My Throat Red And Raw,
I Am Drinking From The Sea,
My Reflection Blurred,
Frigid Yet Soft Like The Stars,
My Eyes Dark And Vacant*
My Fists Are Clenching,
Trembling In Waning Light,
I'm Thinking Of You,
For I've Dreamed Of You Again;
A Pale, Lonely Memory
You Are Small And Frail,
Wrapped In A Plaid Comforter,
Tears Roll Down Your Cheeks;
You Were Thinking Back To Me,
When Your Hell Had Just Began
I'm Biting My Lip,
While Watching The Leaves Recoil,
I Am Fidgeting,
Taping My Pen Rhythmically,
Trying To Distract Myself
I Breathe In Deeply,
My Heart Is Beating Too Fast,
I Gently Touch You,
You Turned To Look In My Eye,
You Murmured,"Why Are You Here?"
I Rub My Forehead,
My Palm As Cold As The Air,
I Stare At The Ground,
My Thoughts Are Disorganized,
Strewn Around, Pictures Of You
I've Jumped In The Sea,
Your Sad Eyes Have Seen Me Off,
For Some Strange Reason,
I Don't Feel Satisfaction,
Only A Hint Of Pity
I Do Feel Relieved,
Not Because You Have Crumbled,
But Because I'm Free,
I Am Free From Your Strained Grasp,
For You Had Said That One Word
*Goodbye
Hmm, Take It How You Want.
All I Needed Was A Goodbye<3
Step 4 Towards Self Forgiveness:
I've Realized That My Past Actions Did
Not Only Affect Me.. And Those Actions
Had Pushed Someone Down A Path Which
Lead Them To Hell On Earth.. That Is What
I Had Wanted In The Beginning, I Was Bitter--But Now
That I've Seen That It's Actually Happened,
I Am Not Relieved--I'm Petrified
I Had Been Drinking The Darkness Of The Sea,
Dwelling On My Twisted Reflection,
When Really I Should've Been Swimming To
New And Better Prospects--Than Soaking
In The Ancient Waters Of Pain.