You   are  etched
                      in     my      memory
                        and            burned
    ­                         in          my
                                 Heart
                                    <3

Don't hate me for what I've done
Please don't remember me this way
Think of me as I once was
When there was hope for brighter day
During times when we would smile
And they would not fade
I hope it was worth your while
I'm sorry that I cannot stay
Believe me I have tried my best
But please don't remember me this way
And don't forget me like all the rest

Remember me for the good times we had
The laughs we shared along the way
Think more of the good times than the bad
In your heart I'll forever stay
Smile for me and shed no more tears
It was time for me to go away
There is nothing more for you to fear
I'll be watching over you always
Believe me as I tell you the truth
I am in a much better place
And I will always remember you

She walks with silent steps
So as not to disturb
The artists that are sleeping
Within their works

What a gullible twit I was
To ever believe for a second
That those world from your mouth
Ever held any meaning at all

What an idiotic imbecile I was
To think you had chosen me
That no longer were you hers
Ever did you see me

What a moronic simpleton I was
To think all you wanted was me
That nothing else mattered
Ever was I yours

What a blockheaded buffoon I was
To give myself wholly to you
That I gave you my all
Ever waiting for you to give back

What a dimwitted sucker I was
To show you my deepest secrets
That no one else ever saw
Ever was I trusting you

What a foolish dolt I was
To grasp onto the past
That I should have let go of
Ever do I make this mistake

What a beautiful liar you were
To ensnare me with your wiles
That I could never resist
Ever were you scheming

And it stings in the shower
Just the water running over
Let alone to wash it with soap
So you leave it alone
You tried to go around it before
But that only made it worse
And you can't wash above
Because it runs down into the cuts
So they notice the smudge
That was there yesterday
And didn't quite rub off

They wonder why
You don't take as long as you used to
And they notice that your body wash
Is still three quarters full
Even though you bought it six months ago
They wonder why then
If your soap is still full
And you don't shave in the shower
Why do you need more razors
When you just bought a pack
Not even a month ago

They noticed in summer
But now its winter so its okay
For you to wear long sleeve shirts everyday
You hid your t-shirts so you could tell them
That you had nothing else to wear
They noticed that you never went swimming
You sat on the beach or in the car
They begged you to come in
And said you lost your swimsuit again
Even though you knew exactly where it was
You just couldn't let them see your scars

They notice the smile on your face
But not the pain behind your eyes
And they don't care to see the fear
That they might find you out
Its easier for them to believe the lie
Than to face the truth
And help you
They would rather the easy way out
To live in ignorant bliss
Than to notice your scars and cuts
And ask you what was wrong

And eventually they stopped noticing
The no longer asked you
How your day went
They met your cries for help
With harsh words of get over it
And calling you an attention seeker
But that really is all you want
Is for someone to pay attention
To start noticing again
That you are not okay
And you can't just get over it

Too often do these things go unnoticed
Or they are mocked
As a cry for attention
And ignored as a call for help
Too soon do people end their lives
Because its easier for you
To live in ignorance
And not deal with it
They say ignorance is bliss
But it only is for you
Not for the people suffering everyday

So it is up to you and me
To break through the ignorance
And see the fear and pain in their eyes
Because if we don't say anything
Then they won't either
I know this because I've been there
And I still put on that mask
Because I was told to just get over it
But that only made it worse
The fact that I should be able to get over it
But I couldn't

So it is up to us
To see behind that mask
And ask someone if they are okay
To see the cuts and scars
And lend out a helping hand
Because if we don't then who will
We need to speak up for those too afraid
Of speaking for themselves
To make a point that it is not okay
Just to say get over it
And we need to start noticing