Welcome to my escape from reality…
A mirror to my soul,
My never-never land,
Understand?

A dream to write the words that whole world sing
or preach rather
in the hopes that maybe it’ll mean something when I’m gone…
my worst fear is wondering if this even matter when I’m gone
because the world’s being pulled by the influence of technology
and I’m hoping we don’t lose the basics in the process.

Excuse me miss,
May I tempt you with a verse?

and the contents of this book belong to,
the one and only…

James Desire

A clean slate on the date of January 26th
and I can’t believe it ended up like this
I mean how rap has become the nominator
and R&B; seems to have lost it’s appeal
what happened to the smooth seduction of the voice
From an introduction,
to the core of one’s soul
every note and rhythm makes us crave more…
and what happened to the women who believe in love
and the making of which could be so passionate,
You see all that’s needed is the right mood.
Don’t mean to intrude, but check out tracks 8 & 9 of Usher’s Confessions
That’s superstar and its interlude
and with a flow like woah
I make nonsense bring clarity
sincerely reaching into the inner depths of your mind
or even for some, their soul, just to let them know
We share something in common.
See what I’ve done is make a possibility for a connection
I long to bring a bit of understanding…
Between the few souls that float along with us on this rock called Earth.

Truly Yours,
James Desire

When your nothing to nobody and you just want to be something to somebody

I wanna be like
Life ain't fair
But you see that ain't rare
And my girl Ana said it like this...
"How they suppose to like what they see
If you ain't in their line of sight..."

I know she right
I'm a loner
That hate being alone
Work with beautiful women
But I'm always professional
Even when my thoughts start to become
Not Safe For Work
I just sang and do my thang.
Because the R&B; purifies me
& "Nothing Was The Same" tracks amplify me
So that the only time I hear my name in anyone's mouth
Is out of praise
Because I'm trying to be the best at what I do
I be thinking though
What these girls think of the kid
Quiet, but he really love to sing
Tap you on your shoulder cause he don't know your name
But he always smile after a question
Because he's genuine

Hello miss,
How are you this afternoon?
Well uh,
you look stunning
I just thought I should let you know
Because your smile has made my day
and now I hope you have a great evening too
****
Déjà Vu
But who woulda knew?
The kid is too cautious to jump into anything new
So he stays focused on what he came to do
Come to work and have fun
Wasn't that the agenda boo?

A few words from a good one.
Ana
Beautiful soul,
And I met her on the last day of high school
The girl deserves the best.
Because her mind right,
Her smile warming
And intelligence is ****.
And she can vibe with me and my music and poetry.
I'm so lucky to have this person as a friend
I guess I should really try to keep in touch with her more.
And that's real!

Take notice:
this went from talking about something I want,
to showing appreciation to my friend.
Even though I shouldn't, I always put them first,
they are my family
Honestly,
the people in my life are the best
and I am forever grateful for them

~
This was a little something for a friend.
Thanks for the inspiration.
As always sweetheart
shine bright
and know that if you need a shoulder to lean upon
I'll be right there behind you
just give me the word.
okay?

I wonder whats so appealing about demons and their temptations
Or about characters who don't quite have their stories straight
Claiming the day is to come but never actually sets a date
Lost in a trail of their own confusion
In the hopes they might sedate it
But with the path of destruction left in their wake
They couldn't help but feel ashamed, right?
I mean, don't you?
You couldn't be so foolish
Or be so heartless
To realize this isn’t right
You only surpass me in age by a year and yet
You’ve become quite bitter
I try to understand but to be this lost
Is simply lost to me
I'm told to just try to understand that we all have demons
But must they manifest in this nature?
Then demand the respect of your allies with disrespect
It makes no sense
Do you see how vulnerable a piece is when the pawns are gone
Don't you hate feeling like you're all alone?
I truly wonder if you get it though,
Because its truly sad to see
Especially that day you spoke to me
I saw someone who wanted to become accepted
You just went about it the wrong way
and I can’t help but wonder what lead you so astray?
Whether it be a troubled past or you just like to be a pain in the ***
I hope you find some peace
In this chaotic battlefield you call life.

I often disregard the fact that people affect me the way they do
whether it be good or bad, I just can't shake the fact that people matter
So I'm really astonished by the fact that good people
or anyone really, are treated badly
Is it that we forget the Golden Rule at a certain age
such as when adolescence hits and our selfishness consumes us
or when things gets so bad that it's depression you can't escape
whatever it maybe, whoever it maybe
don't you think they'd appreciate a little kind-heartedness?
even if it ain't reciprocated,
even if they hate you,
even if they harm you,
look into the core of their soul
and let them know,
how their actions only reflect
how much hurt they have endured
and the fact of the matter is,
that they are loved,
it's ensured
even if they aren't.

Late night mediation
ended up picking up this pen
Steady thinking bout you
"Ooh no, no, no"
It's true lady,
You've ambushed my mind
And are the only thing that remains
When night falls till the sunrise
The music plays on in the background
And I wonder if you ever think so far ahead?
Because I get it forever's a long time, more like a life time
But "temporary lover" won't make you mine
And excuse me Mr. Ocean for borrowing another line but
"I remember how could I forget, how you feel"
But I'd rather not be the one continuously mending a heart you could willingly heal.
The past I had once clung onto desperately taught me that
also, a mentor I had once instructed me that love shouldn't suffocate
only alleviate and enrich our quality of living.
So, come and take a walk with me
because you talked about getting away,
somewhere where you could enjoy the watching the sunset
and I just want to watch you bask in a beauty as natural as you
held tight in my embrace
you can hear my heart race
as if its the bass to our favorite song
and with your sweet little voice, you sing along
I sincerely believe
this could all be possible
but go on and call me foolish
I'll still sing these love songs as loudly and proudly as I did in my youth
When I was just around the age of 8 in my room
belting, "Everyone Falls In Love Sometimes"
cause it's true
and "I Don't Know Bout You But It Ain't A Crime"
but that might depend who you talk to
because "catching feelings" apparently has become some sort of affliction
when the case of the matter is
it only matters when
the source of affliction isn't afflicted too
a little something we've all been through
nothing to be ashamed of either
just another lesson learned with time
scheming on ways to make you mine
with a period missing from every line
running on and on about the ways I love this song
and how you embody the passion sung
so go on and call me selfish,
I mean it is what it is,
But if it is love you desire,
and you like to take the time to get to know me
I'll give you a constant supply

Introduction:

Everything I work for now is for my future,
the amazing wife that I know will ease my mind when I'm troubled
and the children we will raise together...
I will work hard to make sure they are as happy as humanly possible

I promised myself this as a young child when I have first dreamt of losing my parents.
I cried that night,
I still can remember that dream clearly
News crews lined up in front of my home
blocked off by "do not cross" tape
I never knew how they were taken
I remember a woman asking me in the dream,
"what will you do now that you're parents are dead?"
And I screamed...

My first night terror.
My father came in and asked
"what's wrong?"
I looked at him in reassurance
and said nothing and yet he insisted I tell him what had me shook.
I remained quiet in fear of the reality of the premonition
My biggest fear,
because although we fight and argue I do love them dearly
I've always planned on grabbing a pen and transcribing this feeling the only way I can
and then reading it to them
Maybe at an open mic night
if they would ever find the time to watch me one day
They deserve that much for the struggles they've been through
and I just want them to see why I love this art so much.

All my life,
I've just wanted to make an impact in some way.
Give what I can because life is too short.
There is so much other ******* in this world.
So I strive to give all that I can before I take my dying breath
because who knows maybe my mentality will rub off on someone else
and the chain will continue on thru my time.

Problem is,
I continue to put my own issues and concerns in the back burner.
And put all others before myself.
Except my family and I guess they feel neglected,
even though that's not my intention.
So as a result,
my parents think I'm a **** up
and that I'm gradually slipping down the wrong path.
They are also stuck in their "old ways"
so they think all that I do is wrong.
Rebellious and yet looking for a way back to gain approval in their eyes.

The struggle.

It's 8:37
I wrote the contents of my mind at the time
For the sake of my sanity.

I guess I knew I wasn’t done.
you see, the feeling never faded
it was just negated, if only for a while
late last night you crept into my imagination while I slept
and I finally told you everything I ever wanted to say
how the past is in the past and don’t mean a thing
that your smile is a blessing and without it I sin
trying to fill the core that you left empty
I suppose I envy you now
you’ve got scares
but you live so carefree now

I love that

I wish I wasn’t so concerned about where my heart will lay
when my hair grows gray
I know it’s sad
but I’m convinced that when I complete that part of the puzzle
the image will become clearer
and all will fall into place
it’s just that I’d always imagined you by my side
but it just wasn’t meant to be
I can live with that
because honestly all that I care is that

You are happy
because that’s what I aimed to achieve with you.