our hearts
have our hearts broken
we gain and we lose
we lose and gain
but in the end
they're nothing left...
but..
life..
and what it has taught you ..

you remind me
you remind me of me
of what i use to be
how i use to be
so full of wonder
optimistic of life
pondering my schemes for success
and hope
hope for a future with out regrets
oh how you remind me of what i use to be