Find a lover
Give him what he needs
Anyone to fill this greed
I tell myself I love them and put them on display
Boost their confidence while they have their way
They get what they want until there is no more
And leave me like I’m some kind of *****
I do it again
I don’t seem to learn
Fix my heart and watch it burn.
Who’s to blame for this void in me?
But myself and my need to be seen.

I remember you
Pink and orange waves
reflecting the setting sky.

I’ll remember you
And your cultivated lies

I tell myself I don’t like you anymore
and I tell you the same
but that’s a lie even I can’t hide or ignore…
my eyes are to blame.

The eyes never lie
and I know you see them too,
the way that they dilate
when I’m just looking at you.

I need to learn to look away,
I don’t want you to know
that even after everything
my feelings still seem to show

It’s killing me inside
knowing this will never be
So I’ll tell myself I don’t like you
And maybe
it’ll set me free

You touched my soul
You said goodbye
You left me wondering why?

Do you know how hurt I am
I gave you everything I can
But you are only half a man

How could I be so dumb
Loving a man who is so numb
Feeding off the crumbs you give
Now all I can do is watch you leave

Stupid stupid girl
You have your head in a whirl
Get out of this delusional state
Fill your heart with anger and hate

Now every text I get I wish was you
And I’m sure one day it’ll be true
But by then it’ll be too late
I’ll move on and that’ll be my fate

Please don’t light my spark again
You are a memory I don’t want to regain
Sure you showed me what my heart could do
But no-one else will ever compare to you

Long strands reaching the sky
Squinting eyes, questioning why?
Dark hair, a cheeky glare
He’s giving me a flirty stare
Pondering heart
Confidence torn apart
Burning cheeks
Temptations creek
A kiss from you will make me weak