just tell me
that a maybe is in my reach
i preach and i pray
that one day ill be better
ill get the last laugh
ill pass that good grass
ill clear my head
and find
the
promise
land

when i get tired
true vibrations
marky mark
and my funky ****
you say its bunk
one hit
and you on the top bunk
bunk beds as kids
jumpin matress to matress
now i dream of a girlfriend and a mistress
when we all kiss
i ******* first kiss
i want but i cant have
your with a better man
i was a lost cause
and i know
i listned i learned i taught myself not to
hurt
not to hurt
but to say shes doing better
cross my heart and hope to stunt
cuz
i aint
no punk

to my friends
ya we kick it alright
but my bar stool a bit wobbly
i wobble around
get wierd texts
they say
men your crazy
reply ya i know
i love yall
when i get down in minnestoa
we all high rollers
casinos and free shots
i see your faces
when im alone
we are family so true

I was a lost puppy
looking for a warm blanket and a mommy
you wrap me in your arms
and tell me im your best
or even better then your last best
you've told that fib before
but your lips tell me sweet nothings
and your hair brushes on my shoulder
im your soldier
and your my mission
ill devide and conquer
and ill make you call my ****
the big monster
you fear
the big monster
you fear

Fall for me
let your body
fall to my bed
fall into my hands
I kiss your forehead
and tell you that
your my world
but im not foolish
not jumping threw a ring of fire
but your eyes
seductive desire
and your body is pure fire
Im the pen your the paper
let me lay my ink on you dear

As I sit I here the snow melting
the gutters from around the block
singing
the light mist
covers my glasses
and the smoke cloud follows
steps passing by
another day on fly
Talk to me nature
Soften my calased hands
and spit me into the future
pure bliss
fresh snow
a slow walk
on a short road

Time to get untop
Been drug down
and stepped on
im untop now
and your being smashed on
Use to say my **** was alright
Now you callin me every night
I get my **** hard
cause you bout to break my bed board
your *** so fat it looks like a fat kids face stuffed with cake
and **** can you make dat *** shake
its almost terrifying like that anaconda typa snake
so yeah im smokin and ashin on your back and them ****** jigglin
So they ain't fake
for gods sake
For gods sake for gods sake

Both of us are chasing after the butterfly
We each see its beauty flying
we see its wings fluttering
We see it majesticly floating in the sky
but one has a net
but I oh I
know how to catch you miss butterfly
The spider always wins
with its web
ill catch you off gaurd
and ill watch your beauty
tangled in my web

After this
kiss
All things will change
after this
kiss all things will change
why I say why
does a kiss lead to heartbreak

Girls girls girls
women women women
ladies ladies ladies
I hope your all forgiven
too long have I been
suduced and played
too long have I paced this hallway
too long have I punched the wall till my knuckels bled
I can follow the knuckle marks threw each realtionship
or what I thought were relationships
a hole sank the titanic
so this hole in my heart
keeps sinking me
will anyone step in and plug it
So I can float the beauitful ocean again

I use to believe in love and fate
But now its all about the game we all play
no ballroom dancing or good dates
No more meeting at the malt shop or at the movie gate
its more let's get drunk
****
and forget about eachother
A world of each person whoreing the next person out
oh how I wish i lived in the old days
Where holding hands ment something
and heart breaks were spilt over milkshakes

Wonderland
Where I look for you
your time peice you hang unto
old and rusty the chain looks
as if it will snap in any secondw
as the seconds run short
I find you running into a hole
white rabbit
your fur shines
as the time ticks
I swallow the liquid posted drink me
as I indulge the taste
time stops
and soon
were running
Running
running
Running
white rabbit
who's beating time

As the moment grows near
I picture her fine rear
As im drivin I 35 eyes too the rear
I see my old life miles away
And when I reach that door
You best believe
ill be picturing how much of a lil *****  ill make her tonight
As im just slow talking
and pouring wine
I picture her kissing my neck and whispering my name
oh yeah this time ain't the same
it means more then ****** and forgettin the name
She a kinda girl I stay to the morning for

So stoked
Dry spell done
Met a good one
not in the bar
threw hard work and dedication
she amazing
and ya were just texting
But a connection sparked
Like a eagle scout
I chipped away rock to flint
Now I see her
and its picture perfect

I kissed you on the hand
as our toes digged deep in the sand
I kissed your naval
and again
and again
and again
we rolled in the tide
and I felt your skin on mine
Naked and free
naked and free

We were all out there
Reachin out for a hand
A master plan
a way of knowing how
To grasp the upper hand
but did we even think
To dig down
get the courage too get up
brush ya self off
And look up
The sky is the limit sweet angel
So let your wings take you to distant stars
because that's exactly whatchu are

A old gentleman in a bar was sitting next to a very beat up man this tattered man He wore no shoes
He smelled
He was soaking wet and looked very pale.
The old gentleman bought the  man a beer
and ask him what his story was
the man told him that he was once a successful buissness owner
a man of high class and standard.
He wore the finest clothes,
wore the most beautufl jewelry,
and went on amazing journeys.
The old gentleman began to laugh
he sipped his drink
looked over the man and asked him what happened
the man told him that he was driving out in the country comming home from a buissness meeting
He said he had been drinking and reached for his scotch when he
looked up
his car swirved in the lake
water seaped in
He said " water came rushing in so fast"
the old gentleman looked down at his beer
looked up
and the man was nowhere to be seen
he asked the bar keep if he saw where the man went
the bar keep insisted that the old gentleman was crazy that he saw the old gentleman  talking to himself...
suddenly
The old Gentleman heard a voice over the television " Good evening we have breaking news it appears that Lyon Lemon Owner of Inka Industries has gone missing. Police have recovered his viechle but with no trace of Lyon inside it. They've issued scuba divers to search for the Lyons body. We will keep you posted on this story.

The old gentleman suddenly felt quezzy and uneasy. His lips dried, his skin went clammy, and his hair stood on the back of his neck. He knew he had seen Lyon not moments ago in the bar. The old gentle dropped a handfull of silver and paper on the counter and rushed out.

Javier Timble once a Master Con Artist and a Cheat was now the one being fooled and tricked with. He knew the game that was being played on him and he was to have no part of being set up for a ******. Timble was shakened but was far from scared. As he walked out the bar he noticed wet footprints. But they were forming as if someone was walking. Timble again felt the rush of adrenline come into his heart he began to mutter to himself and wonder what kind of trick this was. Javier stepped slowly towards the footprints and noticed that there was letters forming on the wall to the right of him. slowly the words formed out to say "InKa"

When we speak
in whispers
Shh and fingers to the lips
so we speak to speak
But listen do we really
confused looks
tired eyes
my pillow seems nice
where my mind can rest
of all the chitter chatter

Im so scared of showing my friends my writings
as I sit here alone and just type
I realize im missing out on showing my family
what words I speak
over these little lit up letters on my phone sparkle
I see them form into beautiful paragraphs
and I wonder
what if they read this
would they laugh
or would they cry
because my online friends
seen this before they did?

I faught back my words
In my brain I twist and turn
untill iam like your outta my league
just a man wanting to take his chances
take the hard talk
and say girl
you got something
that baby I want
it drives me crazzzy
Cuz I always wanna call you baby

So I wrote a letter to my heart
I said hey how you doing
Asked about the weather all that sweet ****
I said friend
what's going down
how's the life

and what makes you proud
it wrote back
what makes me proud
is when a person speaks up
and gets loud

The moon blasts threw my window and covers me like a glaze doughnut
I want to take its beauty and bath in its glory.
my women dances naked infront of me
all of her glistening and the moon is jealous.
its light can only touch her skin.
while my hands can feel all of her.
I leave the window open
so the wind can blow her hair around
while I run my dry hands over her smooth skin.
I grab her neck and whisper things in her ear.
that only the spiders and there webs can catch.
for we are alone
dancing naked.
Being in love
And riding on the edge
******* the world
one sweat drop at a time
her world and my world collide

I came to you in a dream
my fingers bleed
writin you
invisble letters
people read
No one knows me here
while I lay in a unknown house
slowly memories creep on me
memories of holding hands
and popcorn
and popcorn
and popcorn

I swept you away
cliches
flowers and love yous
kisses and love letters

Make me believe
in this once again
say you miss me
a farewell
is a greeting
touch my hand
touch my soul
see my eyes
see me
please

Clean up this mess
when alone we cry
clean me up
like my ***** hands

I soak up your filth
im a dream weaver
I slap myself
is this real

Do I dream of me untop of you
scream my name again
call me lovely
call me darling

When we were cool
smokin cigs
when we were cool
tellin eachother love could be found
I drowned in them promises
and I was swept
like a flood to the cities
you came to me in a pretty sky
our lies were true
and you here me
while your alone at night.

When the world gave up
I hid behind my covers
my sheets
tucked in for the world not to see

the beautifulside of me
I cryed out too you
I was like baby
im a new person
a different leaf
a different type of storm a new root
that can grow
a new tree that was once cut
but now I've found
my way back
my way back too
you
you

Call me weird or twisted
but I like myself some nasty *******
toss them around like im cleaning dishes
they are all easy fishes in a barrel
I roll em around till they call me collin ferrel
im a skinny lil *******
I can hog tie a girl without a lasso
firemans carry into my den
Where i treat em like a rooster to a hen.
spank there *** and say that was fun
do it again?

The smoke suffocates the mosquitoes
buzzing around me
toes in the grass
burning down trees
Hello goodbyes
as the fire crackels
bits of ash dance in the air
I put my longneck up to my lips
and listen to the air sweet sweet bliss
a friend cracks open another swissher
and I think to myself....
that girl over there I think ill kiss her
tonight.

When will it be enough
when will the lil red dot with a number in it be satisfying
when will it be enough
when will we go back to talking to people
sharing words
being embarrassed for real
not hiding behind a computer screen
when will it be enough
when we turn off the computer and see the glare of our own selves looking back.
computer screen oh computer screen who's the fairest of them all.
like a wishing well we just toss our random thoughts out
hoping someone will move there mouse and click like.
fake emotions
at the touch of a mouse

My body laughs tonight
it giggels and wiggels
As the goose pimpels form all over it.
laying in the grass checking out the freckels of mother nature
Feeling her sweat
the dew tickels my neck.
I run my hands threw my hair
and the static electricty sends a dancing
Dandelion head into my palms
I think,
what would it be like to float around like that
falling into peoples hands,hair,and wherever else the wind takes me.
I smell the approach of a storm
where ill here the music of earth
here right now im smiling
without saying a word.

In your warmth
skin to skin
in your mouth
is where I begin
slow kisses
and cheap moves
Zip
a slow move down to remove your pants
like a trap you grasp me
fingur tips touching
panting and loving
where do I begin
The sins id unleash on you
lust and gluttony
because I feed on your love
Slap my face
take me into your secret place

Sirens and drunk laughter
outside my window
burnt ciggerete butts
Empty cases
outside my window
no flowers grow
outside my window
only people peeing
outside my window
***** ***** **** traffic
no white fence
outside my window
a group of lowlifes
junkies and *******
outside my window
wouldn't mind seeing a garden
or a hot girl tanning
outside my window
Walk outside
****** and drunk person
puking
outside my window
moving soon moving soon moving soon
where ill see a backyard outside my window

Like a rose
beautiful at the top
but thorns cover its stem
for being pretty is the same way
your glory is at your top the part that people see
But underneath your twisted and sharp.
you make people believe your pretty and harmless
but keep a eye out for the thorns you hold
the pain of catching your wondering fingre without looking.
like the rose
Pretty at the top

Finding your dreams
at the bottom of a bottle.
leaves screams and tossing of that bottle
Broken glass
I watch the ***** flow down the wall
I watch my reflection shimmer
in the peices of glass.
I see the tears about to fall.
does this ring a bell
same call same place.
I see you
I see you
I see you
a chuckle
I see you
the devils best medicine for a never forgetting mind
tip back that bottle one more time.
the medicine in my viens
forgetting the pain that was left
when I cut my finger the first time on the shattered glass.

Majestic
musical
mayhem
Oh how we dance again.
chaos like a slow ballroom dance
Creeps up in silence.
I see your moves oh dear foe
and yes I don't dance on your toes
for I know this routine
I know how you roll
your obviois attempts at seeming unknown
only make you appear like light in the smoke.

I washed my hands clean
under the sink
I watched as the dirt went down the drain
like my love for you.
I washed my hands clean
I washed and washed untill my hands became sore
I yelled never more never more
I washed my hands clean of you
and the dirt you brought to my once clean heart.

sittin in the diner
watching people talk and chat
eves dropping on the **** they care about
sittin in the diner
faces laughing
Silverwear ringing
Chit chat
Sitting in the diner
waiting for the food
just like waiting for a love
to chit chat
while we sit in the diner

As we spoke and touched
electricity
when we were silent
bright
I saw your eyes I saw the light
pause
sweet love
sweet love
I kiss
I melt
I fall inlove
silent kiss
silent night
silent moans
silent night

As I walked amongst theives
trying to steal my heart away
I sent out a dove
to carry my heart away
when the dove landed I knew it found its place
for it was always open
like a key to the safe.
When I awoke from a deep dream
I found it gone
for my dove was captured
on the rock it landed on.

she grasped her daddys hand as they walked
daddy told daughter that he loved her and he'll try and call her everyday
he said make sure when im gone you send me a photo on your birthday
send me a picture when you do something great
and please please dont give your mommy to much trouble
she promised daddy and they gave their secret handshake
well daddy told daughter you cant follow me no longer
daughter cryed
daddy wiped each falling tear from her eyes
each were like a torpedo hitting his already sinking ship
he the the fear in his daughters clinched fists
her shiverring lips
he hates to put her through with this ****
he curses god in his head
and his feet feel like his dragging a bag full of led
as the handcuffs get locked on
and the door shuts behind him
he knows that he will never see his daughter running in the grassy meadow they once played in
he knows he will never get to lay around and eat candy and watch cartoons till they both got yelled at mom to get ready
his hearts so heavy
he should've never went out on that night
he should've never put the key in the car and drove
because hes not the only one feeling like this
theres another man
that will never get to do the same things with his daughter

we speak of truth and of heart
when the truth is we dont know how to settle our rambling hearts
they speak of curiousty and merit
they make us wear it
some on our sleeves
other bend to there knees
to feel relief to hear it speak
its simple elegant and a true remark
so let it roam and tangle
in the webs of life
dont worry we all will hear one day
the truth of the heart is a foriegn tounge
speeks so strong
all i know is to smoke
the sound away
laying down
dreaming of the next day
we sing
we preach
while the heart sleeps
while we fade
and fade
and fade my dear
a vibrant melody
a lushish trance
hows the heart dance
a beautiful earthquake that quivers
and quivers
the soul of the human race
with each morning wake and each nights rest
the heart oh how it dances

I get *** 24/7
I pick up fat girls
skinny girls
both young and old
I like men too both young and old
I here every word
that comes out your lips, tounge, and cheaks
I sit around like a creep and just watch as you sit
I occasionally eat a little bird ****
but I repay with a sliver in your wrist
now you gotta complain and ***** about what I did
I've gone down in history as something truly important
people have sat and planned things I felt the first peice of cement fall from 9/11
I've been the first person to here about the wedding ring
Heard about the death of your mother or father before your family did
But I'll be here to sit your tired legs
I'll comfort you
I'll cherish every moment spent with you
I'll never kiss and tell
I"ll be your shoulder to cry on or your ear when you wanna yell
even though you'll look crazy
I'll never make fun of you
or send you away
thanks for stopping by
just feed the pigeons and watch them sit and play

A young man was once feared of being called gay
so he went out for baseball and every other sport boys played
he tryed hard in gym, became homecomming king, and went through the birds and the bees
he even had the ladies crawling back on thier knees
he joined the army
he would be the most masculine example he would imagine he was happy
but deep down he feared he still might be gay
he had a way about him that other people caught unto
they noticed he'd make rings and such in his free time
just because the boy liked to sew
and make prettys things that would shine and glow
he figured he had a touch of ****
he figured because he liked bright things
and occasionally would watch a few chick flicks and cry
that he was'nt man enough
that he was'nt tough enough
because in america boys dont cry
thier taught to hold there feelings inside
and soon this man was withered and old
and through the years he gave up on the bright things
he figured he'd rather be unhappy then thought of as gay
so the day that he was on his deathbed
he finally admitted it

I send lil paper ships sailing down the curb
as the crows and the vultures attack the trashcans in the suburbs
I watch the rich kids driving there nice whips
but they are a bunch of wimps
one punch in there lip
one kick in the knees
and they'd just limp away
because even though im a poor kid
ive lived more life
even though they call me skid
even though im a skinny kid
id still bust all over your girlfreinds ****
and in the black light she would shine like a florecent lightbulb
while your sitting on your golf cart
im making **** noises on the belly of your women
making her my mistress
making the matress squeak
as my lil paper ship sails down
who would've known what was happening when i was making it
now were both laughing
because when you get home
your gonna be kissing my ****
ha
ha
ha

lookin and staggerin
drinking and hollerin
spillin and trippin
a mess
got a lil puke on my left cheak
and dude can barely speak
look like a serious creep
but into the bar I go
right across from the AA Club what a ****** joke
how the hell do you exspect me to feel good drunk
thinking about all those sober punks
drivin new cars, clean cut, and got wifes with big butts
the only butts ill be seein tonight are the end of my cigs
what a pathetic guy
i here a girl whisper
2 stools down sittin by some handsome guy
so I finish my bottle of wine
walk over
look her straight in the eyes
and tell her shes right

Her hair fell on my bare ***
as we laughed
and diped out on class
I gave her a true teaching
while she was sleeping I nibbled
and slowly paced myself up her left leg
on to the ******
where her mouth dribbled
and I know when I hit the right spot cause she gave a slight giggle
when I told her that teach was about to preach
she kinda geeked out a little bit
as the pink came into veiw of my eyes
her thieghs quivered
and she called me Ron Burgundy the way I played her flute
I put my right hand over her lips
and then put both my hands on her hips
as the honey dripped
as the honey dripped
what a lovely trip
one ride we both will never forget

I sit and wonder on this moldy deck
who will be next
to fight fire with fire
who will stand up to this brutal infection thats spreading like wild fire
fake *******
fake talkers
fake enough to feed more *******
to your open ears
con artists slick haired demons
and like a used car salesman
they speak into your ear
make sure you here and believe them
then you dipout with a broken promise
and even more hatred in your heart
and now im about to burn all the ******* down
open gas tank in one hand
stream following my trail
with a lit match and a middle fingure up
saying **** your slick tounge
and your jumping eyes
lies
lies
lies
feel my fire
feel true desire
this is what happens when you meet a *******
that doesnt take **** or get ****** with
now the kerosene burns as i lean against this beat down bench
i tell the match to go fetch as it lands on the gas
all i can say is you better haul ***

One hand over my hungover temple
as I stumble and crash over pizza boxes and dried klenexes
Im a perverted soul
with a taste of *** and cheap ***** on my mustache
I roll another cig with my dry tounge
and push aside the ugly women I managed to take home last night
she smells as horrible as the rotten milk in the fridge
and It's so funny how my life has come
from being a high person in society
to a peice of **** stuck on the bottom of a loose cannon and a cheap date
whos only real true love in life is watching other people be happy
and making little writings on poetry sites
hopefully one day someone will come across my writings
and **** themselves

**** your pretty thoughts
**** your happyness and your family van
**** your tie and **** your pretty wife and your pretty life
******* for hating me
******* for loving me.
Pretty blue skies
I send up all my white lies like clouds where they sit and mutter
Where they sit and wait
to laugh at me one more time.
Pretty grey skies
where my black lies turn into rain clouds
and they rain on your pretty parade.