Finally I am ready for the next
Too long it has taken
Yet I would settle
Is that loneliness or is it love?

Within a heartbeat I would return
Am I afraid of more pain
Or is it more?
Something we will never know

I am not the same
I was happy, alone but content
Waiting for something special
Then from no where
I found you and your little smile
Waiting for me to write

The fastest 3 months
I have been through
Was with you, in all my life
During that time I waited,
I found 'Someone Else'
Similar, yet better in hindsight

Still ... 3 more months I had to wait
6 months in total just to see her smile
And eventually we met
Something was right
Too much expectation
Not enough fight

This door closed abruptly
All of a sudden
My cousin was right
With this slamming door
To my damaged heart
A window opened

That 'Someone Else'
Reappeared
And showed me
What was right,
How to hold her hand
How to make it feel right

You then left me
Not your fault or mine
I missed you
The second your hand left mine
Sleep was hopeless
It couldn't escape my mind

3 months later
Which is this point in time
What a year it has been
A hurtful one which
Made me wait for 2 people
Who were never mine

I need to stop
Thinking the way I do
Wondering what do
I can't do with staying
In this blue

Of course I do
Your eyes,
Your hair,
And everything you do

Most of all
Your smile
Which you seem to hide
From clear view

What do I do
But for now
I will just say
.. I miss you ..