i thought.

you tasted like lust and you smelt like wintergreen and your hands were feathers and tickled my skin.


i know.

you tasted like skoal.
you smelt like smoke.
your hands felt like regret.

How do you make emotions stop?
   Take love to the edge, then let it drop?
How can you just let it all go,
   When holding tight is all that you know?
Never just turned and walked away
   With a heart that’s crying out to stay.

Letting go just takes all your might,
   When doing what’s best doesn’t feel right.
Knowing there is no one to blame,
   Knowing who it was that fanned the flame.
Knowing who chose to cross that line,
   Hanging too tight to what wasn’t mine.

Wrapped up so tightly in this web,
   Yet wanting to tear away instead.
Walk away and just let it go,
   It sounds so easy, and yet I know,
Its so hard to just let it lay.
   Wish it wouldn’t have to be this way.

Are we friends?
More than that?
I don't know
Dude-
This is your call

So make your choice
Friends
Best friends
Dating

I'd rather be friends
Just friends
Having a boyfriend is
Too much for me


Just friends is
Fine with me
Just one thing
Don't hurt me-
AGAIN

Please take my pain away.
I can't find a way out.
I can't find a way to live
With all this crushing doubt.

I've been good at shielding
This pain I hide,
But now the veil is coming off
And you will see how many tears I've cried.

My eyes are bruised with black and blue.
They are caused by all the
Times I've tried
To get through to you.

I've tried to make you see
That my heart isn't just a toy.
I've tried to make you see
That I'm human, not something you can destroy.

This is something
That no one can fix.
This is what I have become,
Out of you're constant mind tricks.

You made me believe
That someone actually
Wanted me,
But now I just lay here

In my broken heart's debris.