Walking up and down this road
kicking rocks as I go
following the road to heaven
and leaving hell behind.

just lie to me and tell me you love me just lie to me and tell me you care just lie to me and tell me im lovely just lie to me while i brush your hair just lie to me and tell me youll miss me if i have to hit the road and leave just lie to me and tell me you love me when im lieing to you as i leave

If you think your in a hard place
and you cant even look at people in their face
just remember keep pace
and stay laced up.

She smokes her cigarettes
and goes away in a strange place once midnight hits
she takes slow drags off her glass pipe
and falls away from the earth.
She thinks of all the places she dreams of being besides this basement
She thinks of all the boys who use to ******* to her when she was hot.
But the demon inside the pipe has stolen away all of her dreams
and her looks.
She pulls out her driveway and wonders
"what the **** am I doing "
but she follows the yellow dotted lines
to the corner of the grocery store
parks in the back
and waits for her glistening little sack.
She always liked crystals the way they sparkled and gleamed
she could'nt keep her eyes off them.
But these little crystals have iced over her heart
and shes afraid she cant make it back to where its warm.
She panics
She panics
She panics
I roll by about noon
I've been calling with no answers
and I knock on her door
with no answer
She has a key thats under the mat
and I pick it up
and I Panic
and I Panic
I find her safe and sound with her headphones on
and I see in the corner of the room the broken pipe
and I see in the bathroom
the little crystals on the floor
and I see in her eyes
tears.

moving threw the night
moving threw the night
moving threw the night
headlights passing
headlights passing
Button up your shirt
roll down your sleaves
and follow the theives as they steal this night away.
Moving threw the night
moving threw the night
tomorrows already gone
and todays already done
and the future is one more dissapointment
and the present is one more appointment
schedule your life and you'll live in a constant rush
let your life unfold infront of you
and steal these moments away.
Like a thief in the night I'll steal your memories away
like alzhiemers you will forget my face
whos to say that you wont die today
whos to say that your not dead already
and I'm holding unto this utter fear that death is right around the corner
and It just takes one wrong move
into uncomming traffic.

see baby its all good
I'm a pretty chill dude
and I aint got much time
that I would'nt waste waiting for you
so I'll kick back
and wait for your to get your head on straight
because you rolling around town.
I'm chasing you
but like a figure 8
we will collide soon
maybe it's fate
but I beleive that
in this little place
your face will be a hard one to forget.

She was a goddess
amongst mear mortals
and I was a peasent
that wanted to be a knight
so I could be her prince charming.
She always gave me little looks
and her father said I would never be good enough
but I made it my life to prove him wrong.
So I collected as much  silver and gold as I could
and I bought me a shanky *** little horse.
I fed that horse
and trained it to be big and strong
soon I was ready to fight for the heart of the Princess
So I managed to get myself some armor it took me a long time to build it up
but when I did my armor was stronger then anyone elses.
Mine was built threw blood, sweat, and tears
and in building this armor I had no fear of loosing
I had no fear of her stupid father because I was comming in with something the
other fighters didnt have and that was love.
The others wanted the Princess for the family money
I wanted to Win her heart
and even if I loose
I know in trying I won already.
The battle came and I was shivering
not in fear but in knowing that I made it to the big show
I got my horse ready fed it a apple before, tied my armor straps tight around my waist
and got ready to fight for my Princess.
The first battle went fast my horse was to fast for the other horse and the man layed flat on his back.
The second man gave a little bit more of a fight you could tell he was from wealth and might
he tagged my shoulder but I stayed upright. I took the corner around back at him and got ready
WAM nailed him right in the sternum he went down like a rock in the water.
The final and most precious battle came
and it was a sword fight
I forgot to make a good sword I thought this was gonna be a horse match.
I had two small blades to his mighty majestic sword. People said this guy was a Demi God the Alpha male
but I wasnt afriad. I got myself ready and prepared for him to  make a mistake I noticed the land was covered in holes from the previous races. He comes running at me without seeing these holes and trips and falls basically right infront of me I jump on his fallen body and slice his throaght and the crowd goes silent. All you can here is the Princess's heart start beating again.

I wonder what it was like to be the first humans
I wonder what it was like to see the world so clean, wild,and free.
before skyscrapers and cars
before lights and freight trains.
I bet the first humans listened better
and understood more.
Now we have a robot(siri) conversating with us telling us what to do.
When before we listened to the wind and the stars to tell us our way.
The first humans made there way without a GPS and we get lost in our own
city streets now.
The first humans traveled on foot, drank water from streaming river bends,
and ate whatever they could hunt up on the way.
That life would be great
too be able to  be the first person to name a bird or a snake
OH and what a sight it would be to watch the world as it  grows
and forms like seeing The Grand Canyon when water was actaully all the way to the top of it.
Or seeing the Pyramids Form.
I think that If I was the first human
we would be in a hell of alot better situation then we are now.
The first human could've made the decision for peace and not war
the first person we had was a bad seed
he made the wrong decision that day
and look what that decision has led too
Billions of years
of living with one person
mistake.

I just wanna dance
in the tall grasss
and really just take one day
to not care about anything
except the wind on my back
and poison ivy of coarse
I wanna sit on a dock and just rub my toes on the surface of the water.
I wanna just run wild and sit on my favorite hill and smoke cigs
I wanna have a silent nap
and hear the birds chirp
and the woodpeckers peck.
I wanna feel the suns rays on my tan flesh
and I wanna eat a apple right from the branch.
I'm tired of money, the time clock, and looking at my watch as
it slowly ticks and tocks my life away.
I wanna be free
I wanna be unchained
by this life lines
with no way of connecting the dots
it seems I just keep
on searching
and searching
for something
that I'm sad to say
I might never find.
But I know my destiny
is out there waiting under a rock
and all its gonna take is my big toe
to run into it
and my hand to lift that rock up
and toss it into the air.
Underneath will be my fate
it will be laying there
waiting
just as I was waiting
its waiting.

So I always said I would'nt "date" a girl I work with
when I say "date" I mean have *** with.
"dates" are not real nomore
"dates" are only leading to both of you gettin a feel to have *** anyways
so why not just have *** and then go out on "dates" that way all the *******
get in your pants lines are already out of the way
and the real questions can start.
But I'm craving to have this girl
I'm chewing on the side of my cheek
and the blood is soaking into my mouth
and I just want her so bad.
Shes from Sudan
so She's so dark, tall,pretty.
I asked her out one night on the city
and we walked around and ate icecream
it was a nice "date"
it was even better
when I heard her screams in my apartment
later on that night.

I wonder if this new approach will be beneficial
even though I'm acting somewhat superficial
I wanted to tell her how beautiful she was but it just seemed
too boring for her ears too hear.
So I called her ugly and waited for her reaction
she was surprised and said she's never been called that.
So I told her she was unimportant to me
and that she wasnt the prettiest girl in this stupid *** little town.
She slowly started to grin and I slowly started to turn it up
just admiting everything I wanted too say.
Ever since I seen her stupid pretty face in 3rd grade,
Ever since the days when she didnt notice me because I had braces, and
Ever since the day I asked her out to prom and she said I dont think so.
Well she knows I've always been a lier so she knows all my words calling her a peice of **** werent true
and it was a different way of telling her how speacil she was to me
and she knows that the more I unleash on her the more it proves how much  I want her to be with me.
So we take a taxi back to my apartment and she tells me to continue degrading her
she just was tired of being called pretty
thats all.

Our lives are kinda like comets
just waiting to run into something
so it eventually stops.

Family Bound
My Family means everything too me
Got a brother in the Navy He's married got a beautiful
wife too.
He's enjoyin the beautiful sunsets in the city where Micky Cohen use to own.
Got my other brother whos a gear head, a knucklehead, works on knuckle heads, and hes my knuckles too.
Me and him use to get into it throw a little bruises around but **** has he made me proud
went to the city where you can cook eggs on the sidewalk Pheonix.
Went to school too work on bikes and now works at Harley.... this means for me free tee shirts and cool biker partys too go to
hot women in leather pants and mean dudes with long goatees.
My Mom shes a healer, a bible dealer, and the leader of a womens AA program but is married to a Ex-convict, Ex-felon, Ex-drug dealing, Ex-******
I never understood why she goes for trying to heal men maybe it's because shes been trying to fix all of her 3 boys and thats the only way she knows how to love a man. Either way I love her too death and it'll be death if that man decides to lay a hand on her again... you'll see something that only Hades eyes have seen but enough about that loser... Unto my Old man.
My pops hes a machine mechanic a use too be psychobath maniac tatted up with rough hands, palms always itching and eyes always looking out for his family. He once told me Jay " You Gotta Pay to Play" and those words have stuck with me for some reason for a long *** time. He always has these little one liners that just make ya get back to reality,wipe your nose clean, put your head up and stand up straight and get back to the money. So thats my blood thats what makes my heart beat everyday knowing that my family gots my back to succeed.

so we ran away from this small town
and crashed the car in the ditch
and took off into the corn fields
I remember thinking
"Are we gonna get away with this"
and the farmers didnt mind
haha
wow
and yeah we chilled in the silo and smoked cigs
and just looked at the stars
and wondered if times like these
were maybe not ment to be lived
and I asked you
for
our
first
kiss

Oh darling
do I beg to see you dance
You put all the boys into such a trance
and you got me on my knees
begging baby baby please
come home with me
but you run to the big pocket boys
with big rockets that can take you beyond the sky
and I got a 1.45
not much to get by

Money gets the girl
spend all your money
just to make her your world
then she goes bye bye

So I watch as you walk by
and girl you got things that money just cant
afford to buy
your out of touch
out of sight
just like the moon in the night
and I'm digging in my pockets
just trying to find enough
to buy your time

Money gets the girl
spend all your money
just to make her your world
then she goes bye bye

So the night goes by
and all the boys are watching you shake that
money maker
pulling you aside spending your precious time
because really you know they cant afford you
but if they get a hour of your time
your thiers for the night
but not saying they  wont pay a price

Money gets the girl
spend all your money
just to make her your world
then she goes bye bye

Copywrited JamRock Lyrics

the smoke it pours slowly out
my shadow seems to be following a little further behind
I'm loosing my grip on this steering wheel
Swivin in and out of traffic
I see Minivans and 18 wheelers
honking and blazing thier horns
I'm struggling to stay awake
but only 2 more hours and I'll be home
I dig in my glove compartment and pull out
a pre rolled cigarete and my Oney Box
I spark the cig and pack me a little one hitter
puff them both down fast
and drink my 3 hour old coffe I got at some rumie gas station
its cold as ****
but it'll do the trick
I scratch my eyes and my *****
and turn up the radio The Current is a little to Indie for this night ride
So I put on 93.6 The Blaze and listen to some As I Lay Dieing
Ironic I have'nt died yet....
I listen and tune in
and then I tune out as the white dotted line
directs me towards home
where my dog awaits
to greet me
it's been a long trip
yes it has

it always *****
when two guys are fighting over one girl
and one loses and one wins
in my case I seem to always loose
I just want one time for it to be vice versa
instead I'm left untangling this knot in my heart
and it makes me realize that maybe I'm just ment to be this guy
the loser
God when I win it's gonna taste so sweet
and I wont be left kicking rocks down the side of the street
I wont be left dragging my heart behind me
because its really slowing me down
******* it's really taking a toll

We were Just kids
afriad of the world
Waiting on our time to break free
Waiting for our time to break away from this town.
We wanted to see Cali and New York
but never seemed to get further then our front Porch
I remember one day we said lets just go
and not have a plan
or a place
fill the car up and our pockets with as much as we can.
We hit the open road with nothing more then a elightenment that'd we find
something bigger then ourselves.
That maybe somewhere out there we'd find our destiny our fate
Do you remember gripping the stearing wheel as night turned to day
and I ended up in the backseat snuggled up with a make shift pillow.
I remember looking up at the stars and asking myself
just what IS this all about
why is it that we are all trapped in this constant unfullfillment
we cant seem to find the nourashment our souls need.
I remember digging in my pockets and realizing that I had a good 75 cents too my name
and I started to miss home.
That little trip didn't last long
and it was only a Gravel Travel
but questions were answered that needed to be answered
I found myself out there on those county roads
even if it didn't last as long as I wanted.

Ha you could never dance
we were always stepping on eachother toes
and it wasn't easy
and it wasn't easy
keeping up with the beat
but my hands
they guided us to the dance floor for some odd reason
we always were clumsy but our clumsyness
always seemed kinda flauntlessly cute
Im makin up words now
just to explain how horribly sweet we were
and your new guy is a great dancer
but I seen you at the bar
and johnny cash played
and you didn't wanna look at me
but you did
and I seen your heart break
yeah
I seen your heart break

I found a new girl now
Yeah I found a new girl
but im still searching for you in her

I tried to say some words
and they never came out right
You were the nerd
and I was the book you could never finish.
I was the end you always wanted to never hear
but I had I had I had
to make this story end
I was your chapter you would always go back and read
I was your sleeve when your nose ran
and when you ran out of tears
I made sure you made more
bababababy im sorry
and I know I know I know
I coudlve done a thousand gazillion things different
but im glad I did the things I did

Can I tell you
that I sure did miss your lovely ways
you use to play ray charles
and dance around with just your socks on
you'd tell me I worked too much I should've took a day off.
yeah yeah yeaaaaaah honey im sorry I didn't take a sick day
but now im takin sicks days being sick of not seeing you
my vinyls are all worn out
And the mixtapes you gave me are all worn out
Kinda like my heart
the cds they skip now
and im trying to recapture that melody
of the shower water hittin the floor
and your head burried in the covers
asking me to come to bed
I was to tired then
but now im not tired enough
oh boy
wow
oh boy
this could go on
and on
and on
and on

Tomorrows and todays
and todays are tomorrows
Our sorrows are ment to be captured

I ate that forbidden fruit
and I was left still hungry
I didn't know how to tame my hunger so
I went into the woods for a few days
bathed in the creek and took away sticks and stones
from my adventure I sure did go threw some hellish days
I was sick of cars and stoplights so I just sat and watched nights pass to days
******* it was a nice ride
fallin down hills
fallin down hills
so I put my wallet in the river
and watched the money flow down the stream
Just watched all of it go down stream
just watched it

when the time is right
when the times are good
I lived in apartments smack dab in the hood
I remember the tweakers and the town drunks
use to knock on my door when I lived in the slums
Use to give them water
and a place to sleep
woke up thinking will they be there to greet
they always were gone
And I fell back to sleep.
the moment I moved away from this place
I felt kinda fake
pretending I was rich
And my heart felt fake
I still often wonder if they knock on the door
and instead of a couch they get a curb or a floor

I work a lot
And I write when im off
I sit around and think
that im pretty well off
my mother calls me daily
and my brother is in the navy in cali
my bro works for harley
And im the writer
Every christmas I share one of my trending poems
And this only happens when I come home
my dad he's a fabricator
and he tells me and my brothers
anything can be created
if you just make it
Don't let someone else make it
before you

your a hot little mess
with your hair tied in two pig tails
and your skirt flirting with you knees.
Your little *** is bouncing and I'm sipping my drink
just watching you move around.
All the handsome boys are sure all over you tonight
but you just came to drink for free and watch them fight over you.
I love when there is a good jukebox in the bar
because Thats where I truly shine
I throw in some Yeah Yeahs Yeahs go back to my stool and sip my drink
all the handsome boys go to playing pool because they know shes not here to go home
but like I said the Jukebox is my ticket in.
I see her walk up and ask if I'm drinking alone
I tell her well I was...

Went to the Antique Store to look around
and I found this old Pocket watch
it was gorgoeus
and to my amazement there was a pretty girl behind the counter.
I asked her "whats the best part of your job"
She replied "Seeing peoples faces light up like yours just did"
I replied " Im a sucker for pretty watches"
she giggled and I asked if I could hold it
she took the watch out and held it in her hand.
I asked her how does it feel to know time is passing by in your hand.
Think about how many hands and how many moments this one watch caught and now
it's ended up right here right now for this exact moment. She handed it over smiled
I tossed her 25 bucks and told her that I'll always remember this moment
everytime I look at my watch
Time has Froze.

I've always ment to tell you
that you weren't my first love
you weren't the thing that took my breathe away
I remember my first love
it was the first time I smelt a Bonfire
and saw my friends playing there bongos and singing silly songs.
I remember them ashes dancing in the sky as I took my shirt off and felt the wine
run down my belly.
I remember hearing the fire crackle with the sound of our laughter
I remember seeing Jed throwing big *** wood logs into the fire God he was strong (dead now from a car surfing drinking and driving accident)
I remember falling in the love that moment
It was such a simple night but that night was the last time all of my friends were together
before life suffocated everyone
before school schedules and baby showers took over
before everyone turned to ******* Life Chasers instead of Dream Makers.
Now I'm sitting here and wondering
do we all just forget how to live one day
do we all just give in to the way society wants us to be
do we all just forget how to live.
I miss that night and I dream about it every night
and if I could relive that day
I'd replay it over and over and over
because we were all free that night
we were just kids singing,dancing,and laughing.

I got a  little canoe
and set sail to the moon
I took my bandanna and pulled it tight.
Grand Dads bottle of Makers Mark was my good supply
some Marlboro Smooths and a old swiss army knife incase I got shipwrecked.
I cashed in my last paycheck and told my boss I wasn't comming back
I had a Full Moon to catch and the sun was already setting.
I ran into Johnny **** Eyes at Holiday Gas Station and asked if he had any of them mushrooms still and if he had a extra couple hits of acid..... "Infact he replied I just got myself a quarter and about a 10 strip of acid for myself but your going to the moon right... in that old *** canoe your Grand Dad gave you when he passed away. I replied " Yeah Johnny I got a Harvest Moon thats not gonna be waiting long mind if you just toss me a deal and give me the whole shabang." I pulled a friend card and mentioned the time I hooked him up with 4 double stack X pills back in the day and also cut him a deal on a Rothbury ticket. Needless to say he handed that **** over. So back to the river shore where I began the tale I was scared of what was to come, I was scared to just leave without anyone knowing.  I put on my old converse sneakers strapped up my suspenders put a little engine oil in my hair to slick it back and rolled my sleaves up in my flannel said a little prayer to Grand Dad that his canoe would make it... I remember watching him build it with his strong hands before the parkinsons kicked in... I remember him telling me that this ****** could go to the moon and back.... so I popped 3 hits of acid took a big swig out of the Makers Mark, Lit a Cig and said to the sky well Grand Dad you better be right.... You better be right

if your gonna leave make sure you leave my Garden State DVD

I walk around town
flicking cigerrte butts
hands in my pockets
and no where to really go.
my mom told me
that when I came out her womb
I didn't even cry
she said I just looked at her
like I was lost.
The indians call this a Lost Soul that died
and rebirthed not knowing they died.
I remember my mom said that I didnt start crying till
I layed down on her chest.
She knew it wasnt cause I was sad
but tears of happiness that I finally found a Home.
She said I was a good baby but the docter said that I'd struggle all my life.
She asked why... well Nancy your son has bad legs he'll need to be in leg braces for most of his toddler life.
My mom knew that I used my legs to much in my past life and I was paying for it now.
She told the docter dont worry all my baby needs is a place to rest his head.
Let his legs rest and he'll be walking again.
Now im walking flicking these ciggerte butts
thinking back to what my mother said
but it looks as if I'll find my way back to that silent birth
and recycle this whole life
for what its worth.

My hearts a Orphan and It's Looking for a new home

I work the day shift
and work the night shift with you on my mind
dust covers your old wooden picture frame.
I clear away the debris and again
I'm back to where we left off
me chasing you
trying to grab your hand one more time
But I always seem to just grasp the end of your sleeve.
I sit on the curb with my hands up to my face
and remember when I drew a heart with our names in the sand
I try to figure out why this dust covers my heart with me waking up wiping it all off again.
Do I wanna let the dust build so I forget about you and you wither away?
Do I wanna sit at the table and look behind my back and not see you fumbling in the dish water?
Do I wanna go threw my laundry and find clothes you left behind?
I dont have the answer to these questions because as much as I wanted to stop you from going
I know I wasnt right for you
and I know the best thing for you was to run away without even giving me a last kiss.
But baby I miss you
and I want to set this house on fire so it doesnt smell of you.

A wobblie stool
is so lame
Everwhere I go to drink or eat
a wobblie stool always the same
infact I look way more drunk because of this **** chair.
I try to kick my foot up to stop it
Try switchin stools
Try to put a box of matches underneathe it.
nothing works
it all boils down
To me not being heavy enough to way it down.

I see you with your new man
I see how he doesn't ******* right
cuz your walkin right
and not bowl legged
cuz I gave you Swayze roadhouse ****
and hes given you fresh prince
understand I ate that *****
put a finger in your *** and ****
he gets a handy and blows his nut
You know I'm in that ***** the whole night
have you cash in sick days

I'm back
baby momma still asking for fresh diapers
but I'm asking for last months rent

greasy hands
and rusty tools
bolts and shop rags
that dry my tough skin
i see the clock tick down
as me and my brother work away
the money makes us patient
because our time awaits
sick back crack the tall tops
and shots bring back the days when we sat on bar stools and talked ****
but when the magazine cover cops our last names
we will be sittin in the shade and our dickies are in the dryer waiting to be folded
creased and soon we will be pampered on
and we will sit back and smoke cigs and talk about the days when we talked about gettin rich
now were rich and talking about what we will do next
paychecks are old news
the new girls are old news
and the old news are our new stories
just sittin and listenin to wu tang
and sparkin up mexican bluegrass
and not cashin in our g pass
flippin pages
flippin pages

i see the vine
and pick each grape
feel the juice in between my toes
i watch the vine slowly grow
and see it die each winter
but i know spring is near
and ill be back out on the fields
watching my babies blossum
and ill pick each grape
and turn into yuppie juice
and poor mans fluids
that will sooth the tummies
and make good conversations that  my feet made

if I was to see my soul
off rambling around
I'd catch it and keep it safe in my hand
like a monarch butterfly
I'd let it rest it my palms

Id **** to go back home
where my bedroom still looks the same
where my mom takes my ***** laundry away to be cleaned
but my ***** laundry piles up now
and I wanna go home
where my laundry doesnt sit in the corner for me to look at

I gave up on trying
gave up on lieing
but i cant give up on us
like a sore
the **** still pores out
the infected wound
still irritates my skin
and like all of us I was born to sin
but please god not this again
please not this again
save me
save me save me save me
save me from this

Love me drunk
kiss me sober
**** me high
sweetheart

**** all of it and quit playing with it silly

I ate a fresh red apple right from the tree
as you danced there infront of me
I felt it's juices in my beard
and when you kissed me
and pulled away
our lips stuck a little.
But that apple tree was our little spot
it set just right above the city
where we could watch all the pretty people
doing the pretty things pretty people do.
I told you I'd marry you someday
and make your belly full with a baby
I told you I'd get a job as a farmer
and I'd plant a apple tree just for you
One day  our kids will sit under that apple tree
and pick its ripe red fruit and eat and talk.
You and I would sit and think about that day
When we layed under that apple tree above the city
and talked about this day that were watching unfold infront of us.

She ran for the highschool track team
She ran her way all the way to UCLA
She runs before the sun comes up
and one day
She'll run away
and never return

Anybody knows my struggle
its shown on my bare flesh
Scars and Bruises
from a Rough life but yeah I stood the test of time
yeah I stood the test of time
I Close my aching eyes and
Hold my shaking Hands together tight
for I know this too Shall Pass This too Shall Pass
and God only gives you as much as you can handle
But he gives his Soldiers a little bit more then they deserve at times
but he knows he has a fighter in me on the land
my Heart is soft
but my hands are rough
for I've worked hard all these
hours
days
and years
to be right here right now
HAPPY
but to also remember the sad days
When I had nothing going for me
cept this
paper
and pen

My heart beats slow at first till I see your face
then my heart is off and running like a high speed chase
I try to tame it and settle it down
but its no use when your around
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

And Yeah I tried my best
But sometimes waiting is better then forgetting
for when the time is right
the Sunlight will burst threw
and it'll bring you to your knees
and my prayers will be answered
when you walk threw that door
and I'll say
I waited for this women all my life
Now shes all mine for tonight
even if it's just for tonight
dont take for granted her love jay says my heart
even if time made you wait
just for tonight
just for tonight

People ask me how jesus can come in three forms
the father the son and the holy spirit
I tell them he's like water
Water can be ice liquid and steam
get it?