Jack R Fehlmann

Jack R Fehlmann Apr 2021

Allow One, to the past
But there they need leave it
One may clarify then.
A word misunderstood?
Deed less than?

One need only live today
though long for what has gone
so long as not lose sight of here and now.
Now is real. Now is precious.

Though do know
Now holds possible hurt.
Hurt when not felt and understood
well, it will stay in the now.
Only when one lets it.

Take these words to heart.
For the difficult lessons such was learned from
Trust that it returns in words,
and its edge never cleaves as deep
If firmly present here and now.

Even the One
Very, very best reason
may endure.

But We

Endure... Love

Jack R Fehlmann Apr 2021

"Endure"

A hundred words
simply cannot.

Not nearly enough.

My love,
It is yours alone.

Unlike anything,
every waking thought.

Yours,
and filled with so much.

This connection ,
affectionately beats in time.

Mine in my breast answers
as if called upon.

Never changes.

As I sit and write
or read sad words so perfect

As to fit, or mirror like reflect
every written poem

Unanswered
as if unread, unheard

You may never
Know in fact how lost I've become

How complete
Desperately in love

One alone must
such as I do even after

Must...
Endure

Jack R Fehlmann Mar 2021

How One Finds

I see it in the smiles
as I do or say
or jokingly play away
all the flaws
That lay just behind
right inside my eyes
those windows within
that if caught
do tell
that the smile
the humorous portrait
is but to hide
the truth
of how I can be
how I feel
the extent
of inadequacies
and loathing
that laughter hides away
Only okay
only how one finds me.

Jack R Fehlmann Mar 2021

So Much I'd Like

There truly is,
so much I'd like to say to you.

But when I speak,
I lose the words.

Do not actions?
Pronounce loudly?

I bid you please,
wait.

Watch, as for you
I build a world.

Listen to your heart,
The truth of those intentions.

Because there is truly,
So much I'd like to say to you.

Let me show you.

Jack R Fehlmann Mar 2021

Then We Didn't

I set the beat
of this heart by your eyes in the morning light.
I dug so very deep.
Around all these reasons
why I was so all alone.
I did my best to be the only right in a world so wrong.
I confessed and was splayed in truth before you.
I fought off my old habits
as soon as they crept into the light.
I did this for you, us, all it was
and wasn't
I felt I knew how to be great
Gave so what I believed would be
whole hearted.
I loved, still love and terribly miss
the you shaped piece of my insides
Missing and wishing
Wondering if you are.
If you saw
the future I thought would be the present.
We were great,
and I believed we could make it
Then we didn't.

Jack R Fehlmann Mar 2021

Tainted. Yet, Tempting

To wrap my lips around that tongue of gold

I bet it tastes better than rainbows dipped in Mmmm-hmmm-sauce. Hot. Or cold.

Oh, to press this subject until it penetrates that
Generous all but me libido.

My eyes would gush if those tears didn't evaporate so quickly.

Jack R Fehlmann Mar 2021

Who Are You Again?

I find, this night, myself, caught
In the middle, of a midst
Quite the example, of an emotional pickle
I have a need, to miss you, or long after
My oh my, do I...
Times as this moment of which I write
Every fiber of my world unwinds,
As I imagine to feel you near me
Therein resides that perplexed piece
To this pickle puzzle I am at such a loss for.

How can I miss, or feel my heart, lonely, thinking what if only...
I have yet to meet you. If at all you do exist?
Regardless, I do. I miss and hope that soon I get to meet you.