Jack R Fehlmann

Jack R Fehlmann Jan 2014

And there you are,
that look, those eyes
A ghost too long haunting
And then there is me,
Still held by them
A fool that dreams of yesterday
Every time, each time,
Caught regardless, breath taken
And the fool chases the madman
In endless cycles of recognition
One coaches the way of acceptance
I remind myself that things change
But there you are,
And I am drawn up, quartered
The madman has his day
That look, those eyes

there you are
regardless

Jack R Fehlmann Jan 2014

An Essential Moment

Sorry...
Feel the crushing weight of it?

Beyond this the wasted,
the fake, wasted.

The sensation
of darkened moments awaiting
daybreak and understanding

our past is playing
Cords of silk,
strung to be strummed,
a gentle note.

The price is living,
cast out, caught up,
Knowing it was you...

You blew it.
Images played out every evening

Bitter sweet
the rotten misperception

Each scene you,
And suffered through to numbness

To hold this,
my happiest of moments
Without being able to know it

I find myself lonely,
My heart weighted...

Seeing the end,

Noticing it to be...
an essential moment

Jack R Fehlmann Jan 2014

A Gift To Those

words are tools
some are blind
off guard and unready
caught in unwavering
beautiful green eyes
sunshine smiles
willing they, the fools
visually taken by you
as lovely as you are
barter away my protection
believe the words
spoken from full and practiced lips
as my lust consumes
ability to recognise truth from fiction
what's mine is foreign
apparition of such belied intentions
as lovely as you are
take as few or leave none
interested in pleasing
forgetting my own
cause for you i care too greatly
to doubt the sincerity
care not when you lie
the world is a gift to those
amazing green eyes

Jack R Fehlmann Jan 2014

Only Going,... One Day

only goes it's one way
only goes,.. only goes,..
so pointless the routine

only goes,.. Only goes,..
never wanders, only goes,..
never strays,.. pointless,..

Only goes...
Going... always going,.. Away.
towards something,

only goes,..

Until it breaks...
This pointless thing...

never knows,..

What is waiting,..
Never goes, away,..

Never coming,..

only knows, it is not okay...
only knows, there is an end...

and the routine,...

Only knows,.. of not knowing,..
going only the one way...

until only one day,..

Only the end...
And then going

"Only going"
By:(jfehlmann

Jack R Fehlmann Jan 2014

then it seems

it isn't right
the way you tease
much about and inside
me isn't right
and I believe you can
why,...You must
see right through
the downward destinations
inside Where I hide
exactly what is felt
And one heart is caught
is then this trap forgotten
the less than savory,
The nothing special
the ignorant laugh
And the wise understand
this cannot be easy
What is yet that may be
might bear much wrong beneath
Some beyond, buried, unlikely
your pieces are much less deep
These then are mine, my secrets,
My own unlikable qualities, proud moments
Terrible wants, disturbing fantasies
Awful enough that they must stay down
Down is where demons go,
But I think you've seen them

Jack R Fehlmann Jan 2014

To believe, To see, To what End left to me

shouldn't you know
couldn't you see
wouldn't I think
shouldn't believe
would if maybe
I couldn't see the angles
I wouldn't have controlled

what's done is all been foolishly over done
you occupy that unforgettable place
where all you become is my ruin
what to believe,
to what choice is left to turn on

shouldn't you know
couldn't you see
wouldn't I think
shouldn't believe
would if maybe
I couldn't see the angles
I wouldn't have controlled

what's done is all been foolishly over done
you occupy that unforgettable place
where all you become is my ruin
what to believe,
to what choice is left to turn on

fearing life's end is mute
what if to fear the suns sinking
then have the same scene each evening
you know the sun will return
what side do you choose to see

Jack R Fehlmann Dec 2013

Minds Eyes Like Mine

Those that have not will never see
These things people are going through
Some old and a half off the ground
Hours ago on a paid version of this
and they, a half hour or so ago didn't know
What to get in my work and play
Some more of an old friend and would be
A great way of saying that I have nothing
Else if the user can be the best of the loveless
I Have a lot of distance to get my work
and I still don't understand
Why you should have a lot to want after that
I'll never fit in with the monster
So proud and so much
Too long to respond to your life
Strife to get my hands on the pitch
The end, but I love the idea that you can
Literally hundreds and the other hand I am in love
With the monster and the blue
Bright side and a lot more to do
Something about the presents the world was
Supposed I am so sorry I missed you
So so so so much
For sharing this with yourself
Father of, and the good people