She walks along the shore

Shells scattered against the grains of sand

Waves wash across tiny feet

A soft breeze lifts silky tendrils off an angelic face

Looks out over the ocean

Blue skies, white capped waves

The taste of salt upon her lips

Looking down at the shells

Noticing a brilliant shiny shell

Pressed into the sand

No others near it

Gazing around seeing no one

She is alone just  like the shell

A smile plays against the soft lips

Peace and tranquility rein with each crashing wave

She moves forward

Searching for a purpose

Her mind drifts to thoughts of the past

Glancing behind her seeing the foot prints being erased

Watching as new foot prints indent in the sand

The clouds begin to move in

The waves become more violent

Looking behind

Once more back there

Clear skies and tranquil seas

Turning forward clouds and stormy seas

Are all that eyes of green can see

She continues to move forward

Against the storm

Knowing the purpose is ahead

Somewhere

Written By:  Niyahlove

A soft touch
Slides across the skin
Chill bumps rise
As belly quivers within

Expert hands used perfectly
Heighten desire
Every touch more exciting than the last
Body heats up like a fire

Lips press to the silken flesh
Velvet tongue delves out
Washing the skin almost
A moan escapes loudly

Teeth nip at skin
Nails scrape the surface
Buds tighten to a sensitive nub
Lips find and kiss

******* deeply
Knocking the wind from the lungs
Back arching
Hands cling to the head

Gasping as body grows hotter
Cries grow louder
Hands move faster
Lips meet lips

Moves grow demanding
Flesh to bare flesh
Growls mix with moans
Bodies entwine

Tension Grows tighter
Movements get faster
Heat engulfs them
Volcanic force surrounds

Electricty surrounds
Crackling and hissing
Shrill voice piercing the ears
Gutteral moans vibrate ear hairs

Finally shaft enters well
Nectar surrounds it delicately
Muscles squeeze and release
Steel hits harder and deeper

Friction increases
Sweat beads on surface
Honey flows against the tight rosebud
Fingers twist and release the plesaure spot

Perfect rhythm
Increases to a frantic dance
Changing position
Depth  unhead of obtained

Whimpers, Whines then Cries
Moans, ahhs, and Groans
Squishing slaps heard repeately
Mouth mash and bite

Timing almost right
It is on its way
Winding tighter
Growing hotter

Suddenly it comes
Body hammers quick and hard
Then pauses and and slams again
Milky white meets clear and thick

Panting cries reach high pitch
Waves of passion overcome all
Collapsing together
Entwined forever

Lovers thats what they are
Now and forever
Never very far from the other
Love You See

Passion

Bliss

Love the best of them All

Ink Darkness
Sleeping
Something enters

The woman on the bed
Begins to move to and fro
The fiery rings stand as if being held

Clothing disappears without a hand touching
No One is watching as she is sleeping'
The form is lifted from the bed
Suddenly standing on the ground
Feet begin to move towards the trees

Deep in sleep a warmth comforts the dreams
He is there in the Darkness
Calling her, the sound for her alone
Skin feels cool but it isn't comprehended why

No one sees the naked woman walking to the trees
They don't see the Man watching intently
He watches as He calls to her
Knowing she can't deny him

She calls out in her sleep yet not heard
Heart begins to pound
Heat begins to build
Dusky pink tips harden

The form reaches the forest of darkness
A hand reaches out and pulls the hair of flame
Pulse in the neck beckons Him like a moth to the fire
He leans in and pauses

She feels the breath against the earlobe
Feeling the aura envelope the dream
Sweating now, pulses race
Milky thighs open widely
Fingers slide between the slick lips

His nose glides along the curve of the neck
The scent drives Him almost insane
This is not how His kind behaves
Not like this
Driving her mind with need in Dreams

Teeth sink into the bottom pink lip
Soft cries escape anyway
Fingers pull and dance teasing
the hard nub that promises delight

He growls as the esssence of lust builds
Sharp points enter the neck at the same time
The scream of release is heard
Drinking, feeding, allowing it to coat the skin

Warmth spreads through out as the tension mounts
Lips open releasing a piercing scream
Essence spills forth from the tight well
Breathing ragged as the heat flows down her neck
across her chest, screams again as the pleasure escapes

She doesn't know and won't know
The second release was His mouth
Once again opening the flesh of the hard nub
Drinking what spills forth of her clear nectar

She awakens suddenly sitting straight up in bed
Hand whips to the neck nothing but an ache
Rising to go to the bathroom, the wind blows
The heavy wetness cooled by it's touch
Mind races trying to remember

He will come again
She is what he needs
One day He will reveal Himself
Take that chance of her rejection or disbelief

Until then He will

Just be

A glimmer of Memory

In a decadent dream


Written by Niyahlove all rights reserved

We watch the horrid things of Our world
Faith we are told is our only hope
Yet how can people suffer so
Faith in God the Father will reveal all

I see the blind, the hungry,
The wars, racism, treachery
Faith says answers will be shown
I sit and wonder if Faith is really all that is needed

Then it hits me
Faith indeed
For it feeds if you believe
It clothes, cures, helps one endure
Faith alone is our path

To me life on this earth is our hell
Faith tells me another place
That heals and closes all bad things
Heaven is our second life
For this life is surely purgatory for most

For those that live in heaven here
Faith if you believe
Will deliver you to an even better frontier
Faith says it all

Oh how it hurts
Words cannot describe
How life’s surprises
Can make one want to die

Yet I am stronger than you
What you did isn’t through
I will prevail
As life is my avenger

The knife you planted so well
I refuse to acknowledge
So when you see me
Don’t think you have won

I can live without you “friend”
You will suffer far more
Though I am the one that bleeds
The further I go with this thing in my back

Your world will continue to crumble
As you are seen for who you really are
Will it be me that returns the favor
Never for I have way to much class
To ******* over or in the ***

So keep your own counsel
You no longer deserve my ear
When you are found wanting more and more
Do not knock on my door

I will bare the pain of betrayal you see
In the end it is better this way
You deserve everything you get
And then some I do not jest

Look me in the eye
I dare you
Face me again
I double dare you

I put you on notice
No longer your punching bag
Your tongue is forked
One side for your truth
One side for some other truth

In the end the real truth will reveal
How ******* up your world really is
And the knife in my back
Will dissolve over time
All you will ever do is whine

I am deliriously happy so you know
Since it is all sunshine and no snow
Take your knife you slime
Stick it where the sun sure doesn’t shine
You are dead to me
I never thought the day would come

When I would consider you nothing but a ***
Garbage on the street
Not even worthy of my feet
I walk on by and will smile
When you drown in your own web
That you weave day by day
Week by week

Good luck old friend
Your happiness is short lived
You know I am right
I guess that is why the knife
Yet I am to good to give it back to you

Stay out of my life
Stop causing me strife
**** on your own life
**** yourself and then someone else
I am no longer accepting deposits
From a **** or a SOB

If the shoe fits wear it
I never turned away
Until this very day
Because while I slept
You deliberately hurt me

Its funny though you see
Your secret will come out
He will find out what you do and don’t
So keep pretending you are so good
In truth you deserve one another
One manipulator to the other

Keep clear of me or you will see
My words don’t just fit this sheet
They can be used effectively
When pushed past the stabbed back
Into a corner I will come out
With my victory

Stay in your hurtful world
I will stay in my solid happy one
Fight til there is none left in you
Then and only then
Will you be worthy of another real friend
And even then I do not know if ready you will be
As you would have to feel
What every other has felt
From your world

As the saying goes
**** me once shame on you
**** me twice
Shame on me
In the end I will WIN!


Written by Niyahlove
Jennifer Humphrey

He watches from a distance

Seeing the strain in her eyes, voice, and movements

None notice the subtle changes over time

Except He does
The paleness worsens
The weariness is noticeable

Yet the girl moves on
Continues to do everyday tasks
Smiling like nothing is wrong

He asks Himself
"Why do Others not notice?"
Wonders if they are blind

Remembers hearing the early goodnights
As the girl was tired
Growing more and more frequent

He noticed
Said nothing
Watching, waiting, listening, protecting from afar
He watches her as she comes towards Him
Having been two weeks away
His eyes are startled but He hides it

The girl looks worn out
Looks worse than before
The luster of her hair diminished
The twinkle in the eyes dull
Yet she tries to hide it

He remembers that day today
Why did He not do something?
Why did He just watch her waste away?

Looking upon her still form
Laying on pillows of silk
Mahogany surrounding the lifeless form

A tear slips down His cheek
He whispers

"Go in peace girl"

"You hid it well"

Written by:  Niyahlove All rights rserved

A friend does not judge
Are around even when they don't want to hear it anymore
Provide a shoulder to cry on when one says they are not going to cry
Encourages you to get yourself together and stand strong

They do not tell you it will get better, hang in there, others have it rougher than you
There is no judgement ever on mistakes you continue to make
If you are getting down trodden they are there to pick you up
When you are being attacked a friend defends your honor

When the chips are down and all you do is cry
That friend doesn't care, but lifting your spirits becomes priority
If they are true they tell you what is so amazing about you
They respect boundaries and offlimit conversations

when you are about to truly mess up
It isn't told to the whole world
You receive a short note telling you to get your head out of your @##
Explaining why they say such a thing

A friend does not take advantage of your feelings
You do not have to worry about gossip because it won't show up
There is always a mass amount of comfort offered
Causing you to feel safe even when your world is imploding

Most of all they ask nothing in return
They give from their heart and soul to help you make it
Trying to teach you new ways to cope and that there is more to life than whatever is bringing you down
When doing all this they never make you feel like you are a charity case

In the end after building you up
They are still there
To lend an ear to your happiness, joyfulness, sadness and pain
Most of all to catch you if you fall

A friend doesn't leave you just because you are better
They are there for the long haul
They are there forever

Written by JH all rights reserved

Mommy, Mommy it is dark in here
It will be ok my loving girl

Why is it so dark Mommy?
Just the way it has to be for now honey

I don't understand Mommy
The light will show itself soon baby

I am scared Mommy, (cries) Mmmommmy
Shhhh baby, my sweet child it won't be long now

Plleeasse Mommy don't leave me I am scared
I know you are love, I am right here

The darkness is thick I can taste it
I know she can as I can't even see her outline
Her little heart is thumping so fast and hard
The fear in her voice is squeezing my heart

We are trapped in this blackness
At least we are together my child and I
Oh how she should not be here with me
How could I leave her though, behind I mean

She suffers more than me
Yet the darkness is squeezing
It's fist tightens against my lungs
Smothering, attempting to take the last breath

Hearing her cry, whimper and pleade
Scared of this inky blackness
Short quick breaths between words
Praying that god spares her

Wondering how we got here
What has occured to cause this
I simply cannot remember
Yet it is right there on the edge of my mind

Reassurances getting harder to give
Her voice drips with fear
Hugging the little body close to mine
Huge tear drops paint my cheeks

Rocking back and forth
Humming a tune
Feeling the stickiness on my chest
Pain so excrutiating not sure which is worse

Fire with every breath
Having covered her as the sounds stopped
I can feel a different darkness overcoming me
Blood smell fills my nose

Only thoughts were in saving her
Praying she does not pay for my sins
Wishing, hoping then praying
Take me Lord but please spare her

A fight out of control
Ended as the man began firing shots
Dumped in the middle of nowhere
In this darkness

Not able to see if my darling babe has injuries
Suddenly the moon begins to peek from behind it's hiding place
Just enough to see her beautiful pale face
The light becomes stronger

Mommy it's beautiful, I am not afraid now
It is incredibly lovely my love

Cradling her close to me the light is like nothing I have ever seen
Pain has ceased
We are floating you see
I press lips to her cheeks as I speak my last breath

I love you my darling
Mommy I love you

Our eyes close as our bodies go limp
When we are finally found in time
They will see the holes from bullets in my chest
One went through me and into my babe

Who would do such a thing? How did this happen?
It won't matter to me now
As my baby and I are resting peacefully
The Angels ended the darkness

Bathed in light we were taken to the Lord
He could not spare her though I prayed
I watch the people tears in their eyes
Hearing their thoughts of sadness and surprise

They say he snapped, my aunt said
Are you sure? my mother asked
Yes, He didn't want to let her go
Shot her and hit the babe by accident

I watch as the caskets are lowered into the cold ground
The angels around me and my daughter
Comforting and consoling us
Feels so wonderful here

Mommmy! Mommy! I am not scared anymore!*
Neither am I my love neither am I

Sometime in the distance I heard it told
"He was caught and will pay his due"

I curled up with my darling baby doll
Drifting to sleep for the last time
We my baby and I are at peace
I kiss her one last time

Rest now my sweet love
We are safe in the loving arms of the Lord

I fall to my knees and ask God for his strength
Lord I am not perfect, I have never asked anyone else to be either
Please just help me stand up and take control of my life
Let me chase the demons of darkness away
Allow me to keep my cool and not hurt any involved in hurting me
Keep me sane and help me hold my head high
Help me Lord to remember I am a good and beautiful person
I have a giving and kind soul
I am worth more than any monetary value out there
Help me remember I am a good mother
Even through all of this I have been a great wife
Guide me through this Lord and help me pull myself together
Please take the humiliation I feel and replace it with contempt
Let me walk proudly in front of those that know what is going on
Keep me from using this Scotts Irish temper in a way that would compromise keeping my child
I pray for my self respect to return
Allow me to forgive those that are taking my heart away
Give me strength oh Lord, please I beg and pray for your guiding light and everlasting Love
In the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit

**Amen

The sound escapes parted lips
Loving, nurturing and caring sounds
One innocent, oblivious
Allowing the words to caress the heart
The soul opens
The trust is endless
The grass separates
A path is formed
It comes nearer
As the sound begins to fade
The innocent begins to be enlightened
It comes nearer
The blessed oblivion shadowed by the darkness of it
Tears fall freely as all is illuminated
As it comes nearer
The ears open more
The walls begin to form
The sounds that escape the lips
Are nothing more than the hiss of a snake
It reaches the innocent
Curving its body against the soft flesh
Crawling, slithering, preying
The sound nothing but a hiss
The hiss nothing but lies
The lies nothing but the sound that escapes parted lips
No more crying
No more pain
The snake has consumed the heart
and poisoned the soul

Trapped in depths of despair
unable to reach the top where life lives
Sun rise to Sun set over and over
Tears the only outlet of pain
Pain the only outlet of fear
Fear the place of despair
Anguish, sorrow, gloom, desolation and dejection
looks for the days of
care, warmth, compassion, kindness, and affection
waking up with the sunrise again
finding the cage of pain and degradation locked
The key only within
so easy to reach for many
the cage falls deeper into the pits
Everything not as it seems yet perfect in its entrapment
Murkiness all around
Clarity not to be found
Escape is the cry
Begging, pleading an imploring
Finally the cry is silenced
It is finished, over and done with
The sun sets for the last time
As the cage drops into oblivion


Written by: Jennifer Humphrey/Niyahlove all rights reserved

He Remembers


The breeze blows the curls that frame her face
He watches from a distance
Notices her fingers brush the gentle wisps out of her eyes
He remembers her touch

The waves crash against the rocks
He remembers her voice
Her face turns up towards the sun
He remembers the softness of her skin

She pulls a flower to her face
He remembers the beauty of her body
The smile covers her face
He remembers the spirit of her embrace

She tucks the flower behind her ear
He remembers she never shows fear
She rises gracefully
He remembers her body beneath his

She walks towards the ocean

He remembers glimpsing just a touch of her soul
She picks something up off the sand
He remembers her tender heart

She looks out over the sea
He remembers her laughing softly

She walks into the crashing waves

He remembers how easily she hurts
The waves crash upon her
He remembers the harshness of his words
She suddenly is covered by the sea

He remembers the tears that he caused
She lets go for she remembers what she has done
He remembers what he has done
She welcomes the water to spin her into darkness

He remembers the anger he felt
She feels the life ****** out of her
He remembers her plead for forgiveness


She feels the release as she dies


He remembers he could not forgive
She is pulled from the water by another
He remembers the love he felt
She is covered with a blanket


He remembers the soul she gave
She is turned on her side
He remembers her at his feet


She is lifeless

He stops remembering
He runs to her
Her body is so still

He breathes his life into her
She continues to be lifeless


He yells at her to live
She had given all she could give


He breathes his very soul into her lungs


She hears him faintly through the daze


He begs her to return
She feels so welcomed in this darkness


He tells her he is sorry for his harshness
The sea sputters out of her mouth
He pulls her close


She lives by the breath of his soul to hers


Written By Niyahlove All rights reserved

Walks through the Halls
Noises of norm throughout
Footsteps fall softly

Listening

Passing the wooden door
Heart quickens
Tears fill sea colored eyes
Steps continue past

Glances to the walls
If they could speak
Presses a bare ear to the stone
Wondering at the secrets it keeps

Fingers clasping
Wringing together
Thoughts cloud the brain
Images flash before her eyes

Covering ears
Willing it to stop
Not wanting to know

Turning
Fleeing
Outrunning the sound

Seen from the window
White silk billows behind the path she takes
He watches

Laughing
Knowing she knows
Eyes reflect evil
His lips mimic the eyes with a sneer

He knows that she knows
The secrets the walls keep
No one can escape

Written By:  Niyahlove

Ssussh sssussh sssussh
Fingers glide gently over
Flesh revealed
Sssussh sssussh thump
Muscles draw taut
Then relax
Sssussh thump thump
Thumb presses against a full lip
Squeezing, release
Thump thump thump
The lip is twisted tight
As other fingers graze naked flesh
Ththump ththump ththump
Warmth gathers in her belly
Chills rise like dew on a rose petal
Thrrummp thrrump thrruump
Hand slides across the swell of the breast
Hard ended tip feel trapped in a burst
Of scalding heat
Tonn ton ton ton ton
Loud moan escapes parted lips
Suddenly the other tip is awash in wet heat
Followed by red hot lava
Tic tic tic tic tic
Curve of the hip caressed by the palm
Moans, mews, and pants are heard
Tic tic tic tic tic tic thump thump
Digits slip across bare wet lips
Teeth nip, bite,  mouth suckles, tongue bathes
Ta ta ta tictic ta ta tictic
Long legs part, opening to the probe
Calloused tips probe tight dripping tunnel
Ththump ththump ththump
Pelvis rotates and rises meeting roughness
Wanting more, needing more
Ththump ththump ththump
Teeth release the rosebud finding soft sweet lip
Pressing deeply into the tunnel, tongue slides across
Pouty flesh
Dundum dundum dundum
Beads of perspiration flow down cheeks, neck
Tongues collide like swords in battle
Dadum dadum dadum
Calls, cries, screams, pants swallowed by swords
Fingers digging deeper pushing up in the tunnel
Du du du du
Harder, faster, pushing, biting, extending, reaching
Mouth releases suddenly biting hard upon the ******

Spasms rock entire body, waves flood the tunnel
Tongue licks over the bite as ears savor the sweet screams
Hips continue to rock riding unbelievable forces

Heartbeat begins to thump again as it seemed to stop
Breathless as lips touch hers once again
Bodies entwined in bliss
Sssussh sssussh sssussh

All rights reserve:  Jennifer Humphrey

Awakened in darkness by a sound
Heart thunders like mustangs running free on the plains
The bed is empty beside me
Wondering where my mate is
The noise grows louder, closer

A whisper is heard my heart slows
It is Him of my dreams
The darkness is rich
I cannot see even and inch
Suddenly His hand touches my cheek
I almost unleash a scream
His hushed sounds calm me again
As I feel silk pressed to my eyes
Pressure to the back of my head
He ties the knot

He guides me from my safe bed
My chest tightens in anticipation and dread
I feel, hear and smell things all around
The floor is cold beneath barefeet
Noises seem louder
I can smell his cologne, his masculine body scent

It is a familiar smell though it seems mysterious
My ******* are taut
As His finger tips graze over my flesh
Continues to lead me into another space

I hear a door open, another, and stairs
He guides me expertly until we arrive where?
The entire walk he speaks softly
Things touch me unfamiliar
Suddenly he stops
Fairly soon I will surely need a towel

His lips press to mine scarcely at first
Deepening as his tongue claims mine
Our passion ignites
He says yield as my body says fight
My body craves his touch

My hands are bound and hung above my head
The darkness still shields me from what is around
My flesh is chilled as my gown is rent
Not for long as something snaps
Sending searing heat along my breast

Crying out the scene unfolds
Snaps and cracks as leather and flesh meet
His tongue licks the stripes
**** throbs from heat
Moisture flows like rain

His implements and body bring about
feelings of intense pleasure from pain
Senses are heightened as he works
my body becomes puddy
As hands sculpt and ply it in shape

My first release immediately followed by another
He drinks my essence
Starved for it he claims
He brings me to the edge
Pinnacle of delight

Pale flesh red as fire
All I can feel is raw intense desire
Untying me quickly
We fall to the floor
Our bodies joining as one
The pain and pleasure obscure
Our passion goes on forever it seems
til finally passion is slaked for now

He pulls the blindfold from my eyes
Muted light from the fire nearby is seen
My hands having felt every inch of Him
Heart races once more as emeralds meet seas of blue
He isn't a stranger ohhhh my no
It was my mate all along

He chuckles as His lips meet mine once more
The man I adore
Brought me through yet another door
On a path of mystery
Mystery of pleasure mixed with something a little different

Ahhh and lest I forget
His bites are the best
Nothing is forsaken
For his pearly whites
To clamp down and bite

Journey forth if you dare

There is always more than one way to go

One is simple, just go with the flow
It is straight and even keeled
No bumps, twists and turns,
All green, flat, as far as the eye can see

Second is hard, you must work at it for the prize
Twists and turns,
Ruts, bumps, no visibility in places
Sometimes you can't see past your face

Third is most difficult you see
We make it that way
Harder than it has to be
Mountains are high, rivers rage, oceans pounding

Each road we take puts us on another one then another
Even the simplest can turn out to be the worst nightmare of all
The most difficult can end on easy street
We are told we pick our own road and we do
Yet there is the twist
It does not matter which of those first three you pick

Why? why does it not matter?
Because life is never simple
It is never all green pastures and rosey days
Life is sometimes harder, many times we can't decide what to do
Decisions we make put us in deep ruts that seem impossible maneuver
Other times it is so difficult we get stuck
Can go no further

I have been told  it is all in the choices you make
This is true yet it is not
Our choices affect but we are tested repeatedly in life
What do you mean? you might ask

Life is what you put into it
If you pick the easy road something always happens
A flat tire, the flu, overdrawn checking account

Pick the harder path
You might go for days without a mishap
Smooth road ahead, no problems
Suddenly the road floods

Pick the most difficult path
One day you are in hell
The next you are sailing on easy street
The choice of roads matters not

As long as you put your trust in God
Or the God of your religion
He is the one that puts the ruts, storms, and smooth sailings into your life
Trust in him to get you through the day
Sometimes when things are truly bad
You think I won't make it another day I just can't

Ask Him, Tell Him how you are feeling
He is listening even when we think He is not
If your path follows Him and you trust in Him
You will find every obstacle is conquerable
Every wave is rideable
Every mountain is crossable

Instead of thinking God hates me today
Remember He is challenging you for a reason
Strenghtening you for times to come
He knows the future we do not

Right now at this moment I write this
Because I am at my breaking point
Instead of going off the deep end
Going crazy

I bow my head
God, You are the power, the love and light in my life
Please I can't take anymore
Please I beg Your mercy
HELP ME PLEASEE HELP ME

I know in my heart and soul
He heard me and will remove an obstacle
He will send me help
A sign of some sort will arrive

Instead of saying I should have picked the other road
Simply say
HELP ME

Sometimes a person enters our lives

Brightens our days

Making our hearts smile

Opening windows and doors thought closed forever

Seeing them, hearing them makes us beam in happiness

Sadness becomes a thing of the past

Darkness is only light

Hearts once iced

Now warm as a hot summer day

Faces once dull and lifeless

Now shining with love and life

One person causes this change

Nurturing it along

Another enters and observes this happiness

Envies it

Is jealous of it

Decides to take it away

Edges closer and closer

The other's light begins to fade

Slowly dying out

The darkness moves in

The heart starts to ice

From neglect

The other wins

Taking the love away

While our light is burned out in the dark

Written by Niyahlove©  All rights reserved

Til Death Do Us Part

Yes that is what we said that day
Oh so many moons ago
So much has occurred
Death, illness, a child, career ended

Yet today vows seem to mean less
They used to be the foundation
Now they seem to be just a memory
Words not said should be said

You were supposed to love me forever
That is what you promised me
That is what I promised you
Now look at Us

What will you do
At forty eight
Twenty three looks so wonderful
Forty two isn't new

Pledged to take care of me
I of you
Suddenly you want to go
How do I fix this

What can I do
Help me to help us
I see the abyss approaching fast
The cold fingers taunting below

Need to be positive
Fight to keep you
Yet seems there are other plans in store
Heart is slowly tearing inside

I don't want to tell you
Want you to want to stay
Push the guilt I could
Not my style,

Begged and pleaded
Cried and put up a fuss
In the end though its up to you
Will you walk out or in through that door

I am dying inside you know
Killing me to easily
I have loved you
Given my best

Tears spill down my face
Frustrated
Life shattering
Like walking death

Til Death do Us Part**


Yeah  whatever
What a  joke

I look into my daughter's angelic eyes
Filled with hurt, misunderstanding, and frustration
Wishing I could make everything ok for her
Praying every moment of everyday

My little girl
I am so sorry you are being put through this hell
Know you are scared and unsure
My love will never change for you
Please don't worry

Silent tears she hides from everyone
Tries to make her daddy feel all is well
Attempts to make peace between us
Knowing it doesn't work

Walking around on eggshells
Afraid to do anything to make him angry
Thinking he will just leave if she does
I tried to tell him

She comforts me though right now there is no such thing
I comfort her, explaining  it will be ok
Huggs closely, whispering positive thoughts

If only the one would go away for awhile
Let things be
Everywhere we turn she is there
who is affected most

I would say me, but not its our little girl

I want to yell "he is mine back off'
If I thought it would help god I would do so
No ammuntion
she has it all

How do I compete?
What do I say?
Wishing answers would suddenly appear
Yet knowing it is impossible

Little girl its not your fault
Its mommy's and daddy's
We will pay everyday for the rest of our lives
Rest easy all will be better soon

How do I give you happiness
All you see is anger and sadness
I pray god will give me a sign
Some help
To help me raise my daughter

The night is so cold
Stars so bright
Can almost reach out and touch them

Moon magnificently round
Seems to touch the trees
Want to climb them and dance on the moon

The leaves have fallen
Yard full of glorious golds, reds and burnished brown
Watching the children jump into freshly raked piles

Smoke escapes from the chimneys
The smell of burning wood almost delicious
Imagining the heat

A walk down the street
Wind blows caressing your cheeks
The chill at the end brings on the goosebumps

Hearing people say this is the best time of year
I nod thinking to myself
Just being here with you is the best time for me

Standing on the porch inhaling the chill air
Deja Vous so thick I can taste it
Your arms on my shoulders caressing pulling close

I hear the whisper of the leaves
Or is that your voice
"Together forever my love"

Warmth consumes me
All seems right with the world
Tranquil and serene

Eyes wander to the moon once more
"Can you see it?" I whisper
"Footprints where dancers danced"

Nothing answers me
A horn blows and the dance ends
So vivid I could hear, smell and taste it

All gone now
Forever ending as quickly as it began
No witnesses except the eyes on the Moon

Hearts beat together

Be it one, two or three

One heart breaks away

Leaving the others to take its place

One needing more than just one heart

To beat a steady rhythm

One unable to exist with more than just one beat

Yet in unison so it seems

Hearts beat together

One needing more

One needing less

One caught in between

How do they return to the sychronicity?

Keep moving forward beating

Harder, faster, slower,

One ebbs

One flows

One dies, never to return

The rhythm is lost

But which heart loses the most

Written By: Niyahlove  All rights reserved

Darkness to Light

That night there was a horrible accident
He could feel himself fading into blackness
Now he is in the dark
Alone?
Nay I say there are many around him

He can hear them but not see due to the inky film
Whispers heard
Touches felt
He strains to awaken
Unsure of what is going on

He hears the crying and feels the tears upon his flesh
"Why are they crying" He says to himself
"I am here"
"I haven't gone anywhere"

Dreams overtake the voices
Seeing all his friends leaving notes on his page
"They think I am not here but I am"
"I can see how loved I am"
He sees the light this brings to the darkness

He can hear the prayers as each one is written
Light piercing through each time
Fight Ommos, Come back to us He hears
"I am trying" He says wishing they would hear

So dark, yet so comfortable
To awaken will bring pain
For now the darkness is helping
He tries to explain to us

It is darkest before the light
Energy and light are being sent
From all over the world
To a young man laying in darkness

We pray he awakens
Begging that God will bring him the healing light
Letting him out of the darkness
Please lord let him give a sign

Lord he is well loved, Ommos
You do not need him yet
He has so much more to do here
Allow the darkness to lift
Let us see our friend again

Hearing our prayers is the easy part
Feeling our energy is easy as well
Ommos you must fight and show a sign
We can only keep pestering you and we will
Until you awaken and come laugh and play with us once again

___________________
­


Niyahlove all rights reserved

The night is so cold
Stars so bright
Can almost reach out and touch them

Moon magnificently round
Seems to touch the trees
Want to climb them and dance on the moon

The leaves have fallen
Yard full of glorious golds, reds and burnished brown
Watching the children jump into freshly raked piles

Smoke escapes from the chimneys
The smell of burning wood almost delicious
Imagining the heat

A walk down the street
Wind blows caressing your cheeks
The chill at the end brings on the goosebumps

Hearing people say this is the best time of year
I nod thinking to myself
Just being here with you is the best time for me

Standing on the porch
Watching the moon as it sinks lower
Hearing the children screaming
As they play hiding go seek

Thoughts wander back to the day
Holding hands when our lips touched
A day similar to this one

Then finally spring came
You watched me walk down the aisle
There before God we made our vows

I stand here on the porch watching the moon and stars
Remembering the times not so far back
Wondering if you will ever think of them again

I watch your back
As you pick up your bags
Out the door and down the steps

The moon almost touching the trees
The stars so close
The breeze lifts my hair sending that old chill across my body

Like watching everything in reverse

The touch of softness
is a caress
Is it pleasant as bliss
Or as bitter as it tastes
The hand is flat
As the object is straight
The curve of the body
As steep as the mountain
The words as delicate
as the point of a needle
Patterns intricately weaved
The flesh beneath revealed
Chaos
Tranquility
Liveliness
Love
Death
Infinite pleasure

Written by:  Jennifer/Niyahlove all rights reserved

Beautiful                  Ordinary
Gorgeous                 Ugly
Extraordinary          Dull
Lovely                       Boring

Brooding                  Flighty
Overbearing            Naive
Monstrous               Caring
Wicked                     Innocent

Blossoming            Dying
Sultry                       Clumsy
Exceptional            Lifeless
Intoxicating           Repulsive

Revolting                Exquisite
Vengeful                 Loving
Grotesque              Radiant
Rageful                   Endearing

The news arrived today

That You would not return

Tears fall loudly from some

Softly from others

I see you watching us

Wishing to take the pain away

Knowing that you are missed

There will come a time

When we will realize

You are still with those of us you touched

Your smile and laughter

Your advice and praise

I take comfort from the sorrow

Knowing you are in heaven

Watching over those you loved here

Knowing you are with one

Who you lost years ago

You told me that

My tears of sorrow will dry

For they are selfish

You are in a much better place than us

And I can hear your laughter

And see your smile

You will be missed

By all


Written by Niyahlove all rights reserved

Devoniare was his name
He surely talked a fair game
Full of sweetness
Raging lust

For all to see
He spoke so eloquently
The ladies did swoon
As His voice crooned

He was a man you see
Just like the rest they say
But not to me
I was mesmerized
Caught in His spell

His darkness was intoxicating
His light blinding
He was both you see
At least to me

He came for me that night
Everyone wanted me to ignore his call
The evil inside him oozed
Like putrid pus from a wound

I could not see it though
Looked like an angel in the snow
He came for me when I did not answer
Needed my soul to feed his lust

As His voice crooned
His touch ignited
I saw a glimpse of the maggots
Pulling a knife

I prayed he would not see
As I pretended to still be in his spell
Flash of steele
Shriek of pain

Gurgling like a stream
A few gasps inbetween
His lungs filled with blood
As my hand held the knife

I gutted him you see
As he tried to kiss me
Shuddering as I dropped the knife
Coated in his wicked blood

Waking up screaming
"Oh thank you it was just a dream"
Looking down I see
My gown coated in red

Hands trembled
As eyes landed upon
That knife laying on the bed
On it's point was a bleeding heart

I screamed again and again
As I realized
It truly was the fight of my life
Won by me at a cost though

The cost for my soul was my innocence
Wonder if it was worth the price
Future will tell
One thing I won't forget
Is that putrid smell

He lived in darkness
Never to see the light of day
Nothing of his choosing
But here he would stay

Walking at night was his thing
As daylight would **** him dead
Out of the corner of his eye
A vision of purity blinded body, heart, and soul

"Who was this vision he had seen?"
"Wherest had she come from?"
"Were tricks being played?"
"Another thing to torture him more?"

Blending in dark as night he followed
The click of her shoes did little to silence
That tell tale drumbeat of her heart
Inhaling deeply an intoxicating scent

Hissing softly as every part of him began to burn
He disliked the human world
Having found nothing but pain and for
Much rather keep to the night

Living in the shadows
Feeding from low life
She, the female was different
He could smell the innocence

"You want her you know."
  "Shut up!  I do not."
"Oh I know you want her."
  "No."

Laughter fills his ears
Driving him insane
Hating that voice, that thing inside him
It was the evil inside his darkness

Usually he had a handle
Could keep it at bay
Yet when his desire rash hot
Darkness knew and found him vulnerable

The fight had gone on for years
Always able to keep that evil locked up
Rearing it's nasty head only when good happened by
He did want her, Oh blessed he wanted her

He could not go near never
To do so would doom them both
Her heart so pure called to his so black
Laughter echoed in his brain

She pulled the cloak tighter around her
Feeling the dark night surrounding
Like a beautiful lover's embrace
Someone was following

A look over the shoulder
Sparkling greens caught a shadow
Shivering, heart beating fast
Looking for help anywhere, had to be a light

Around the corner loomed a very large castle
Music played, lights ablaze
Feet danced over cobblestone
Hastening to safety

Not watching suddenly landing into strong arms
Skin flushed like the reddest rose
Rise and fall against the neck as blood pounded there
Gasping loudly, breathlessly apologizing

"Oh! Pardon me Sir, I was frightened and didn't see you."
  "No pardons necessary Mi'lady." "May I help somehow?"
"Might I impose on you help to get me home?"
  "It will be no imposition, the pleasure mine."

He could not have planned it better
Twas as though he had seen the future
When he caught her spotting him
He had maneuvered ahead to intercept

"I told you, you want her."
  "Shut up! Shut up! SHUT UP!!"
His brain on fire from that one evil part
He refused to hurt this delicate violet

His gloved hand lifted hers placing it around his elbow
Her smile was as brilliant as the quarter moon
Sheer white skin made the blue veins seem darker
His mouth salivated, he could feel his teeth shifting

"I said NO!" screamed in his head
They walked forward into the fire lit entry
Music playing, many were dancing
He was a gracious host, taking her cloak passing off to a servant

Her eyes were the greenest of oceans
Body fit his hands like a glove
Innocence shown all over her
Yet he could smell the passion burning beneath

She was intoxicating
He had the fiercest eyes
His body was so tight
Skin so pale

She felt her heart skip a beat as he pulled her closer
Having wondered what it felt like to be held by a man
Now she could not get him out of her mind
So much so she forgot about being stranded

The ball continued and she began to dance with him
They were made for one another
Every eye watched the fluid movements
He watched the pulse beat wildly in her throat

Oh to taste her, what bliss would it be
"****** No!" He wouldn't and couldn't
She knew something was different, sinister
Yet when he looked at her she would do anything to stay

Guests began to leave
He called for his carriage
He could see the disappointment in her eyes
But he was determined to take her home safely

He escorted her to the carriage and away they went
Arriving at her home he brought her to the door
He couldn't stop himself, leaning forward his soft lips pressed to hers

Her body pressed to his like he was her air
Nibbling, licking and nipping at each other's lips
His hand cupped her face he could feel her heart
He had to leave before it was to late

Suddenly he tasted her
A moan followed the sweet blessed warmth
Ohh such sweetness like nectar to a bee
She so pliant not a care or worry

He suckled more as his evil laughed hysterically
Must stop, you must
Fighting the evil that wanted more
Sealing the tiny tear in her lip he ended the kiss

"I must leave now Mi'lady."
  "So soon?" She was disappointed
"Yes now precious."
  "Will I see you again?"

He nodded yes but thought no inside
Watched as she went into the lit mansion
Entering his carriage he began to brood
She tasted like life itself, he needed her

His evil knew he would take her eventually
Just sit and bide his time
Of course he would make him suffer every day until
THAT day

To be continued

Written by Jennifer Humphrey all rights reserved
11/7/2014

The sun is shining
I wait with anticipation
Remembering the day we met
After a time
I went down on one knee
Asked you to be mine
Your eyes glistened with tears
As you said yes yes oh yes!

The music starts
All eyes look to the back
A vision in white, all sparkles and light
My eyes drink in the vision of you
Heart pounding, I could not breathe
So beautiful my love
I am the luckiest man alive
With you as my bride

You arrive at my side
I take your soft hands into mine
The preacher blesses us
Vows are said
"In sickness and in health"
"Until death do us part"

I lift that circle of infinity
My hand shakes as I slide that circle
Upon your slender finger
I feel the tremble in your hand
As you do the same to mine
"You may kiss your bride"
My lips press hard to yours
Sealing our commitment before all

We never know what our future brings
Time flies by as husband and wife
Our life together is full and complete
We have a child a blessing for certain
Years of bliss continue one after another
Suddenly a cloud arrives in our bliss
The doctors involved explain
It will be a fight for your life

I watch as you struggle
Fighting so hard
Not wanting to leave us or this world
Another blessing we are given
Oh thank God all is clear
Once again our life is sailing smoothly
Happiness surrounds us

A new cloud arrives over our heads
We do all the right things
But our hearts fill with dread
The doctors news fills our world with darkness
No sunlight in view
I watch you fight again
Harder this time

He says there is nothing to be done
I am supposed to just watch you drift away
Everyone we know sends us prayers every day
A miracle is wanted, no it is needed
Twenty seven years is just not enough
Watching you grow sicker
Yet always smiling for me
Hanging on to give us more time

After a spell you finally say
It is time my love
Til death do us part has finally come
My world is shattered, my heart broken
Our love is so pure, strong, and enduring
Asking God to spare you once more

I remember the day I made you mine
Placing that beautiful circle upon your finger
You do the same to mine
Now you sleep like an angel
Though this time you will not awake again
Tears flow freely as my heart breaks in pieces

Looking down on you
As you are in your final bed
So beautiful as always
I take that circle you gave me
Never had it been removed
Once again taking your hand into mine

"Til death do us part" has come
Slipping my ring upon your finger
Once again I cannot even breathe
Wanting you to keep our symbol with you
Knowing when I join you
One day in the distance
You will give it back to me again
Joining us in eternal bliss

I don't know how I will go forward
Move on day to day
All I feel is emptiness
A weight drowning my heart
I feel the sun shining upon my face
Clouds try to smother it to dark

The warmth touches my cheek
A whistle of air flows through the trees
Knowing you are there watching over me
As you wait for your groom to join you
I will be there one day my love
Meanwhile just watch over me

Til death do us part
Truer words have never been spoken


Witten by Jennifer Humphrey all rights reserved 2014

Screams are tormenting my brain
I so badly need to let it out
It cannot be
No

Trying to keep it together
Not showing the slashes inside
Rivers of cuts
Drowning me

Screams tear at my insides
Wanting to come out
Needing a place to escape
Lost in the pooling blood
Edges becoming black

Head pounds
No more stimulus can be handled
Nothing else can I take
Another ounce of pressure will break me

Screams, Screams, Screams**
What else can I do
Stifling then noise
Sitting on the pain
The darkness is coming

Feel faint as I cough
Gurgling as the blood pours
Gasping for air
Wanting nothing more than to

S
C
R
E
A
M

Still unable to let it out
Consumed by the fear, anxiety and pain
Laying against the bed
Face blue, sheet red

Finally the scream released
But only to find my death

Don't
Don't ask her how she is
or tell her how she should be

Don't tell her it is ok

Don't tell her time will heal all
or tell her it gets better day by day

Don't tell her the pain will ease
and tell her not to cry

Don't ask her what is wrong
or why she is so off key

Don't tell her You love her

Tears will dry
Heart will heal

Love will die
Spirit will fade

Things will change
They always do

She loves
Feels
Learns

She isn't blind
Dumb
Or cruel

You want to help her?

You want to help her?

Then don't
Ask
Say
Tell
Or do

Most of all just


DON'T


Written By:  Niyahlove aka niyah2 revised 3/09/10
all rights reserved

The ring is removed

All has changed
Dedicated to one another
Now there is nothing

She watches in amazement

As the ring is removed from her friend
As others laugh like it is a happy time

When the tears in his eyes and hers
Shows all the memories
She thinks what type of person smiles at a time like this
What motivates them
She continues to watch

The pain in their faces
The ring is tossed away
The symbol tarnished

And they laugh
Finally she realizes
the ones that laugh
Are the ones that have never felt the pain

The pain of loss
The pain of betrayal
The pain of hopelessness
The pain of malice

These are the ones that only inflict that pain
having never once had the tables turned
Lowers her head in shame
Feeling deeply for the one
whose ring was thrown away

Written By:  Niyahlove All rights reserved

Words appear letter after letter

At first small words like hello and goodbye

Then questions how are you what do you like

Time spent more letters forming words

eyes watching looking following the letters

begin to be read with feeling

The feeling begins to grow

Both now watch the letters and the words

Both feel their pulse race when the name forms on the screen

Anticipating the arrival of the words

Looking for them everyday

needing them

Finally the words say I love you

The words back I love you to

The emotions with just a few letters on a screen

No pictures,

No face to face

Strictly letters just like these

Only those that know the strength of words here

Have any clue what this means



Written by :  Niyahlove All rightsreserved

Don't tell me you love me
I just don't want to hear it anymore

Don't tell me you need me
I can't help you again

Don't tell me you want me
I won't keep listening to your lies

Don't tell me to stay
I have watched you walk away far to many times

Don't tell me she doesn't matter
I wish she did not but if not for her we would be ok

Don't tell me you made a mistake
I know you will just turn around and repeat it

Don't tell me you want another chance
I can't trust you for round two

Don't ask my forgiveness
I already gave it and you tossed it away

Don't ask to come back to my bed**
I knew hers would not be comforting

The waves crash down

against the rocks

The sound is deafening

The wind moans through

the trees like a

woman calling

The clouds slip by through

the clear blue sky

The air is crisp

The leaves rustle

She stands on the cliff

She can feel the spray

from the water

She can feel the bite

of the wind

She can taste the salt

on her lips

She can hear the moans of

the winds

and the cries of the sea

The sun shines down on her

face trying to stop the tears

that flow

She watches as the leaves hit

the water and as

the angry sea ***** them down

She falls to her knees

and slides to her side

she cries

she moans

but no one hears

The sea cries to loud

and the wind howls even louder

She is

Alone

I can see you standing there in the dark, oh yeah
You think you are hiding, oh yeah
Blending into the darkness, oh yeah
But I can see you, I can hear you, I can feel you
Many fear you as they can't figure you out
I know what you are now oh yeah
You're a secret, a ***** secret
Cowering in the dark
Praying no one will figure you out
But I have oh yeah I have
You try to hurt as many as you can
But I won't let you, no I won't let you hurt me or mine
***** secret in the shadows you are running out of time
You keep changing, trying to slip away
Clinging to the darkness, not realizing the light keeps reflecting off your shiney black veil oh yeah
Puddles of night ooze drip to the ground leaving a trail for me
I will find you, yes you better run harder
You won't lose me, like so many others
I will find you , yes I will
Find you and decode you, getting into your head
Don't try to rest in bed because I am coming before you hurt some more
I won't let you oh don't worry I won't let you
Growing closer, getting closer, going to find you and play your game
If you are lucky you will begin to drift away.
If you are not lucky then I will be
My teeth will penetrate your evilness tearing at your dark heart
My fingers will pull off the evil veil as your black blood spews all over
You have nowhere to run now you ***** secret
Destroyer of lives
I have caught you, yes caught you, in your darkness
You thought you were safe, that no one would travel here
But oh yeah, oh yeah yes I did
You are almost dead now unable to hide your secret
If only everyone could see your make up before your minions destroy us all
They don't know what to look for, but I do oh yeah
I will keep hunting, every day, every night, until I find you all
Free the oppressed from the darkest form of evil
You the SECRET!!!!!
Written by: Niyahlove pen name of.  Jennifer Humphrey
                       August 22, 2014