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John May 2012
With all your subtlety
And beat around the bush talk
You killed me and brought me back to life
And because of that I walk the walk
The immense relief deactivates me
And leaves me lying clean on the floor

You shook me up
And put me down
It took a while
But now I've found
The way I must keep living

The spikes that flew off your tongue
Pierced my skin
Outside my head, my eyeballs hung
Had to hold my jaw in place
To keep from shattering on the floor
Now I hold my head high
And politely ask for more

More, more, more
Give me something to cry about
Again and again and again
Let me feel the disappointment

I have no more to say
But thank you so much
I appreciate the thought
To know I've hurt you in such
A way that I can never apologize
Only live by new terms

And hope to make my way
To the top rung
Smile and wave
Make you proud and save
The only face
That remains
The only face
That remains
444 · Apr 2016
fake it til you make it
John Apr 2016
I smile, I grin a worthless grin
Over a burning bridge
Ain't nothin' much I can do
I lose, I lose but then I win
All the pain, was it worth it?
I just don't know
I don't know
444 · Mar 2014
Unworthy
John Mar 2014
Oh sweet girl don't you see
That Heaven awaits you upon leave
You've got nothing to worry
Nothing to be a little bit sorry
About but you still talk to me
Like what we have is something

You're the weight behind the breeze
And when it shines, you are the sun beams
You're smile can change the mood
Of a room full of crude fools
And I am just one

When my eyes first rested
On you I was sure  I was being tested
By the forces that surround me
By all the powers that will eventually be
But then you opened your mouth
And you told me all about how
You've been (and asked me the same)
I like this girl+Been listening to too much Interpol=this
441 · May 2013
Here I Go, Again
John May 2013
Here I go again
Oh here I, here I come again
I've got no right to say the words I want to
But they're the words I need to
So here I go again
Again and again

You once meant the Earth and the Stars
To me, in my head
You were the beautiful white light
At the end if the tunnel
You were my strength and might
Until you pummeled
My beating red heart to bits
Now it's scattered all over the floor
Like so many pieces of a tainted puzzle
And I'm left here wanting more
But you have disarmed me, fastened a muzzle
And I can speak nothing but nonsense
Nonsensical musings upon a schizophrenic backdrop

I feel like world has turned on her head
And my stomach feels sick
Like some hellish, black pit
And now I feel like a ****
I don't know why but it's the way it is
The way it has to be?
Well, I'll never know
For sure, it's the way I see
Things when they're altered inside my own mind
Someone needs to tell me to just calm down
But when I have enough time to think things through
I just want, I mean need, my wishes to come true
Oh, please just let my imagination break through
440 · Dec 2012
Dance of the Knife
John Dec 2012
Split in
Two
Flipping, flopping
Up, down
Writhing, squirming
The tongue
Grinning in
Agony, ecstacy
It
Does it's work

A grisly stab
In the back
A twist and ******
Of the blade
Like some
Ancient, sacred
Dance
440 · Dec 2013
rain touch the ground
John Dec 2013
wading through the water
think you'll never faulter
because it all comes together
through the stormy weather
when the waves crash, crash
it seems like it won't ever last
but it all adds up
yeah it all adds up

oh the math never burns out
you will never have to shout
i always understand what
it takes to have some fun
so let your hair come down
so let the rain touch the ground
440 · May 2016
Soul is Secondary
John May 2016
I only want your body
Your soul is secondary
It wasn't always that way
But love is scary

So text me your address
I'll be there when I can
Just wear that white dress
The color of beaming, pure light

Unlike our attraction
Forged in vanity and some pain
Something's gaining traction
Things will never be the same

I said what I said
And I smiled while I did
This skin you caused to shed
It's my birthday, and I'm a kid

Don't send me plummeting
Like so many before you
Right now the band is trumpeting
Hesitations that were many are now few

Can't help but feel I'm setting myself up
Aligning the bomb with my body
I always said that even if I tried, I couldn't give a ****
But now you've got something on me
John May 2012
My cycle of thought goes round and round
Prodding at my blacks and blues
Thrown in the ring going pound for pound
Forced to do what I should be used to

But maybe I'm not meant for this time
Maybe I belong to a more tranquil scene
Desperate for a place to hide
People rush by one, two three
Brain waves crash and burn and
No one seems able to discern
All these things
That bother me

And oh my God
When they come to settle
There's never any room to breathe
In the darkness they breed and meddle
I'm prone to crumble and fall
The rope always snaps
Leaving me in this empty hall
With no one but myself

But the beauty in the downward road
The loneliness and the ensuing confusion
Usually feel like a heavy load
But in the end
Things always put themselves back together
Like an automated puzzle
With the fickle will of a feather
So I sail the open sea
Nothing really bother me
439 · Sep 2012
The Universal Feeling
John Sep 2012
I looked down at my boots as I kicked my feet gently through the zero gravity atmosphere.
I smiled but you wouldn't know it for the thick helmet encasing my skull with the shiny, dense glass fixated over my face could cover up a ******.
I gazed back at the ship hovering weightlessly in a sea of blackness.
I felt no pain.
I felt no loneliness.
And I felt no fright.

My eyes drifted down again at the cord coming from the rear of the ship and attached to my oxygen supply pack and I thought of you.
I knew you were with me.
And you would never leave.
You are my oxygen.
My time.
My space.
My life.
And my love.
439 · Jun 2016
i was wrong
John Jun 2016
i can really see the altar now
draped in black, got me wondering how
i could trip for so long and still stay on my feet
forever ago i could've sworn i was beat
the clouds of ash blocked out the sun and filled up my ears
couldn't see a ******* thing because of all the ******* tears

i made the assumption and i was wrong
thought i was weaker than you all along
but now i'm growing and rising up
kiss me slowly as i sit here and pour up
438 · Apr 2016
cosmic orgasm
John Apr 2016
with all the stars in the sky
burning bright light, never ask "why?"
they exist just as you do and made of everything you are
but you wish, you wish that you could be that bright burning star
hanging, glinting effortlessly in black space without a care
with all the time in the world yet not a moment to spare

you sit in the grass while the sun hides for the night
and the moon, she asks that you take in her sight
the raging fire of the sun and the gentle cool of the moon take turns
and only if you ask of them you will know you have much to learn
so keep sitting in the grass while you level yourself with the frequency
and in the end and with their care you will no longer live in urgency
438 · Sep 2012
The Air Around My Head
John Sep 2012
When you enter the room
All my gloom returns to it's tomb
Only to show it's face
Once yours leaves it's place
In my point of view
Out of my peripheral
Visions of dark night skies
With glowing stars shining bright
It sounds kind of cliche
But I can't help but say

That the air around my head
Grows heavy
And I don't know what to do with you, when the air around my head
Makes me dizzy
Because of the way you do

Sitting lazily on your old couch
Back bent slightly, giving in to slouch
I turn my gaze
Toward the side of your face
Everything about you and your profile
Spins me 'round like a platinum turnstile
You take me for a ride
And I just can't hide
Deep set feelings are hard to come by
And when I start thinking it's just like

That the air around my head
Grows heavy
And I don't know what to do with you, when the air around my head
Makes me dizzy
Because of the way you do
437 · Apr 2016
ULB-5256's Prime Directive
John Apr 2016
The war took many things
Many things from many people
Possessions, money, life and love
In descending order.

I was unaffected
For I had nothing to begin with.
No family, no friends, no money, nothing.
And I wouldn't have minded if I was a casualty.

I suppose my nothingness
Could have been taken from me.
If I had lost my life, I might have had something.
But even today, no one knows what happens after your body gives out.

My squadron would be sent on menial missions.
To destroy the last remaining churches, temples, synagogues, mosques.
Only to ***** out the centers for those who still clung to hope.
They were "menial" because there weren't many of those people left.

With the Earth scorched and hope all but a wistful memory
I wondered why, for the first time, I hadn't taken my own life.
It seems unbelievable to live hopeless for so long and never consider it.
But now I fantasized about setting myself on fire, instead of that church.

Days came and days went and nights were spent dreaming of flames.
My throat would hurt from screaming so loud and I liked that.
I would wake up in a blissful daze, the dream replaying in my head.
Then I'd fall asleep again and wake up dreading the tasks before me.

One day, not long after my flame fantasies had begun
The Captain sent our Android unit ahead of us as usual.
Their main use was to scout the area and **** whoever was in our way.
But that day, that day was one I'd never forget.

The Androids hustled ahead and explosions were heard soon after.
The Captain radioed to them but received no answer.
Worry grew wildly on his face as he looked to us.
"ULB-5256... See what the trouble is. This is your prime directive."

I had a feeling I would the one chosen.
The Captain knew I no longer valued my life.
I had never spoken out loud about it.
But the Captain had a way of just knowing things.

I jumped up, eager and excited as ever.
If I ran ahead and got blown to bits, that would be okay.
If I ran ahead and shot everyone else to bits, that would be fine too.
But I had to see what went down because this was my Prime Directive.
437 · Jun 2013
Gold
John Jun 2013
When I step foot on the concrete
It seems to dissipate
Sliding back and forth
Everything is on vibrate
The world collapses in
And expands out
There is no peace, no sin
Every whisper is a shout
Echoing

Look up at the sky
And I don't see
I only feel
What is and what can be
Trees reach for me
And I touch them
With fingertips of gold
It's all made of solid gold

And then switch
There is no money
No future of life
Just like pouring honey
It all seems too sweet
Thank you, I think
To myself, no one knows
How grateful or enlightened
I am when reaching for those
Gold trees
With
Gold
Finger
Tips
436 · Jan 2013
What You Mean
John Jan 2013
It's what you say
It don't make sense
It's what you mean
Keep it present tense
It's what you don't know
It's what you believe

Looking up at you through
Cloudy eyes on a hazy day
It's forming something
That can be in the greatest way
Because when I touch you
I know you get goosebumps
Put your hands on me now
Let me know if you think you're stumped
I'm here to help
To be felt
Inside and out

You call me on the phone
I can hear the hesitation in your sound
I can pick up on it from a mile away
Baby, you're not the only one who's bound
To do something completely new
But if I've learned anything
It's that I'd rather have you
On a new plane
Heading to that plateau
I know it feels insane
But trust me to be the only one you know
For sure
435 · Sep 2012
Motivation for My Pen
John Sep 2012
I get so confused
Sometimes

When I put my pen to the paper in front of me
It moves
And it doesn't stop
It doesn't stop for a long time
A very
Very
Long...
Time

Other times
I put my pen to the paper in front of me
And
It just
Doesn't have
Any idea
Whatsoever
It's expected to do

I don't know
I really don't
I think my goal
Well, a goal
Atleast
Is to figure out
How in the Hell
To get my pen
To perk it up
To set it on it's little course
Across this
Clean
White
Sheet
Of
Paper
435 · Dec 2013
Kicked Into A Dream
John Dec 2013
Last night I dreamed a dream
A dream where everything
Wasn't at all what it seemed
Peering through a ripped screen
I liked hearing you scream
Only you know what I mean

Out of everything in the world
Tonight I wouldn't trade it
For anything else
Because I think I made it
To the top of my mountain
Through the brush and thick trees
I hope I can drink from the fountain
You see, a guy like me works up a thirst
That can never be fully extinguished
Riding high and dry inside my hearse

What you never see
You can never truly be
And what you are
Can never take you very far
So you have to go out
Climb up on the building and shout
For the love of your mother
And for your father and your brother
In the name of all that is holy
You will always be the one true and only
434 · Dec 2010
Lost And Damned
John Dec 2010
Crawling on hands and knees
Reaching for what no one understands
The smoke fills my lungs
As the life in me clings to land
I hate this circle of emotion
It lives inside of me
Now I'm fixing myself a potion
To get rid of everything that just won't stop

My beating heart
My dead brain
I rip apart
And go insane
The haunting shark
In the black sea
Glides silent
And sneaks up on me

What you might not know
Death is my friend
Met him one day
That just wouldn't end
Took a razor blade
As the sun rose
Was too late
Ended up with something I never chose
Just tried to meet you
Awoke on a black porch
And now
I'm just trying to see you
Even though I'm way past feeling you

The cigarette smoke fills the air
And the coffee greets my throat
The despair
Never ceases
It's not fair
I never asked for a reason
But now
I'm left here wondering
As I stare
Into the abyss just pondering
The fate that awaits me
It never comes soon enough
**** me or let me be
God ******
I just want to be free
But you just can't grant me
What I need
434 · Nov 2016
affectation
John Nov 2016
i was comin' 'round the bend
and i tripped and fell
on my face and then
i raised nothin' but hell.

i've got this affectation
that never goes away.
i need a ******' vacation
all i want is some play.
433 · Feb 2012
Heartbomb
John Feb 2012
Strap your heart to your sleeve
Like a ticking bomb
You've been pressed to leave
But instead you stay
Gather your gear, it's time to bereave

Leave your things on the floor
Just get up and go
Hesitation's for the weak
Arrive at the horror show
When you realize nothing's for keeps
You legs have a mind of their own
Wolves cry like sheep
And on your sleeve your hearts still sewn

Can't comprehend the process of thought
Things flutter in and out but nothing's right
**** is thrown away before it's ever bought
You're ears aren't as prone as your sense of sight
So just take a second to think it through
Even if, in the end, it's not worth it
Everyone's taller but you never grew
So you accept your fate as it is
You never try to fight

You won't ever win with your mentality
You're so fickle with all your anxieties
You'll never learn, no nothing is registered
Because you're so numb and you float like a feather
I was there, yes I was waiting
To catch you when you left, you were falling
But no one accepts the help
Of the poor boy with no sense of self
431 · Jul 2013
Never Quite Made It
John Jul 2013
Would you call me cliche?
If I drank Tanqueray
And then asked you to stay
For only another moment
Because I didn't want to ruin it
Because I only wanted another's second's
Grace with you, with me, in your presence?

Would it be a shame
If one day
We looked back
And realized we never quite made it
Made us out to be what we could have?
What we should have been?
430 · Jan 2014
someone's son
John Jan 2014
Never believed
But now
I'm on my knees
And how
Did I get here
Without
Even noticing
Where am I going now?
I have no idea

Honestly
I'm ready
To drop out
And clearly shout
I'm through
I'm done
It's true
But I'm someone's son
429 · Nov 2017
Lost in the Mist
John Nov 2017
Floating in a free-flowing mist
Thought I did, but I didn't get the gist
It seems things, through thick and thin
Remain the same through virtue and sin
Nothing changes in some high, hidden place
Once you get there, you leave no noticeable trace
For the people still stumbling through their own pain
Have to find their own way before they finally gain
What everyone is seeking, has sought and will seek
The best thing you can do is give them a peek
Spring them a leak, tell them you've saved them a seat
For when they're ready to be done being stuck on repeat
429 · Apr 2014
Deaf Eyes
John Apr 2014
My eyes have been deafened
At the sight of ****** ears
Floating hopelessly and tender
Through the sheared, speared, years
So spare me now for my contempt
And inability to connect
My heads gone and gone unkempt
Now I can't even tell you my best bet
428 · Jan 2017
to ease my mind
John Jan 2017
one night to prove to you
not everything is blue
one day to pave the way
i need a reason to stay

calling on higher powers
to ease my mind
can't wait for the time it takes
to walk this thin line

so many colors around
all the greens and grays
our ears pick up the sound
we lean, we lay

we won't be here forever
this i know
in front of us, our lives are tethered
this i know
428 · Sep 2014
You're Dying Here
John Sep 2014
Picture this:

You're at work
in your little
cubicle.
Doing nothing
too important.
Emailing this,
filling out that.
Talking to Bill,
George, Hank and Ken.
Laughing merrily
about some *****
that Hank ******
on Saturday.
When suddenly
BANG!

It hits you.

That feeling
deep in the pit
of your gut.
No, you're not
hungry.
Well not for food, anyway.
The feeling that slaps
you across
the face,
is the feeling
of emptiness.

It comes out of
nowhere
and stings like ****.
"What am I
doing?"
You ask yourself.
"Where am I
going,
what am I DOING?!"

Ok, maybe not that dramatic.
But it still hurts.
And it still stings.
And you don't know
what to do.
So you excuse yourself.
Head to bathroom
and look in the mirror.
You're sweating.
Your heart beats
at the rate it would
if you were doing
some heavy work.
Lifting a big pile
of clothes
and running down
a
long
flight
of
stairs.
And you don't know why.

But then you
do know why.
It's because you're
wasting your
******* time.
"You're dying, man."
Your brain tells you.
"You're
*******
dying
here."
426 · Apr 2016
drm grl
John Apr 2016
i saw her standing there, laughing and smiling
i looked down and filled my lungs with clean air
it was funny how in her smile i could see her crying
i looked up again and tried my best not to stare
she looked my way and ran her fingers through her hair

her pretty clothes looked a little old but i could see
that she didn't care because if she did she would cease to be
as i came closer then i could feel a sense of urgency
from within me i tried to quench the flames of unbridled glee
she smiled wider then, white teeth glimmered back at me
"what's your name?" i said, standing like a willow tree

as i heard her words for the first time, already hoping it wasn't the last
the vibrations from her throat caressed my eardrums violently
a little shaken and surprised i could feel the mistakes of my past
as they rose up and greeted me rather harmoniously
i realized i knew that they now meant nothing to me
426 · Mar 2014
The Gun
John Mar 2014
You've got to just run
Just ******* have some fun
Run until you beat out the gun
And go until you blank out the Sun
424 · Jul 2012
Content
John Jul 2012
To leave you in the dust
And to love every moment
Is the remedy to this feeling
The way to lighten the atmosphere
The fuel in the space craft
And the juice in a glass of content
424 · Sep 2017
Noise
John Sep 2017
Dreamless sleeps and dreamin' all day
Wondering where this stops
Leanin' on you, screamin' from the bottom of me
Thinkin' that's all I got

Knocked down again, but I was made for this
The lifting up gets easier with practice
Feels like I'm floating at this point
Noise drowned out with noise
422 · Jan 2013
She, the Moon
John Jan 2013
The moon hung
Snug in the sky
All knowing and saying
Always knows just what's on my mind
I swear she's telepathic
Because at any given time
She knows just what word will rhyme

You don't know it
When she wants to have a talk
But just take a short step outside
And take the moon for a walk
She never disappoints

She likes to tell me she loves me
We've known each other for a long time now
She comforts by throbbing head
Better than I would ever allow
But I trust her with my whole life
Sitting there, looking down
She tells me there's no reason to frown

She answers all of my questions
Never leaving a single one astray
She knows I am eternally grateful
Under her and her stars, I lay
Never met anyone who I trusted more
She knows the heart remembers the hurt
That my head always seems to forget
But she's got my back
In my black sky
She fills in what I lack
419 · Apr 2013
Slip
John Apr 2013
On the winding road
Where thoughts become words and things
I slip so often
418 · Feb 2017
eyes to the skies
John Feb 2017
i ate up your love
and i threw it up in the street
with eyes on setting suns
so uncomfortable in our seats

i dug up your treasured chest
couldn't believe what i'd found
i thought you were the best
standing atop your muddy mound

why does it always seem
like i can't handle the truth
think i need jack nicholson
to knock out my favorite tooth

but it's over and done
over and out, it's been fun
i still swear you're a ****
but my eye's still on the sun
417 · Nov 2016
my anxieties
John Nov 2016
so, here's to the anxiety.
the nights i was so drunk i couldn't see.
the times i told you "i love you".
when you said you didn't think it was true.
the shivering and the icy rain.
lips quivering and stinging pain.
417 · Feb 2011
Emmaleigh
John Feb 2011
Emmaleigh
Where can you be?
Oh, Emmaleigh
I've been slowly dying
Emmaleigh
I know you're drowning but I need you here with me

I'm lying in wait
In terrible shape
You're out there
Somewhere
Is it too much to ask where?
Heaven or Hell, I don't care
Emmaleigh, I'll meet you there

We were at the end of our rope
Minds and bodies weary
They took our disdain for a joke
Now their eyes are all teary
We knew more than they ever could
We were ahead of their thinking
If only I couldve taken a different track, I would
But its too late
Sealed, are our fates
Forever in this dreadful state
416 · Nov 2014
Birdboy
John Nov 2014
Eyes glazed over.
Sitting down.
Staring away
at the ground.
Tracing my knuckle
with my finger.
Having a chuckle,
good thoughts linger.

The air around my head feels light.
The ground below my feet feels right.
Soaring above, looking at the ants down there.
When I'm actually just sitting in this chair.
John Oct 2012
We walked in silence. Through the water and the dirt and the mud. We avoided eachothers' gaze as we gripped our rifles and let the thought of death pass through our brains with ease. We'd learned to come to terms with the blood. Knowing what we know, we have but no other choice. We have to be comfortable with the uncertainty of death. And in that, we find a sad peace. A solemn look on the face of the horrors hidden deep. A straight gait to disguise the anxieties of dying at the hand of a man with no real knowledge of what it is to die before his time.

And so we marched on, eyes squinting and mouths puckered. The air filled with the fumes of agents designed to poison and ****. Nothing is right here and, yet, nothing is wrong. This is who we are, who we're meant to be. And when the final shot has rung out, we will all know that it was all for something, all for security, all for the greater good. A life for the lives of the innocent. Lives for the life of the powerful. In the end, we know... It's all for nothing.

And when they find this, if they find this, they wil take it as just another note scrawled on the blood-stained pages of man with a duty to uphold and nothing but a life to give.
415 · Oct 2010
Tears In Time
John Oct 2010
The tears that make streams on your face
Are nothing I haven't swam through before
And the years I spent a broken mess
Are everything of lore
The times I saw your face
The times I never thought to think twice
Are the times I miss the most

No regrets
Just thoughtful rememberance
The times are something I cherish
But it's done with
And I'm ****** up
More than I can ever say I've been

So cut the rope
And let me fall
And drown in a river of my own blood
Don't bother to call
I'll be too deep to even hear
The words through your teeth
That were too often unheeding
Just let me go, let me go
And in time, you'll know
It was for the best
To let my heart rest
After this beating
414 · Sep 2014
Gone for Good
John Sep 2014
Ever since I put
that knife to skin,
I can't stop thinkin' 'bout
how you've been.
No sense now in desecration.
Only gotta live and love,
but I'm havin' trouble with inspiration.
Seems she's gone, gone for good.
Yeah, I think she left the neighborhood.

My love at times
seems infinite.
And when I rhyme
she's right in it.
It seems, in time,
fires always get lit.

So now I'm truckin' along
through empty streets.
Tryin' to right all my wrongs
and rest my aching feet.
They moved so fast, now
I don't know how.
All I'm thinkin' 'bout
is where I'll show.
414 · Mar 2014
Soaked in Sound
John Mar 2014
With my ear to the ground
It's time to soak in the sound
Of your voice from the top of that hill
You've never sounded more shrill
But things are constantly shifting
And nothing ever stays the same for long

So just hear me out now
Soak in my sounds
Try to block out the rest
You're being put to the test
Never felt so blessed
John Oct 2013
You put me down
You pick me up
You wear a crown
As I drink up
You walk on over
You say goodbye
I've blown my cover
Please don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye

You're in your car
You fiddle with your hair
You say you wanna hit the bar
As I just stare
Looking at you
And peering through
I'm looking through you
And now I know you
Now I know you better than before
And now I know you

With a sigh
I look away
Say goodbye
And I'm on my way
My eyes may be damp
But then soon they're dry
Never thought I'd date a *****
But no one can say I never tried
No, no, no one can say that
No one can even say I didn't try
Just been doing a lot of thinking and reminiscing and this is what came out.
409 · May 2017
sting
John May 2017
been down and tarnished
insecurities have been brandished
neurocircuits outlandish
i've got the fists but i can't hit

stand down and hold your own
no celebrations in the end-zone
keep cool while you pick the bone
no one has to know that the lights shone

i walk around a dichotomy
sit beneath a blooming tree
die in the winter, revived a stinging bee
don't break the lock, i've got the key
408 · Dec 2012
Human Hands
John Dec 2012
My dream is to to live
Live the life Thoreau told me to
To live among the trees and the leaves and just leave
The entirety of the society that told me I live blindly

Because I see everything
The doc tells me I've got me some twenty-twenty
Nothing goes over my head
Unless my body tells me I've bled
Or it feels like my head is being weighed with solid lead

Tell me I'm crazy or stop me if you've heard this one before
I need to get back in touch with the place that took me in
Had enough of the shtick and the schlep of the evil stores
That try to sell me **** and take me places I've already been
Over and over and over again

Oh dear Earth just take me back home
**** me in and welcome me like the son you know
Show me things that I should've already been shown
Free me up from this rigid Hell into which I've been sewn
And let me know its alright to want this
I've always been one for nature and lovely natural scenery that hasn't been tinkered with my human hands yet. I've also been one to sort of go against societies norms. Not in the "acting out" and protesting sort of way but, in short, I don't think people are meant to be pent up in cubicles and staring at computer screens all day. I think we all, as inhabitants of this planet, owe it to ourselves to get in touch with the natural world around us. I think that's very important.
408 · Sep 2012
Comes in Threes
John Sep 2012
Heart of gold
Soul of light
Vision of glory

It always comes
Comes in threes
One, two, three

Soldier and child
Boy and girl
Beauty and hideousness

Nothing like it
Nothing more to
It and nothing

And nothing will
Quite ever
Just the same
407 · Dec 2013
One & Two
John Dec 2013
I coughed up a lung
Trying to talk to you today
Looking at you over there
I know what it is you're trying to play
But right now, I'm leaving
And I'm not sure I'm gone
And then I'm in my car and weaving
Through the icy streets with the heat on

I really thought I knew who you were
The 1 to my 1 that makes one two
I just shook my head when I heard for sure
I don't know how I didn't have a clue
All my walls are dripping navy blue
Down through the waves just trying to get you

You are my sweet double-etendre
But where do you start and begin?
You say one thing and start to cry
Where is the place that we're headed?
You never hear me out and you never tell me why
Is it that you've been having second thoughts again?
I'm packing it in not because I want, but I have to
Will you think of me in the future as a friend?
The end seems bitter but the bitter isn't always the end
John Apr 2012
From an innocent boy
To a bitter man
Growing so incontent
As the days lay waste to the land
406 · Jul 2011
Take It All
John Jul 2011
Why can’t I be you?
People stick to you like glue.
They just turn and run from me.
Like I’m something they can’t bear to see.
I’m not a ******* animal.
My tanks gone empty and it started full.
Just promise me you won’t leave.
My heart’s been plastered to my sleeve.

Take my hand.
Take my life.
Come to me, let’s just stand.
Together we’ll make them believe the hype.

Sometimes I just think too much.
I wonder if it’s just my luck.
But I feel like the hand I’ve been dealt.
Is just too ****** to even be felt.
So I contemplate the worst.
And picture the ******* hearse.
But then I think again.
About all the time left to spend
With you.

You drive me to insanity.
But youre the only one I want to see.
So I hope you feel the same.
And I hope this isn’t too lame.
But I just wanna spend all the time I have left.
With you and no one else.
So I’d really appreciate it.
If we can just talk and sit.
Forever.
404 · Sep 2012
Something Pretty
John Sep 2012
"Write me something pretty,"
She said
"Something I can show my family
Tell me how you love and miss me
And how you can't live without me

Write it with your favorite pen
No, better yet
Write it in blood
With your hand trembling and heart burning

Put it all out there, every last word
Maybe write it standing on your head
Or on the edge of a fifteen story building
With one foot hovering over violent traffic below

And after you've done that
Give me everything
I want everything
Your head, your heart, your brain, your lungs, your soul

Give me everything until nothing's left
Until you can't breathe
Put it all on the table and then
Put a smile on your face

Yes
And when it's all there
All splayed out on the cheap, plastic table cloth
I'm going to rip it off.

You better hope your love is balanced,"
She said.
402 · Jan 2014
business of dead men
John Jan 2014
in the war
they teach you
in the war
they beat you
in Afghanistan
they strip you
mold you
glue you
back

a new man
a true man
a great man
a dead man
John Mar 2014
The melancholy of the city
It propels, it repels me
The darkness of the streets
At night when we meet
Is all I've ever wanted

Street lights glowing maniacally
Above cars zipping inherently
Owing their lives to these people
Moving, shuffling, toppling sheeple
Money is the name of the game, this game
Either you have it or you don't... but it's all the same

You see, your face is something interesting
To me I've never really felt as if this thing
The pump of my heart in rhythm with
The steps you're taking and you don't give a ****
But it's all alright because I've got no respect
For anything and I never care to check

                  To see
                             If you're like me
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