this is a follow up to Battles, a poem i wrote a little more than a year ago.

Down here on this ground
I lie here
I could not move
Overwhelmed
Overcame

When i thought i could not go on
I heard a voice
A still small voice
Calling me
'Child, my child.'

I reached out but no words escaped my mouth
I could only bask in the beauty
I could only lie amazed
I chose to only
I chose to just surrender

Love enveloped my deepest soul
Peace everlasting overflow
Now this battle is not my own
Now this battle, i do not stand alone

She broke his heart.
He said they're fine.
But he know it's not.

He went to sleep.
And in his sleep
She came to him.
He shunned her out.
She came again.
He asked her to stop.

He knew she tried to apologize.
He knew he should forgive.
He could not bring himself to do it.
But he knew it's the right thing to do.

He went and searched for her.
He saw her new beau from afar.
It made things harder.
But he knew he had to.

He found her.
He said "Hi"
And with that, he finally forgave her.
But they can no longer go back to where they were.

And then, he woke up.
Knowing that it was just a dream.
For it will not happen to him.
For she does not know how much she's hurt him.
For she has a new life now.

And now, he's conflicted.
For he does not know what to feel anymore.

How does it feel
To **** me each day
With your presence
When you are near
When I see you in his arms
I die a little inside
Knowing I could not be
The man you want
For the man I am
Is not the man you desire
And the man I long to be
Could not be the man you would want too

It's definitely not fair
Not fair I say
Not fair they say
And quoting The Script
"For when the heart breaks it don't break even
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces"

But not anymore
For I've decided to move on
And you'll remain a memory I have
And you will now be somebody I used to know
Now, no more strings attached
I'm going to be who I want to be
And not who you see me to be
So, here and now
All I'll say is
Goodbye
Just goodbye
For if I wish you well,
I would be lying
Though I no longer hate you
I can't bring myself to wish you luck
So, just goodbye
Goodbye

what should i wear today?
should i be dressed in white?
or should i mirror the passing night?

should i be in green?
but of life or of envy?
or should i be in purple?
but of royalty or of poison?

should i choose red?
for red is the color of love
but also the color of rage

or should i go blue?
of calmness or of sadness?

what should i wear today?
who should i be?

i was once colorblind
everything i see was in gray
but once your lips touched mine
i now see in multi-color

so this is blue
so this is red
so this is yellow
but of all the colors i see
i love your color the most

as i plugged in my earphones
i drown out the crowd
familiar sounds fill my ears
as opposed to meaningless chatter
here i found solitude
here i found peace

i hear the thunders roar
i hear the rain as it pattered my window panes
i hear my heart beating as my eyes shut tight
i tried to run but i hear You call
"I'm here" was all i heard