Unwanted

Unwanted Sep 2014

Hope

Hope was the burning fire
that kept her alive on the dark lonely nights
on a island named depression

Then a gust of Hate
blew her fire out

and when her fire went out
she saw an escape off the island
called suicide

Sep 2014

heather leather

The Girl With The Straight A's and Bright Future

she was a fallen angel
too cracked to be put back together
and too broken to even care

nobody knew that she was crying every night
and that her bubble was popping
nobody read the dark poetry
and nobody saw the twisted soul
all they saw were the straight A’s and the bright future
nobody saw what it took to get there

it had taken her happy life and marred it with
constant disapproval
and with constant comparison
why is he getting better grades than you?
why did she get first place?
at one point she just stopped caring

They saw her on the street
taking a long drag wearing the same clothes she used to frown upon
they looked at her with pity and wondered
what happened to the girl with straight A’s and a bright future?

Her pretty face was destroyed by piles of makeup
and all her memory was in the cupboard that had all the Jack Daniels
her trophies were somewhere in a stranger’s home; she had sold it
when she couldn’t pay rent
and all everybody asked was
what happened to the girl with straight A’s and a bright future?
maybe they’d get an answer if they had asked
what happened to her happy life and her spirit?
what happened to her pretty face and where’s her bible now?
but they never asked that
no they’d never asked that
so her happy life and her spirit were torn apart by a demon called hope
it had killed everything inside
and her pretty face has aged with wrinkles caused by piles of makeup
her bible was the guy on the corner
that sold the stuff that was killing her inside

but all they ever asked was
what happened to the girl with straight A’s and a bright future?
well, she had died
(h.l.)

i've written a lot of poems and never put them on here so this is an old one actually

Sep 2014

Faith

fragility

when I first met him
I was not fragile
I was a lion, brave and proud
yet, I was a lamb
innocent and docile
searching for love in the wrong places

he turned the lion in me into a coward
the lamb was slaughtered
the only thing left was a tiny soul
shattered and broken, scared of loving ever again
hiding and shivering in the abyss

then you came along
a light in the darkness
you reached out a gentle hand
shaking with uncertainty, I took it
you led me out of the dark, filled my empty shell with love
I am not a lion, nor a lamb
with you, I am a fawn
shy and uncertain

there's a wolf inside you, dear
neither violent nor vicious
your teeth are sharp, but they do not ****
you protect me
and you make this fragile soul feel a little less vulnerable

#love #hurt #heartbroken #healing

Sep 2014

Alexis

The Wizard of Oz

Thrown on a map by a force I don't know
with a body that's able
and my head's not too slow
Did He do it on purpose?
is he even a He?
Am I crazy to question the origin of Me?
I sense something bigger than my hands could ever hold
something strong and powerful
and often very cold
Maybe "God" is the word
But I'm not quite so certain
Don't pay attention to the man behind the curtain

Unwanted Sep 2014

Believe

You always say you want me to leave
and that you don't want to hurt me
that you don't want to bring me down
because your falling

What you don't understand is
that i wont fall
I have a strong foundation in God
strong enough to hold the both of us
and you wouldn't be falling
if you stopped jumping off

Stop pretending your not happy
stop pretending you don't feel joy
you can feel
but you wont admit its real
you cant admit your getting better
your pain comforted you like a wool sweater
but there is something better
something that doesn't make you lie
something that will be with you all the time
something that is right there waiting for you to open your eyes
you would see if you tried

but you have to choose to stand with me
neither me or God can make you believe
make you see
there is still good in you
you have a home
but you have to open your eyes
and see on your own

Unwanted Sep 2014

The Parable Of the Fallen Angel

Once upon a time there was a wounded angel
it fell from heaven
and couldnt fly back because its wing was broken

So it sat there
looking around for a sign of what to do
it stayed there for days
It was starving and needed food
he looked to his left and saw a farm in the distance

He got up and limped towards it
he asked the farmer for some food
but he didnt seem to care
"What can you do for me?"
"A fallen angel can't do anything."
but the angel begged and pleads
to the farmer for anything
"You can work for me."
so the angel agreed
he lived in a horse stall
with the horse
for 3 years he fed the horse
and took some food for himself to eat
he started to forget he was an angel
and he had wings
he forgot he was a chosen person of God
He started to believe as the farmer preached
a mouse watched the whole thing
he walked out to the angel
and inspected his wings
he saw they where healed
and told the angel of these things
but for months he wouldnt believe
he told the mouse to leave
reminded him he could be free
but the mouse stayed
and tried to get him to see
the mouse slowly but surely
got the angel to believe
it flew back to heaven
and told God about the mouse that gave him back his wings
God blessed the mouse
He said,"I will give you anything."
but the mouse refused
he didnt need anything
he was happy with his life
no matter what the angel believed
God agreed
and saved the mouse a place in heaven
for when he would leave his earth life
and the mouse and God would officially met