The manner of being human
The brilliant ability of self
To silently anguish inwardly
Emotions are unique to each
Love is a fine line to walk
From the best and happiest
To waiting, silently, holding hope
Gambling the time to be living
Waiting, with no guarantee
So hard to change your heart and what it wants harder to change someone else.

All the combined parts of me
Agree that there might be something.
A new view on old ways same wants
Only part of me wants all at once
Another is any amount will do
The frightened part says caution
While my trusting part in me
already forgave you
There are areas of ego
Shallow as they can be
The combined whole of who I am
Who I was, who I want to be
All of them missed you.

Words do little to say
The gratitude I have
Still now and even then
In your wonderful workings
Thrilled and proud, smiling
Reflecting that you haven't changed
Conforming to never had done that
Because you awash in light
Colors all so fondly follow you
Contrasting completely
The boring world faded
Is in fact little, skewed now
No longer beside,
completely beneath

In this world of misperception
False words and rotten actions
I strive to mirror You.  
Fearless with the owning
Judgements cast not by
But only upon wrongfully so
I am stunned and admittedly
Humbled, by such
an amazing truth
A light in darknesd
I look up to such
I aspire to try harder
Learning from you being you.
I am happy
Honored that I
Have a friend again
Thank you.

I can't wake from this living dream
The way I only seem capable
Hiding the gravity that is She
Inwardly denying I am hiding
Loss that profoundly causes
Creates folly and time to reflect
I am unwanted longed after not
Only longing, to never hold then
Again as I move motionless
Present only in the memory of when
Never coming again the way
I peel open my Inward prison

Did it again, my selfish self
Confessed when best left unsaid.
Years fall short of such as my woes
As does the wisdom years grant
Meaningless none the less
These foolish things ones heart does
If that heart won't let go regardless