I want, what by rights I might never have been to have done without.
To enjoy the kiss of sunlight entwined within the caress of gentle summer winds.
To gaze in delight, as gazed upon by eyes so endearing nearly bursting are they with appreciation and fond wishes.
A life that is less unsure and exceedingly willing to do more, to open and confess through action the depths of commitment and devotion to such cause as doing good in other's lives.
Creating joy and smiling often.
Confessing love without expectation or disappointment.
For time with my reflection, eye to eye, knowing that we are alright.
Asking the one within to join in celebration
The very act of life, and embracing the time given.  
To know these emotions in relatable terms.
I would like to see my limits and find no disappointment in them.
To step up to my fears and embrace them as the fibers of the but one part of the whole that make me who I am.

I wish I could out these things into beautiful verses.

To share somehow just how deeply I feel I've locked myself away inside.  

To know love.  Return it and never feel so lonely as I seem to always be.  

I want to share myself with like minded souls.

To experience unconditional, and how wonderful this must be.  

To know how or where, this is done.

But here I sit, again.  Rambling

To shed another tear,
Of so many let roll down
The face always turned to you.
Borne of the state of the
Unwanted, so caught by such
These fall.  Or are wiped off.
Left to soak into pillows.
Only witnessed by the dark.
Betray a weakness within.
Tell tale evidence of a lack,
Unwillingness to love ones self.
Belief in being less when without.
Are but symptoms of poor choices
Of the heart, the need to please
At the cost of so many nights crying.
You can move on.  
You must see and believe,
That they are less, and left something great.
Hide not what hurt is felt.  
Promising only to not cause such in anyone else.