You wished we stayed in contact.
You wished we kept in touch.
But there’s two sides to every story.
And I did my best to be by your side love.

K
I remember the party
where I was bullied to ****.
No adult came to help
I was left alone to deal with it.

L and D
I remember the group chat
I thought it was strangely late.
But it had been premeditated
That they wanted me to commit suicide that day.

The young boy carries the bucket with lots of colourful fish inside.
Whilst his father coughs up his habit and begins to trail behind.

The child calls back for reassurance “can we do this tomorrow dad? At the same time?”
The man smiled weakly and began to cry.
“Of course we can, now hold your old man’s hand”.

The boy now a man, looks up from the photograph of him and his Da, and says to his partner “that was the last time… the last time we went fishing”.

You said you had a secret to tell me.
But your mother had asked you not to say.
She had said how idiotic I’d been,
for taking the pill at a young age.

Let me be the first to tell you,
how enraged I was that day.
I looked the infected girl in the eye,
And said “my body, my choice”.
There’s nothing more to say.

I get the call.
I get denied.
I go again
but it’s different this time.
I strip and wait
to see if they find
something about my body that they like.

I get sent the script.
I learn my lines.
I put on a new face
and don’t recognise mine.
The following minute she’s on the stage
under the spotlight soaking up the appraise.

When the audience applaud
and the last curtain falls.
I take a deep breath and smile at it all.

Before I went to university,
Before I went on to follow my dreams.
My partner at the time, proposed to me.
And I thought it was strange the ring didn’t fit me.

When I flew the nest,
I felt so grown up.
I made some new friends,
who I grew to love.

When I came back home,
I would tell so many stories anew.
My fiancés’ blue eyes began to change into a monstrous hue.
It was from the moment the jealousy began to bloom.

The ring was refitted.
It felt tight.
Like I couldn’t breathe.
Something just didn’t feel right.

When he stayed at my place,
I was so excited to be
with the love of my life…
And he ***** me.

My wings snapped.
Under his weight.
I couldn’t get up,
I couldn’t fly away.

I cried beneath him.
Murmuring “please stop”.
I thought you loved me.
I guess you never loved me at all.

After it was over,
I looked you in the eyes,
And said that you ***** me
You shook your head and denied.

You said why don’t we get out,
go and grab something to eat?
I felt too nervous to say no,
so I simply agreed.

That evening you took
me out in the dark.
You sped through country lanes
I begged for you to stop.

I was trying to guess
your next move.
And you took me to a place
that I never seen with you.

I was 19 when I was in the darkness with you.
I was so scared about what you were going to do.

When I tell this story,
I can barely pull through.
They say that I lied,
even though I told the truth.